Xanous' Dream Journal

#238 - DILD - 5:00AM

I am wondering in an elementary school looking for my class. Several kids rush to a room to be in a popular teachers class. Once he accepts the 13th student he has to turn everyone else away. several kids walk away looking disappointed. I wonder why the school just didn't schedule people like they usually do. I come to an empty classroom with a young female teacher. I really have to pee and I think I see a really small toilet with a door acting as a partition. I mumble something about finding a toilet but as I get closer, I see it's actually just a white trashcan. I can feel the teacher looking at me and think I better say something. "I thought there was a toilet in here." She says, "No." And mumbles something else as I walk away. I pass the popular teachers room and wonder outside.

As I make my way to the other school building across the street I notice that I am wearing a backpack and I feel like I can barely move. The effort is making my tired and by the time I reach the glass doors I feel that I am moving ridiculously slow. The feeling reminds me of SP and I suddenly realize I am dreaming. I decide the backpack was the problem and I take it off. I freely move inside and see a younger version of my mother standing there. Instead of doing a task, I decide to just go with the theme of the dream and see where I end up. I hand mom the backpack and say, "Hey mom take my backpack."
She asks why and I tell her, "Because, you know where my class is and you can take me there. I hook my hands around her elbow and I feel her drag me down the hall. I the the ceiling and my vision gets jumbled. I feel my mom suddenly sling me around and I come to a stop.

I am now looking into a classroom with only a handful of kids sitting a desks. For whatever reason I decide to act like a totally asswagon now. I shout out the ever cheezy, "Whats uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup." Then, WHAT UP BITCHES?!" I see a boy who has a bald shaved head and his black hair begging to grow back. "Hey baldy!" I rub his head and then slap him hard in the back of it. I see no seats to take but there is a comfortable looking beanbag chair in the corner. I go sit down.

I can't see the teacher very well but she is talking to me, "I don't want you here. You are a mouthy kid and mouthy kids make me mad."
I let out a loud giggle at that, "Well, too bad. I am number 13 and you have to have 13 in your class. Besides, you'd have to deal with me eventually. You might as well get it over with now."
The teacher seems to accept this but clearly doesn't like it by the way she is mumbling under her breath. I realize I am not sitting idle and I think of my body in bed. I suddenly wake up.

#237 - DILD/DEILD/OBE - 3:48AM

The first thing I can remember is laying in bed next to my wife. I look over to my right and see my mom lying on a smaller bed. She tells me, "I was laying here and I thought my body had not moved but it felt different. A cop came and said this was a dream and that I was having a lucid dream within a lucid dream."
I feel excited that my mom finally experienced a lucid dream. I say, "Oh wow that so cool!" I hope my wife heard about this and will have a lucid dream too. Then it all dawns on me. I think I am the one dreaming. I do a nose plug and blow cleanly through.

At that instant, I am on my back in the dark. I feel the vibes and transition out of my body. It is dark but I can barely see where I am going. I strain and there is a breif flash lighting up the room then dark again. I head to the front door while rubbing my hands and concentrating on seeing. Just before I reach the door. I feel a force sucking me back to my body. I try to grab onto something and fight against it but it is of no use. I slam hard back in bed. I realize that I was never on my back but am on my left side.

I feel vibes again and am encouraged to try DEILD. Suddenly, I am gripped with fear and feel that there is a presence behind me. I can feel something like large cat claws lightly digging into my back. I roll over and blindly point at whatever it was and say, "Go away in the name of Jesus." Then, "Jesus help me." Immediately the fear lifts and the presences goes away. I am lying on my back and I begin to float upward. There is a slight sensation as I feel myself moving through the ceiling and rafters in the attic. Then I see a bright light as if through closed eyes. A feeling of total joy and peace envelopes me. I begin to hear music. A sitar plays something beautiful while a choir of angels sing a wordless tune. I relax and let the feeling wash over me as I enjoy the music.

After a few moments I ask, "Show me a past life." At that, I float back down to the bed. I get up and head outside still in the dark but this time unhindered. The front door looks different this time. It has a window in the middle of it with blinds. There is a small window above the door and I realize I must be floating along the ceiling since I am eye level with it. I try to phase through the glass but get caught up in the blinds. Rather than make a big deal about it I just open the door and step out. My body is light and I can't help but fly. I float up the roof and push off making swimming motions. Once above about the trees, I look at the ground in front of me. Its still really dark but I can see that there are no other houses next to me but I see some colorful lights along the horizon. Against it I see the silhouette of a city on a shoreline. I still feel that the dream can show me a past life and begin chanting, "Show me a past life." I make more swimming motions toward the city. For I moment I it looks like I am looking at a nebula and stars around it. I look down and see more stars. I think this is not right, and focus harder on getting to the city. I am quickly sucked towards it.

