Tomas's DJ - "Exploration of the inner Self"

It was a winter time. I was skying down hill along some road. It was progressively getting from just snow and nothing but snow.... to a muddy frozen road. I was filming the whole skying experience. Not sure for what reason. Then when I got home I realised that we kept Tyrannosaurus rex as a pet at home. It didnt surprise me much. I know that during that hard winter we found frozen cow somewhere and we still kept it. So I told my mother that I will cut it in half with chain saw and feed the Rex with it. She thought it was a good idea. But then I found myself mixing a bowl with flat pasta and a bowl with some red sauce. It was also for the Rex and my mother was to show me how to feed it. She took a knot of the pasta and spilled table spoon of the red sauce on it. Then she threw it to the mouth of the rex that was behind a wooden fence. And I continued doing that as she showed me.

I am with Martin S in some little, almost one room house. It is a night time and I am not sure why we there. There are some two other guys. One of them is very drunk. Marin is doing something on the side. I look at the other guy, he is blond and has blue eyes. He reminds me SS soldiers from WW2 movies. He also looks at me and I am ask him if he is german. He asks me the same thing right at the same time. I tell him, I am not. Then I realise that he is gay and is trying to hit on me. I tell him right away I am straight and to back off.
He then starts touching the other drunk guy. Next thing I see is that the guys is lying on his front with his ass exposed and the other guy is rubbing him. I dont need to see this I think to myself. Then out of nowhere, or as if from under the blanket, some other person appears and starts vomiting! It goes everywhere! I get really angry as bits land on my trousers!! SHIT! Lets get out of here I tell Martin. We walk outside, it looks like its some kind of celebration. New years or such! There are many drunk people outside.

I am in my room in Czech. I have quite a big aquarium with golden fish. Suddenly my mum comes into my room chasing a little dog. There is Vet also coming in and my mum says they have to kill the dog. I am surprised as it is still a puppy.
But I mind my business with my fish. I need to feed them. I have a handful of dead fish and I stick it on the aquarium wall at the water level. They disappear in seconds, all eaten. I am very surprised. I look properly into my aquarium and see some of the fish are huge koi carps!! I think they will eat my other fish and I should get them out of there!!! There is one big gold one and one big white one. The white one is particularly cool because it has only one eye in the centre! I think it must be some rare mutation. It reminds me of start track for some reason!!!

I had 5-HTP before sleep 0:15..... then woke up at 3:30 (too early) then at 4:30 and somehow I fell asleep again..... and woke up at 6am... then I took 8mg of Galantamine and 500mg of choline... and went to be right away...

It took me a long time to fall asleep.... probably as I slept too much....... I was getting frustrated... I was on my back first... then on my right side and then on my back again..... I am repeating my intentions and lucid goals at one point as I am on my back.... I see sky with some ornament made up of clouds... and I feel intense sensation of falling.... and I am thinking to myself Wohoooo this is it....!! but I feel my waking body again...

