Tomas's DJ - "Exploration of the inner Self"

I was standing at the reception of a huge glass building somewhere around Liverpool Street. I remember talking to the girls at the reception and giving them some envelopes. There is B my GF's sister with me there. All of a sudden, everything started to shake. It must have been earthquake. Thinking that the building is all glass, I tell B that we have to get out of there. When we run outside there are hundreds of people there already. I see masses of people running towards and through a valley of corporate buildings.

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I am in a room with B and K. For some reason, B is watching some videos of her. I look at it and it is a recording of her working out. She is doing some very advanced yoga, gymnastic handstands etc, in white tights. I find it to be pretty arousing, to the point that I get a hard on. I make some jokes about her and she starts fighting me playfully. She roll some on my back and sits on my legs fighting me. I am worried that she will see my hard on. At the same time I am hoping she will.

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I am with K on the field in front of my secondary school in Czech. My brother's house is not standing there yet. It is some kind of weird game that we are playing. I have a feeling that it is like choosing houses that we would like to live in, but there are no houses. Instead, we go on the field and areas with wildly running water covered with dirt and cut grass. I notice more people there with us, they are our friends. We jump or fall in the water and the stream takes us some 30 meters down the field. Thats it.

Weird.

Crazy!

The first dream was pretty scary.
I was back in Czech in my room. There was someone else there with me, I think it was Krzia. All of a sudden, in noticed that the carpet is rising at one point and it is taking shape of a person in a baby position (on his/her knees). Obviously I freak out and start punching the bump, start jumping on it etc. Somehow I know it is a demon. I managed to press it back to the floor. Then it happens again. I punch it back in again. Then, there is some kind of doll house. It starts moving or shaking. I know that it is another demon getting through. I lift the roof of the house and I see a face of a woman. I start jelling at it, punching it and jumping on it to push it back to the floor. This repeats several time. I call my parents to come and have a look. I cannot remember what happens after, but I have a feeling it stops and we find an explanation to it.

The next dream.

I am in Czech going home from Jablonec and I am at this particular rising road at the edge of my village by the skying slope. The road is in fact made of water and I am swimming home. I see myself. As I watch myself swimming as if I was filming it, I see a small boat in front of me and somewhere around is my sister and my mum. They spot a shark like fin. I go with my camera view under the water and I see it is a killer whale. It wants to play or communicate. Somehow I know that it can sense what I think, so I am calming my mind, and in fact I feel very friendly towards it. It swims around me, nudges me few times, sometimes a little bit rough which pushes me under the water. The killer whale is getting excited to play with me, but it is becoming a little violent. I decide it is better to continue swimming and ignore it.

I then get out of the water and see Martin Janda, my old class mate. He must be living in my village too. He has some trash that he wants to throw away, but is complaining to himself that there are not trash bins around. Then we get to the bus stop near central pub, and there is a notice board with hundreds of flyers and notes arranged in a cascade like manner. I am not happy that he lives in my village as I never liked him.

Although I cannot remember exactly, I have been planning to get from UK to France.
Because somehow I was unable to fly or use a boat, the plan was to go in a truck. Some friend of mine had a father that could arrange that. The father was ill or disabled and would go too. I remember going to a boarder office somewhere at the harbour. I purchased some tickets and then returned to the loading bay where the truck was. Two builders were loading loads of bags with cement on the truck. There were bag everywhere.

Then I when we were just about to leave, the gather got stubborn and decided that he didn't want to go. Without him it would be impossible. I was sitting by the door, doing something, I have a feeling that it was somehow spying on him or plotting something to trick him.

thats all I know.

This is a reoccurring dream.

One of the first things I remember was that I was somewhere near PEPE and there was a rally going on. I had a feeling that I was parking a car, but in fact I parked a knife... the old grey knife that we used to have in the kitchen. Strange. I parked it near some bushes.

Then I went up where the cars were racing. I cannot remember whether I saw any, but I think I did.

Next thing I know, I am on a cross motorbike riding across the fields behind Drzkov. There are two girls on horses. I think I knew them at the time, but cannot remember now. I am sure one of the horses is the old, nasty Magda - Popelnice s artrozou. They start racing me and I am somewhat slower than them. I now that this is not my bike and that my bike is stronger. With mine I could have outrace them.

