Xanous' Dream Journal

I had to big dream signs this morning and I'm finally beginning to catch the military one.

School. My old supervisor is teaching me math. I was trying to grasp it but she didn't really show me how to solve the problem. I kept asking her to show me a few examples but the just kept on talking nonsense. I can still remember It started off as a word problem and then we wrote out a mildly complex algebraic equation.

Military I am on my way to a military base. I think about how I was in high school again but it just didn't make sense to go through all that again. I know that I wanted to do because I feel robbed having to go to a crappy private school but if I'm going to take classes it may as well be college anyway. I arrive in some open air Jeep. When I get close I am pushing what looks like some sort of child's electric car. There's a long dirt road and a building sitting in the middle of a vast open field. I approach a man in a lawn chair and ask him were I'm supposed to go. I tell him that I am a new recruit. The man says something flippant and an older man in uniform points to a small pavilion back up the road. As I push my car in that direction I think about how I really don't want to be here and I ask myself why I am doing it. At that point I realize I am dreaming and tell myself that it doesn't matter so I may as well play it out. I still feel reluctant to continue but I do anyway.
I think I lose my low level lucidity now and the next thing I remember is I am trying to decide what branch of the military I am joining. For some reason I go with Air Force. I open a door and find a small bed in a large closet. I wake up.

I had another vivid dream this morning but it has slipped my mind and I didn't record anything on my GP. I don't even know where it is right now.

2:30AM

I have another dream about being in the military. Damn I need to catch those. Something about my going on about how cheap they are being...

3:37AM

I listened to my relaxation app without the ocean sounds. After an hour I had crazy vibes. This time was like no other. It literally felt like a cell phone was on vibration continuously but it was vibrating my entire head. My first thought was that is was my GP vibration alarm to start my WBTB. This triggered a non lucid FA where it wakes my wife. I try turning the alarm off but it won't stop. After a moment I wake up for real and am surprised that my GP is lying next to me and I have earbuds in. I'm not really sure if this was the vibes or just a crazy FA.

4:20AM

I have a nightmare where my wife and I have an infant baby girl. She is in our bed and I sleep walk and but her in a pile of laundry. Then I FA and can't find her. I panic and eventually find her face down in a swaddle under the clothes. She is fine and I cry because I am so thankful that I didn't cause her harm.

I've had several interesting non lucid dreams the past few nights... Some of these dream are reoccurring and I ALWAYS fail to recognize it.

July 15 1:34AM

I have another dream where I am in the military. This time it is specifically Army. I am not trying to escape it this time. I want it. I spend a lot of time saying bye to my wife with much anguish and guilt. She says it will only be nine months but I told her I was thinking only six. She assures me that she will be there for me no matter how long.

Separate dream much later. Time unknown.

I am doing some training for the Army. There is some drill. Gas fills the room. I am told to smash my hand in some device as the pain of it will keep me from dying from the gas. I do so and there is no sensation. The ceiling lowers and I am forced to the floor. I feel claustrophobic.

Again separate dream much later. Time unknown

I am still in the Army. We are training with blanks but some how people get shot and die. We stop and there is not much concern for the dead. There is some conversation as I watch a machine or robotic arm reload and package large caliber rifle bullets. Suddenly I see a flash of red. I look around and see someone has a laser trained on me. I shout, "SNIPER!" Some woman acts as my protector and forces me to the ground. She covers me with her own body. Another solider flanks the sniper and shoots him in the face.
The scene skips and the sniper looks cartoony with half his face hanging off. There is no gore or blood. He is alive and well and ranting about some kind of religion and that he needs to kill. He will strike again.

3:32AM

I took huperzine and had a dream about being able to swim extremely fast. My body moved like a fish. Then I lost the ability and spent a lot of time trying to get it back.

