I've been experimenting with sleep paralysis.

just now (a few minutes ago), i was conducting an experiment, where i lied down and listened to special beeps designed to wake you up (thanks to the guys here). you are supposed to stay completely still (not even any eye movement), and let the SP roll over you like a lead blanket (that's what it feels like).

so i did that, and SP DID come, although it was only from my feet to the middle of my lower leg. but before this, i have never EVER felt SP before in any way.

this is a breakthrough to me, as it shows that i CAN get to SP. ;D