Then I am in the sky more like levitating rather then fling of falling...
I instantly know I am lucid (I attribute this to the high level of wakefulness when attempting lucidity).
I start experimenting with different types of flying, or better to say arm positions. First I spread my arms and imagine jet our of my palms.... I achieve pretty decent speed... then I stretch one arm forward (it seems unusually long) and it speeds up a bit.... and a little more with both arms forward.
At this point I am pretty high approximately 3km... and the speed of flying seems like 60km/h.
I fly closet to the ground and it seems like some Czech village that I don't know. I am flying around a bit and then I spot a girl (27-30, with dark hair, not necessarily hot but charming, a little chubby)... I remember one of my LG is to have lucid sex and see how it feels. I fly around the girl a bit, she notices me but pays very little attention to me. I say something like "hey, where you going? You wanna lift?".... to my surprise she says yes. I land and pick her up and I take of. Its easy..... I am not sure where to go, at one point it goes through my mind, whether I will be able to fly with her and at that time, my flying power weakens. I stumble through some tree branches and electricity cables hanging in between the buildings. She complains a bit. Now I hold her face to face in front of me.... and pull het towards me a bit, why still in the air.It is pretty obvious what is going on and she points down to a big house and tells me to land there. So I do so. We start to mess around a bit. I pull up her skirt, and see her pussy. I look closely, as I am interested how realistically it looks. PRETTY REALISTICALLY I have to say. Just her clitoris is a little big and sticking out and the whole pussy is bright red. I do not worry about it. I am lying on my back now with my penis ready for action... and she is about to sit on me... to my disappointment she turns around facing away from me... then she sits on me. I pay close attention to how it feels. I can see myself going in... vary real life like! I am impressed! But there is a road some 30 meters behind us and there are some kids playing. I am not really worry about it, but she seems to be. So we stop. Thats ok with me, I have a long list of things I want to test. She then walks around the house, here, as I understand, she lives. There are some men there, looks like her brothers and father. I take off again, she looks at me and I say something like.... I come back in a minute. (what am I concerned about????).
Then I land in front of different house, although it seems like its the same one just the front of the house. I think that the girl is there again. I get intrigued by the front door of the house as I want to try to change environment by walking through the door with an intention. I tell explain to the girl that if I intend so that there is different scene when I walk through the door, it is likely to happen. She looks at me blindly. I come to the door (that has a glass strip in the middle) and I think of a beach to be there when I walk through.... I open the door and walk through..... and there is just a corridor in old fashion. I think "damn". There is another door, so I try the same... and again when I am walking back outside. Nothing. I think to myself, maybe it is because there was the glass strip and I could actually see what is behind... so it was even harder to imagine!....In from of the house is a slope towards the road... with some cascade like gardens and right on the level of the house, there is a door that must lead to some storage room in that slope. I see it as another opportunity for my experiments. I come closely to the door, but as I look at it, the paint is all pealing off and there are spider webs everywhere, thinking none opened it for ages. Then a thought of a huge spider jumping out when I open it crosses my mind...we I know how the dream world works... so I chose not to open the door LOL.
I then climb up the cascade garden. There are some cats playing around. When I am almost on the top, there is a green-liver cat that starts attacking me. The father shouts something from the main door. The cat is like crazy, I dunno why, I am not scared, I find it quite funny. I grab it in my hands and keep it in distance. I am amazed how green its eyes are. I turn back to the father and shout "it has amazing green eyes! unbelievable"... to my shock the cat stops attacking me points at its neck, as it likes to be stroked there. I stroke it a few times and let go. I climb to the road, and see another big house with wooden parts in front of me. It looks abandoned. I see another door, come to it and open them, there is just dusty, sun lit corridor. I leave the door thing for now... and fly away.

Next I am in a room that I have not seen before. I am sure it is still the same village though. It is a living room from which you can walk right out. There is my auntie, and this is her house as I understand. Also there is my mum, Michael, and Alpasan and some other man, maybe even my brother but I am not sure. I think that my auntie is celebrating something, because there is quite a lot of healthy snacks on the low table... like celery stick, cream cheese, tomatoes, some crackers, etc. My auntie is eating and Misa is standing in the corner by a counter and she has baguette cut in half and filling it up with loads of cream cheese and bits of vegetable. My mum says, don't put so much in there (as my auntie is damn stingy)... michael says that its not just for her... and at that point in notice, under her white dress I can see her belly forming... as she is few months pregnant. I think to myself, well, now I can talk to dream figures and perhaps ask them about the dream guide..... considering its my family, so they should be helpful.
I ask them collectively, "where can I find a dream guide". They look at me bluntly, asking what it is. I think "damn". So I tell them, you know this is a dream right??? They don't pay much attention. I say, what if this was just a dream. No response. I come to the glass door outside and first try to put my fingers through the concrete pillar between the doors and the window. It feels solid. I look at the glass door, there is a curtain with flower motive hanging in front of that. I reach my arm towards it and close my eyes and walk though....... I shout, did you see that???? Could I do this if this was real??? They do not pay attention. I just straight back..... and see Apl sitting by the corner of the table. I kneel to him, telling him...I notice tattoos on his forearm, it look like little flags in black and white..... I tell him.... alps you are an intelligent man, you must understand what I am saying..... he looks at me.... I feel dry mouth so I just swallow and open and close my mouth to moist it a bit...... and I feel my waking body again... and my dry mouth........