I hear a swooshing sound and find myself coming in hot to a parking lot. When I plant my feet down I realize I am barefoot and though there is no pain I feel my feet skidding on asphalt and gravel. I think that I may had gotten road rash but try to ignore it. The feeling of this gets me thinking about the surgery task and I totally forget about seeing a past life. I look around in a parking lot and see several people walking next to some parked car that look like something from the 40's or 50's. There is a man getting out of something like a Studebaker. I stop and for some reason show him my left forearm and ask, "Have you ever had surgery.... On yourself?"
He looks at me and roboticaly says, "No I have not had any type of surgical procedures." I suddenly wake up.

I have been focusing on MILD

Fragments. Once I woke up thinking I had been lucid but had no recall. The second time I hear someone that I thought of as Wurlman say the words, "lucid dreaming" I woke with start. I can't remember any other details.


#1 There was a party with a bunch of teens. Something about it ending but the guys wanted to go longer. We though of ways to keep it going but someone drank the last beer. They said "Last of the alcohol" and threw the bottle in the fireplace.

I saw my wife who wasn't my wife just a girl I liked. I wanted to makes sue she didn't go home with some jerk so I offered to give her a ride.

#2 I am on some train ride roller coaster thing in some tunnels. I remember the old dream from a few days ago and am confused why we went a different route. The train soon dissolves and I am walking in some strange maze like building. I think of mini golf. There's something about a window unit.

I find myself standing outside the window unit. I make an adjustment and turn around. There are two guy that look really thugish. They also look like my wife's sisters husband but they have long hair and red bandannas. They look Mexican but also may like Native Americans. I think they must be his brothers. They have the same eyes. There's a third guy and we all talk about something.

# 3 I am playing some game at work with a bunch of people sitting at a table. My wife is one of them. I roll dice and take as many steps. I continue until I get to the smoker shack that now looks like a brick building from downtown with several stories. I go back to the table and realize I left my son in the building. I worry how long it has been. I run back thinking about how many times I must have rolled dice to get there. I worry that I skipped everyones turn. I find my son in some room buried in cloth. I feel him and pull him out and cuddle him. My wife is with me and I feel really bad. Some young woman drives up in car (I guess I am outside now?) and tries telling me something but Ignore her. I look at my son and he is a newborn again. The woman coos at him.

I got back to sleep really annoyed because my son interrupted a WILD.

I have and FA and am pissed because I didnt get lucid. I feel like I am somehow still in REM and can see that I am having strange colorful blogs in my peripheral vision. I think is hallucinations and confirm that its just REM. I decide I just need to take some choline and Ill have the boost I need.

I got to the kitchen and look for my box that I keep all my supplements in. To my shock and horror I find thats its missing. All that I can think about is how much I spent on supplements this year and now its just all gone. I am so pissed. I see that its getting light out side and the clock is only a little past 4am. I think that if I can just find it and get back to bed Ill have time to dream before the alarm.

I search everyplace I can think of in the house. I find several boxes that looks like my supplement box but they are either empty or full of random junk. I even wake my wife and get her to look. At some point I see the mailman through the window and find this odd. I slow down and start to think. As the dream begins to fade I become lucid.

I wait to DEILD and the vibrations begin right away. I reach my feet out like tentacles reaching out. I find the floor and stand. For some reason I feel an uncontrollable urge to spin. As I do the dream destabilizes and Im in the void again. I try to feel the floor again and there is some mild feeling. Again, I spin beyond my control but this time I dont fight it. I see a blur of light and color and strain to see something form. There is a slight tilting sensation.

I dont remember what happened here but I think I lost lucidity for a moment. I am in my house then front yard. something about my parents being there.

Fully lucid now I am standing in the yard looking at the empty rock house on the corner. I appreciate the full broad daylight for a moment then decide to break in and see what I find. I rush to the side of the house and there are what look like wooden barn door. I do a flying kick and bust the doors open.

I pause remembering my tasks. I quickly draw a stick figure standing in a doorway with my finger. I step back to make sure it looks right. I faintly see it drawn in black graphite. Looks fine to me.