NEXT

I am at home with my sister. There is no one else. Suddenly I hear some noises from the attic. Steps in fact. I look at my sister, and we exchange looks such that we know we have to go and look what it was. I take a knife... again the old grey knife. I walk in to the lobby and the door upstairs slam closed! We both jump and are little frightened. My sister a lot. I start walking up the stars and I can feel my sister shaking violently.

Then I think to myself, how am I going to walk in without the person attacking me, or kicking the knife off my hand? (at this moment I wake up a little bit... but I go back to sleep as I want to finish this).
I call some friend that I know has a pack of wolfs or dogs or so. He then walks up the stairs, the wolfs are all excited and ready to attack pulling the leeds.

I wake up....

Ocitnul jsem se na nejakym kopci u lesa. Bezim dolu a vidim jak tam jdou nejaky dva kluci. Neco jak ofanda a lada. A hned na me zacnou neco pokrikovat. Chvili jsem si myslel ze je to krysk s Juseppem, ale myslim ze to nebyli oni. Zacli na me neco sakrasrticky, neco o cervenejch a bilech krvinkach. Mel jsem pocit, ze jsme se predtim potkali a ja jsem je neco poucoval. RIkal jsem si ze priste budu drzet hubu.

Rekl jsem jim at si jsou po svym a ze ja pujdu taky a rozbehl jsem se doprava do kopce. Za chvilicku kolem me zase probhli a smali se. Dobehli na kopec a otocili se a bezeli zpatky. Delal jsem ze si jich nevsimam.

Potom dobehnu na takovou paseku a tma je vliekej strom prasklej a ohnutej. Je to tma nejak povykaceny a na tom prasklym strome je nejaka kabinka. Ja posloucham nejakou hudbu ve sluchatkach a hraje tam dost dobra pisnicka, snazim se to pistit spatky, ale porad mi tam skace dream theater koncert.

Potom dobehnu na nejake nove postavene sidliste. Jsou to krasny novy baraky, panelaky, ale jsou tam i takovy bloky se skrinkama. Je to hodne barevny a vsechny jsou otevreny. Divim se ze to neni poniceny nejakym vandalismem. Je to ale vsechno opusteny, jako by sem nemohli dostat lidi. Podom tam probehnu nahoru do vyzsiho patra. Koukam nalevo jak je tam dreveny schodiste nebo balkonek a rikam si, ze by to bylo super pro ty street runnery. Najednou sem na horenim patre a tam je proskleny balkon, a tam vidim sprchu a sporak. Koukam na to a je to studio byt. Hodne peknej, trochu vsechno namackany, ale pekny a novy. Rima si, ze se budu muset zeptat kolik to je.

Sebehnu dolu schodama a vidim jak za rohem zabehne nejaka sekuritacka s telefonem.

Pak tam vidim nejaku holku s klukem, tak probehnu kolem nich a slysim, ze mluvi cesky. Skrabu se tam na takovo zidku a ta holka to komentuje jako ze WOW ten je fit a tak. Tak si sundam sluchatka a dam se do reci. Ptam se odkud je, jestli z moravi a ona ze ze severu. Tak se ptam kolik ji je a ona ze je stara, ale nerekla. Potom vytahne nejakou masticku a sunda si triko a podprsenku a zacne si mazat hrudnik, kterej je celej poleptanej, jako ma Zbysek.

Pak se probudim.

I am driving car along some long city road, under bridges and surrounded by buildings. On the left side there are several short ares with cemeteries behind old fences. When I am passing one, it seems like there is a skeleton rising up from one of the graves. I turn my car around and drive back to have a look. But its somewhat damaged when I come back.

Then I am part of some tourist group or something, and there is a big model of some famous building on a side of a large square. Next to the model is another building, from which, if I go to upper floors, I can see inside the model. I try but the group is rushing me.

Then I am sitting in a car in front of George grand dad's house. George is also in his car and we chat about what we are going to do. I know that he is in Zasada for a short time as he came to visit from Australia. He is kind of pissed off about something. I think there is another friend there with me... maybe Martin. George then decided that he doesnt go out anymore, that he has some other pans. I am a little bit pissed off with him for changing his plans so quickly. Then I spot a tree with large pears on it. They are enormous. I use some apples from the ground to shoot down the pears. I am focusing on a specific big one. George is trying to shoot some down too. I manage to get two or so down.