July 16 4:06AM

Obama is at the mall here in town. There is some huge room set up with folding chairs. All the chairs get haphazardly rearranged last minute. A few people from work are overly excited to see him. I roll my eyes and think they are idiots. I really don't want to be here but figure I might as well stay since I am. Obama has a young daughter and she gives some sort of intro. Then Obama comes out and laughs her off. She wasn't supposed to do that. The he climbs some steps to a catwalk and uses a giant clock for a podium. He begins to speak and then realizes the mic wont work even though I can hear him fine. He is escorted outside to get fixed up with a new mic but time passes and he doesn't come back. I wonder is someone will shoot him. Then I hear a siren like an ambulance. I think surely that's not for him. Then I realize I hear a faint pop from outside just before. I think someone shot him.

Everyone panics and runs outside. I tell them its not use you wont know what happened. They will stop you. They crowd to the exit and seem to just stop. I wonder in a restroom and pee. After I see Jon and talk. I say that n***** president must have got shot. (Sorry, I'm not racist I just grew up hearing that word. Don't panic. ok? ) Some black teenage boy hears me say that and calls his buddy from the stall. He looks pissed and I don't want to explain myself so I run away into the crowd. I wonder the mall and start talking to another black teenage boy. I find that he's pretty cool and we become friends. I think this is also a good disguise from the other guys looking for me. We've been talking awhile and I realize I don't know his name so I ask him. He says it's Mike. I say, "Hey! That's my name tooooo!" We walk together and I see the other guys hiding in various places and looking for me but they see right past me. It's like I am invisible to them. I hear one say, "Well maybe he went that way. Keep looking."

We walk to the end of the mall and it becomes some grocery store. We both say we are looking for our family. I know I came with my mom and wife and I need to find them to leave. We end up in the parking lot and it is getting dark. We begin to part way and suddenly Mike tries to kiss me. I push him away and become angry. Pointing to his head he says, "Sorry. We're in two different places." He starts to walk off and then turns around. "We can still be friends, right?"
"Sure ya man. You're cool." I feel bad for lying to him but I just wanted to get away and forget the whole thing. I quickly walk away and look for my car. It's gone and I become angry that they would just leave me. I fish in my pocket for my phone and become relived when I pull it out. I try to call my wife but I can't get the contacts to pull up. I try to dial the number manually and get halfway then find it hard to remember.

Just then a car slows down on the street I am on. I hear one of the black boys yells something. It's the first one. I recognize his voice. I run into some abandoned shack and lock myself in. I think the cheap sliding locks wont keep someone out for long. I try to dial 911 but my hands are thick an numb. Finally I get a call out but they put me on hold. I just hope I don't get beat up too bad before they find me. I wake up.

5:24AM

I am at work but the old plant before they moved. I go to break and tell Jon about the dream I had. I recalled every bit of the dream with total accuracy. I begin leaving out major chunks of the dream when I realize he is not that interested. I just tell him the highlights.

Snooze alarm

I dream that I am in some version of some house that is familiar. The cats are eating fish from the floor vents and the sink is overflowing. One of my girls clogs the toilet and I tell her to handle it herself. She can start doing things on her own. Then I smell it. The most God-awful shit smell ever. I think maybe I should handle this myself. Thankfully I wake up.

recurring 1) I'm in school again (this time elementary) and I am trying to go to the library. I push past a lady blocking me. There is a sign on the door that reads exactly "No library card I have know." I am deterred and think I will get a card when I get registered for classes.

recurring 2) I am enlisted in the military against my will. This time I have me two daughters with me. There is a woman drill sergeant and we are trying to find bunk beds. The space between the beds is so small that I am cluster-phobic. My older daughter is complaining the the woman gets angry. I explain to her that these beds are just too small. The woman says she will see what she can do. I know that the kids will get to move on soon but I will be stuck here forever.

3) Fragment were I am stirring the compost in my yard and adding stuff to it.

*My wife told me this morning I was singing "The Walking Dead" in my sleep. LOL. Too bad I don't remember any zombie dreams.