I was having short afternoon power nap testing my REM-Dreamer...

I am in Czech, but seem that only for a short time....
It is a beautiful sunny day... it feels like spring....

I am coming from Pavel and thinking that I want to go running.... I actually run home and its lovely and effortless... I am taking deep breaths and it feels just amazing... the freshness and the joy of activity....
I am thinking that I should contact Zbisek Lhota and we could go for a run.... I also think to myself what clothes did I pack with me.... did I take some shorts???... Then I remember that i did...

I get home and run upstairs to my room to get ready and to put my phone on the charger...... As I am passing through the corridor, with the corner of my eye I notice my mum and my sister sitting in the living room having a chat. I hear just a fragment, but it makes me think..... my mum is saying something like "it is like if he said... In that night top you look like... (some bad compliment)...." .. i think you pushed a bit too much with this..... (i know that my sister probably said something to her boyfriend.. and now he is upset about it... and my mum is trying to explain to her.....

I get in my room, putting shorts on and getting ready...

This dream is an early one and I don't remember it very well....

one part is that I am with some family and we go to a water park or so.
We buy to the dad a big kind of trophy made of turkish sugar.... it looks like two twisting walls and a bar in the middle. At one point, when they start to eat it, I tell them that I wanted to weigh it as I believe it had more than three kilograms. They somewhat argue with me.

Then we jump to the water.... I remember swimming under the water in the swimming pool.. it was pretty deep.

another scene is in the garage on my house. I have parked our car and there is some other guy somewhat interfering with it. My mum wants something from me. I think there is some key hassle or so.

I also remember going to a theatre that looks like the new building that is being build at UBS. I get there and there are two girls that I was supposed to watch the play with. I think it was The Lion King. But when I get there it is over. I suggest that we stay and watch another play, as they may play it again right after. But the stage is being all cleaned up and reorganised. Those girls say that this was the last time they played it. I don't feel very bad at all... I don't know why.

I am in some house, maybe friends house and we decide to go riding on 4wheelers. First we go on a road up hill, that concoct to the main road. There are some cars on the road. We just cross the road and continue on the road that goes up hill. After a while we get to some city. There is a mosque, but it is abandoned or just empty. We wonder about it and want to have a look inside, but for some reason I think it will be attacked. Then we get back to that house. There is my mum and she is doing something with her wallet. I just ask her our of curiosity, whether she still keeps all her pin codes in the wallet written on a piece of paper. She laughs and says "yes". I get annoyed, because she is just setting herself for a trouble. I then want to call O2 and chance her tariff so that it is paid automatically. Some man pick up the phone and I start asking him. He is very slow and hesitant. He goes quiet. I start to get angry... asking ... is this O2? Why wasn't my mum offered direct debit... and so on. He is scared and goes quiet. So I hang up. I tell my mum about this and then I remember that it was my friend Archalous, who opened the account for my mum. I am laughing as he got scared.

Then some girl and I go on those 4wheelers again. This time its raining. I ride fast up that road again and cannot stop fast enough so I run on the main road... luckily there is no car coming.