I am waking up....

I am in some bar, and there was Helena Havlova working as a bar tender along with some other girls. What is interesting that they are working without their top on. And she has really nice breasts and tanned skin. I wanted to talk to her, but then I end up talking to her friend that is also pretty.
Later I am sitting by a table with George H, his father and younger sister. We set out to play some card came, probably poker. Old H says something that I play against three Havels, and so that I am going to win so or so as they or come from one family and I will be taking money from them. So I say that they are playing for different teams so it is impossible.
Then we actually playing something like a baseball. Its set on the side of our house in CZ. My brother, Pavel and Dan are playing too. Actually it seems its only us playing now.
I do play well, but at one point when someone shoot the ball in a way that we would loose the point, I throw an apple and shoot the tennis ball (that we play with) down with that apple. My brother is looking at it in disbelief and Pavels is cracking up with his typical laugh. I am laughing too, saying that it was just a coincidence.
In fact I am laughing so badly that I wake up!

This was the second dream that night....
I was friend with a girl that I believe was Srey. I think I fancied her, but she was not very interested as I felt. Once I went to meet up with here at a Ponton Bar. This was a place like somewhere in Hawaii, nice, wooden bar on the water. Srey and some other people were diving and I could see them in the water. But I also noticed some sharks swimming around. I think someone got bitten when they come out of the water. The bar inside was dark as if not used.

Next, I went to see Srey to a shopping mall where she was working in a little shop. I was there and she had a female friend there. We were talking what we doing this weekend, and she told me that she is really busy, even without me asking her out or anything. I saw her calendar, and a red bar as it was filling up on the weekend days.

Later I walk on a street and meet this friend of Srey. She stops me and asks me if I cold help her to get refund for her bikini that she bought on the market. I remember asking her whether she worn them at all. They didnt want to take it back from her. We went with her to a big warehouse where all sorts of stuff was sold from vietnamese and other sellers. I dont know what happened after....

***At some point in the dream I was going through my hair and tried to make it spiky at the back. I then felt that there is way too little hair on my crown area. I look in to the mirror and saw that the hair at the back of my head is too long to keep it spiky, and how ridiculous it looked. But I also saw that I had only patches of hair left on my crown. Also the skin on that area was all red and with dry pieces of skin. I got quite scared of how quickly it progressed!!I was actually thinking, whether I should cut my hair short like Martin. I was there deciding what to do!! I should have realised it was a dream, or do reality check!!! Next time I will
Then I see Richard Bandler. I look at his hair, he has just a little left. Then I see a video of him from the time when he was young! He has head full of thick, curly hair! I think, shit!! If this is how he changed, than we all be like this. And then I start to think about life, how quickly it passes and when one gets old, its too late for anything. We should enjoy our life when we can. I start considering to go and travel, to see the world, even for the price of not developing great carrier...... ***

Next, I am PA for some guy that plays computer games all the time. He lives in a room in some kind of complex of flats, but the place is very empty and simple. He sits in the corner and plays on his phone. I notice that he is playing ASPHALT like I do. Next I see as if I was in the game. He shows me how to do different tricks. He has the best car in the game, its black, Lamburgini style. He uses big black rock and pushes them in to the way of others so they crash. He also waits, facing the opponents with car and when they run him over, his car is like a jump, and propels them to some kind of blue tunnel, where are concrete block to which they crash. I think, how smart it is.

Then, as if in the game, I am standing by the race track and walk on the side a little, near some gas station. I stand there by the railing and watch across the scenery. Then 3 guys came near by, and start talking about me (as I think). They talk about my back and posture, how bad it is and how I am sloughing. I notice that, it shocks me!! How bad my posture must be, and I slowly adjust my posture again so that they wont notice.