I step in the doorway but notice how dark it is. I summon a flash light from my back and click it on. There is no beam but the house is dimly lit now. It looks like and empty dirty old barn with dirt floors. I decide not to go the rest of the way in.

I walk back to my yard and remember the diamond task. I look around and see a large lump of coal about the size of a baseball by the curb. I pick it up and press my hands over it. I imagine heat and pressures focusing my energy into it. I walk around to keep the dream flowing so I dont wake up. I notice the dodge leaving in my peripherals. It pauses. I realize my wife is leaving with my patents and they are waiting for me. Let it go. The car moves on. Now I feel the coal collapse a little and dust tumbles out.

I open my hands expecting a diamond. Black dust falls out along with a small diamond. I hurry and pick it up afraid to lose it. It looks like a diamond but shaped like a mushroom with a stem. I notice the front door is open and my living room has white tiles. I throw the diamond at the glass storm door intending to break it but the dream dissolves and I decide its time to DJ.

WBTB Mugwort
MILD

I got to sleep in the recliner and dream about my cats running around and jumping. Sputnik keeps jumping on top of the ledge about the front door, hanging there for a bit and then jumping down to the floor with a thud. I watch for a bit from the recliner and then I remember.

I instantly get vibrations and see a bright white light then dark. The vibrations are week and intermittent. I wait unsure if I am in the dream or not. Then I remember I was already dreaming before. I get up and go outside. I sort of half open the door and half phase through. The door was forgotten.

If feel a brief cold and then a smell like rain. I find that odd for a dream. I can see fine and the world seems solid but I feel like I need to stabilize. I think about liking the sidewalk again. This time I but my hands in some dirt and feel it. It looks more like potting soil. This is were things get ultra real.

I hear some rock music with heavy drums. I look around and the neighborhood looks convincingly real. I seriously wonder if I was sleep walking/dreaming like I used to do as a child. I become really worried and self-conscious. I look across the street toward the direction of the music. It seems like it is the house directly across from me. I try to see who is over there but my vision gets blurry. Then the dream sort of folds in on itself and my awareness shifts to my physical body. I think about DEILD but it doesn't come right away so I think I better enter into my DJ.

WBTB 3:30AM
Strong Mugwort Tea
4:00AM

MILD

I am working for my old boss. We wants us to stay late. F is telling me about it. I tell F, "Well eff him. I am not staying any later." I turn around and see my boss. Busted. He looks at me and says something about how he just wanted every one to go to the amusement park and pick up a form so that the company can let us have the day off at the park tomorrow. "Whatever, I don't care about that. I don't even want to go. It's 3:30 and I am going home."

I still feel a little pissed and find F. I ask him if he is going to the park. He says yes. I decide maybe I will go. I don't understand why I have to get a form but a free day off work sounds really good.

I arrive at some place in the country. There is a black leather fainting couch with wagon wheels on it. I lye down and it takes me on a dirt path on it own volition. I slow travel through a peaceful country setting and I feel contented to take it all in.

Soon I arrive at a booth. I ask the lady for a form and she promptly hands me one. I ask her how I leave and she points to another wheeled fainting couch. I lay down and it takes me back. It travels very quickly this time and I feel myself surge forward.

I phone rings. I look and the words are distorted but I see my wife's picture. I can't remember what we talk about. But I realize that during the conversation I was transported to where she is. I feel like I am in a lying potion but I seem to be standing. She is on a small a bed with our son and a gray cat. I recognize it as the stray we temporarily took in last year. I point and yell, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH THAT CAT?!"

She calmly replies, "We found him and you said we can keep him."

Finally I realize this is a dream. I feel half awake now. I feel myself in my bed but still totally immersed in the dream. I ask my wife, "This is a dream isn't it?"

"Of course it is, babe."

I feel like I am waking up so I relax for DEILD. I get vibrations and I hastily get out of bed. I am standing in my room blind. I am trying to take it slow and be patient but I am frustrated. I remember something I read about surging forward in the void until a dream forms. I do just that.

I feel myself phase through the bedroom door and an exterior wall. I wasn't even considering that. I feel the G forces and the speed of my body as I go into warp speed. I can see a bright light from behind closed eye lids. I try to see a scene form but I feel myself destabilize.I get brief vibrations and then I wake up. Maybe that was the wrong time for this. I try to DEILD but the urge to enter this in my DJ was too great.