*I am at some construction place. It seems like there is some supermarket being build or so. At one point I can see thick metal wires going up from the ground and it could be some 30 meters high. Around each of them are spined two plastic, orange pipes with holes as if some DNA model. I return to the place later and those pipes are already drowned in concrete. The construction must have progressed greatly. I am there with someone else. I am not sure who it is, feels as an old friend. I am on the top of the concrete block and I can see the pairs of holes to the concrete where the pipes were. I think it must be some kind of ventilation system. We are thinking of throwing something in, but because we don’t know what is it for we don’t do it.
**I walk down a long street, and there are many small houses along the street. I don’t think I live in the house where I am going, but I go there because of some pictures or painting. I remember that I have been there once or twice before. There are two girls waiting for me there. It’s a nice modern house but for some reason it feels like it has been build really quickly. I walk up the stairs made of light wood which are turning 180 degrees. There is a huge sliding glass door leading to a kitchen. The kitchen is nice and bright with a wooden floor. I look right and see a small room at the end, some 15m away... so I walk towards it, I fell thats where I need to go. I enter the room, its small room looking like an atelier or so. There are the two girls. I always bring a few canvases and these two girls paint some painting on it for my flat. One of the girls is my sister. There is also some Brazilian girl living next door and she is making eyes on me, but my sister and the other girl say that she is pretty easy. She asks me to go for a coffee with her. She also says that she lives somewhere near Sheffield, which is near German borders. She says she will call me.
Then **I walk down a long street, and there are many small houses around the street. I don’t think I live in the house where I am going, but I go there because of some pictures or painting. I remember I have been there once or twice before. There are two girls waiting for me there. It’s a nice modern house. I walk up the stairs made of light wood which are turning 180 degrees. There is a huge sliding glass door leading to a kitchen. Then I turn right, which leads to a small room. The kitchen is nicely bright with wooden floor. Then I entre the small room and I always bring few canvases and these two girls paint some painting for my flat. One of the girls is my sister. There is some Brazilian girl living next door and she is making eyes on me, but my sister and the other girl say that she is pretty easy. She asks me to go for a coffee with her. She also says that she lives somewhere near Sheffield, which is near German borders. She says she will call me.
Then I am in my sister’s room in Zasada, but it is mine now. I think I am ill and my sister offers that she paints a picture for me. Then I go to sleep and when I wake up I see that she painted on the wall. I admire those paintings because it looks really well. On the left of the Window that faces our green house, there is a really good painting of a stylistic giraffe. It is partially like robot; with its head down as if through the window and its head is in between the window and radiator. I really admire how good it is. On the opposite wall there is some abstract painting. It is very colourful, yellow, orange, blue, and green. But then I think I go to sleep again or walk out of the room. When I wake up or come back to the room it’s all different and it surprises me greatly. So I do reality check, just in case, I look at my hands and both thumbs are to the right. So I realise it is a dream!!! And my mom walks in the room. And I am so excited that I tell my mum “Mom I am dreaming, I am dreaming!” ( I am very excited about it). I tell me sister to continue painting....and I wake up.
***I am at some area that reminds me of Berany. It’s a hill with a road running in serpentines up the hill and a running and cycling race is taking place there. There is my brother and my father with me. We tease each other about the race and my father suggests that one of us will race. We have to let the bike tune up and it takes approximately 30 min. When I come back, it looks like my dad is going to race as he already has a number on him. I say that I want to go too, so he says I need to go to register in the office. I walk there but the lady says that it’s too late now even for the run.
Next I am running up the hill so I can see the race, but there I see two men in some Viking suit running up and down the hill in a kind of fight. The one that is at the bottom of the slope throws his wide, undecorated sword at the other one but misses. Then the one high on the slope throws his sword at the bottom one and hits him in his ankle. I don’t think they notice me. As I run I pick up one of the swords but drop it a few meters later. The two warriors notice and run after me. I keep running and because I know the place I lose them. I am running very fast. As I run I also pick up a green blanket (???) but also drop it. When I return to the bottom of the hill, there is my dad without the number and he tells me that he raced already. He says that it was very difficult. We are going home, we live in a little house nearby and there are two huge stones in front of the house. I still have a feeling that those warriors are hunting me. I slide between the stones. I am wearing jeans and jacket and as I slide through there is something that looks like pea & ham and it messes my trousers. But I think its ok and it washes away easily.

I am in a massive spacey room with huge bookshelves on one side. I have a feeling as if it was in my old school in Zasada. My mum is there with me. It feels as if the books were there for ages and no one cares about them so my mum and I are taking some. As I go through the lines of those big books, I pull out one about planes or something similar. I show it to my mum and she is admiring it and excited about it. Then I continue going through the books.