I find myself standing in front of the mirror. I am looking at my hair and it is surprisingly long. I wonder how long has it been since I went to a hairdresser and I know it hasnt been so long. I think to myself "god, I must go soon, its going to be such a change. How did this happen??" (At this point I should have realised I was dreaming, but for some reasons I didn't)
Next, I finished some kind of running race and I know I made it in 1:48. Others were telling me that it was marathon race, but I know that it could not be, as I would never run it in that time. It must have been half marathon. (surprising event, where I should have done reality check!!!)
Then, to our house comes a group of my brothers old class mates or maybe their friends or family as I am not too familiar with what they look like. They come to tell us that there was an accident of the school bus of my brothers school trip and many people are injured, so they coming around to take something to the hospital for them, if we want to send it. I sure am going to send something, but when I ask what, they say fruits of vegetables. So I run to the green house. For some reason I am trying to get in through the side by pulling out one of the glasses. But the it cracks!! And I think to myself SHIT!!! My mom is going to go crazy, because it is sure very expensive. But luckily it was just the thin glass and not the big, thick glass block. I take some vegetable (I think) and I am also pushing the glass in front of me (WHY??). But then as I push it over the stone steps, it breaks into many pieces including the thick glass. (Mom is going to go metal for sure). I panic a bit as the people are still waiting for theirs stuff. There is a lots of trash hanging on the glass. Some cables and other crap. I give them some knotted wires and an old valet and they take it. (I have no idea, it is strange and I should have done reality check at this point!!)
And I am still wondering about my long hair!!!

Next, I am still in Zasada, going to our shopping centre (which is closed and I should have realised that!!!) There is a girl going on a scooter, so I stop her and ask her if she would give me a lift to the shop. She agrees and is quite keen. When we get there, I get off and she wants to kiss me. So I kiss her on her cheek and and she tries on the lips. I think I do it, but not too keen. (she reminds me of the german girl from the bar!). When I get to the shop I am looking for something. Then I notice that the singer from EdGuy is coming there. I am not sure if I talk to him, but I know that they have concert.

Next, I am in a bus and it seems like its mostly people from my class or school mates. (This is screaming for reality check!!) I am sitting at the back, and there is a big guy, dressed in sport clothes, showing off that he could beat anyone from us. I kind of believe he could. Then the buss stops and most of the people get off. I look through the back glass and see them whirling around for some reason. I dont know why. There is another really sporty guy, who looks like hes into martial arts so I tell she show off if he could fight him. Then I tell him that I show him really good hand massage techniques, but my intention is to break his arms or fingers. But I dont remember if it happened or not at the end.

I certainly missed many clues for the reality check, especially the long hair and the location.

I was at a party in Czech. Quite a few faces that I recognised. It was night and it was some kemp. People were smoking weed and drinking. I had some myself. Then I found myself paragliding... people were watching and the wind was really strong. It was pretty awesome.
Then I landed and had some more weed and food. There was food everywhere. We were all quite drunk, when suddenly a little gang came and was going to take their electronics, especially iPads. I had my phone and MacBook there too. I started shouting at those people and was going to fight with them. But my hands were really week and I couldn't punch them hard. My friends were the same, and they show me how weak their wrists were. I think they used some has on us. They took some iPads.
Then another group of 3 teenagers came, and I still had my computer and Lucas Zurcin's iPad that I was hiding behind me. I was ready to fight but still felt weak. Then I recognised one of them. It was young Danicek. I was yelling at him that if they take something I will come and kill him. They got scared and ran away. Lukas was pretty happy.

It was a winter time. I was skying down hill along some road. It was progressively getting from just snow and nothing but snow.... to a muddy frozen road. I was filming the whole skying experience. Not sure for what reason. Then when I got home I realised that we kept Tyrannosaurus rex as a pet at home. It didnt surprise me much. I know that during that hard winter we found frozen cow somewhere and we still kept it. So I told my mother that I will cut it in half with chain saw and feed the Rex with it. She thought it was a good idea. But then I found myself mixing a bowl with flat pasta and a bowl with some red sauce. It was also for the Rex and my mother was to show me how to feed it. She took a knot of the pasta and spilled table spoon of the red sauce on it. Then she threw it to the mouth of the rex that was behind a wooden fence. And I continued doing that as she showed me.

I was at home back in Czech. It was evening and there was quite a few people in the house. It seemed that some family with kids came to visit us. I had my ex Barbara coming to visit me later. When she came, there was a little girl sleeping in my room. I think it was my cousin's daughter. I was thinking of how to get her out.
Then I managed to move her to my mothers bedroom, but later when I went to check her, I saw her swinging hands around with eyes half open. I thought she was dreaming about flying. I went back to Barbara and she was little upset. I told her that she can stay in my room. She was suspicious but agreed and told me that she had to go home for something.

When she returned, I found her in my room kneeling, facing away from me. I was amazed by her long red hair. It was truly amazing. At some point we started cuddling and I was wondering whether she was still with her boyfriend..... thats all I remember.

I am working with Christopher and we are on the first floor of some house that I do not recognise. There are two or three of his friends with him. They are normal guys. The Christopher and I go downstairs to the ground floor and I am talking to Chris. At one point he just leans back, relaxes and says few words. I am shocked!! I cannot believe my ears. I look at him and ask him, "you can talk?" He says that he always has. I am trying to understand that he has been normal the whole time, and faking all his disability! I ask him why? (cannot remember what he replied, but something along the lines that it is better for him like this. I feel it has to do with his mother).
I tell him that he could have such a good life if he came out, since they have so much money. He could travel, go out etc. Rather than having his ass wiped every day! Then there are his friends as well, they all know Chris is normal! How could they keep it in secret??
I am becoming little suspicious, because this is unbelievable! I start thinking it is a dream!! I look at one of the guys sitting in the sofa and close my eyes, wishing he changes. When I open my eyes, he is in a different position, and in fact I am not even sure if it is the same person. I then take his head and look into his eyes. They are blue and green, with some colouring at the right bottom part. I close my eyes again and wish they change colour. When I look at them again they are orange!!!! I think SHIT!!! I then look at my hands and see that my middle finger looks like one thick triangle like finger with a little one on the top! I AM DREAMING!! ..... and that is all I remember!!!

I am with Martin S in some little, almost one room house. It is a night time and I am not sure why we there. There are some two other guys. One of them is very drunk. Marin is doing something on the side. I look at the other guy, he is blond and has blue eyes. He reminds me SS soldiers from WW2 movies. He also looks at me and I am ask him if he is german. He asks me the same thing right at the same time. I tell him, I am not. Then I realise that he is gay and is trying to hit on me. I tell him right away I am straight and to back off.
He then starts touching the other drunk guy. Next thing I see is that the guys is lying on his front with his ass exposed and the other guy is rubbing him. I dont need to see this I think to myself. Then out of nowhere, or as if from under the blanket, some other person appears and starts vomiting! It goes everywhere! I get really angry as bits land on my trousers!! SHIT! Lets get out of here I tell Martin. We walk outside, it looks like its some kind of celebration. New years or such! There are many drunk people outside.

I am in my room in Czech. I have quite a big aquarium with golden fish. Suddenly my mum comes into my room chasing a little dog. There is Vet also coming in and my mum says they have to kill the dog. I am surprised as it is still a puppy.
But I mind my business with my fish. I need to feed them. I have a handful of dead fish and I stick it on the aquarium wall at the water level. They disappear in seconds, all eaten. I am very surprised. I look properly into my aquarium and see some of the fish are huge koi carps!! I think they will eat my other fish and I should get them out of there!!! There is one big gold one and one big white one. The white one is particularly cool because it has only one eye in the centre! I think it must be some rare mutation. It reminds me of start track for some reason!!!

I had several dreams tonight, all with similar theme of money, tickets and friends.

I am standing on some big London bridge over a river. It must be maybe 300m wide. There are many tourists there around all looking one way. Then they started shouting and sort of panicking. I ask them what happened as I dont see anything strange going on. They tell me that there was a big building on the river (I suppose on some small island) and they report that it just sinked in one second. I look around, trying to remember the scenery and where the building was and looked like.

I am trying to sort out a situation where I have paid some trip for me, JH and someone his friend in advance. It all cost me something over £3200. Somehow I worked out that they need to give me £792 each plus some more for some other expenses. However, they didnt go on the trip for some reason and now I am little puzzled how to ask them for the money. But I paid in advance, as we were supposed to go. So I do ask them and there is a big fuss about it.

I am standing outside JH house and there is him and his father. For some reason I have his toothbrush in my pocket. We talk about brushing teeth and his fathers says that he can land me his leather belt (to brush my teeth with???). I am thinking how will I give the toothbrush back without JH noticing.

There is more, but I am struggling to remember and string it together