Thread: weird 'nightmare' - can someone give their opinion?

NOTE: fuck your TL;DR. i wanted to include as much information as possible to get a detailed explanation. if you don't want to read, don't post. stop postwhoring in this section


i had a pretty bad feeling yesterday before going to bed. i knew i was going to have a nightmare so i just tried to get it over with, but this is quite fucked up

i was in a factory that i remembered in the dream as closed down, and even said to the boss "wow i thought this place had closed down" - i was inside, but remembered the outside as a building in the woods with a 'TO LET' sign on the front.
now i'm awake i have no memory of the building except for what i saw in that moment. it did feel like i had known the building my whole life, though.

side note, i have met a good friend that is travelling and using this city as one of his stops. he breaks into vacant buildings to stop in them and and i was going to stop in one of the buildings with him. this could be the link between the vacant building and the TO LET sign.
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inside this building there was rows of people with pianos in front of them, playing tunes. the keys were marked with the note they would play (but each key could play 3 different notes)
i was to read notes from a paper and play on the piano, apparently. the boss gave me a short tutorial, and i was set to do some work. however, i immediately started working on a piece of paper and had nothing to do with the piano.

the paper had some writing at the top, then 3 lines in the middle and maybe something at the bottom. can't help but think that it was a signature space- but that could just be paranoia about a past fear.
anyway, the three lines were marked with 2 letters at the beginning. i remember the first one as S/N and i can't remember the other two. at the end of the line there was a space that had a line of symbols on them. now i have woken, i can't read them anymore, but i would put a line through them and the line before it would fill up.

i filled in the three lines and put the paper somewhere. the next thing i remember is a long line of flashing lights and pictures of death and tortured people. the lights were red and white and would flash between the pictures and while the pictures were on, and there was a lot of distortion on the pictures.
i just watched the pictures for a bit and realized that there was maybe only about 15 pictures total to cycle through. i thought to myself "wow i'm really not creative at all if this is the worst that it can show me" and it went on for a little bit longer. the pictures would also go into negative and filter into just red/black or white/gray photos

at the end of the dream, and again the next thing i saw was (a League of Legends champion) Soraka laid on an operating table with the bottom half of her body a pink triangle.
1- i used to love playing Soraka and that same day i tried to play her and realized how nerfed she was. i won that game but lost the next after i was supported by a Soraka that was bad (i did badly too that game)
2-i have a thing about stars. some people are stars. i love them


side notes again:
-the past fear is about selling my soul. this paper might've been that? the last 3 years of my life have been a spiritual journey for my in real life where i have been completely changing myself to become better, and also exploring things like schizophrenia because of curiosity. the bettering did have ties with the devil/demons and i became scared of selling my soul. i'm also scared that i have already sold my soul (i have a brief memory of a certain contract that i signed) to become what i am now and know what i know.

-i have been fucking with everything hypnosis i could find to: A) see if i could beat it (i totally can) and B) to experience the effects/side effects caused from this. this includes self hypnosis, 'sissy hyposis porn' (lol) and spirits/people that know how to do this. some of the videos have the same effects of the pictures seen in the dream. maybe the pictures of death and torture was just a hypnotized trance i was experiencing while i cut Soraka up.

-just realized from the last point, maybe it was this... thing that i have been avoiding.
i'm not posting what that thing is, but it involves a lot of flashing colours, pictures, a trance and some sort of sacrifice. i did expect the sacrifice to be me, and the trance to be one of two COMPLETELY different things, but it still could be it. there are a lot of variations, after all.

also, maybe the champion was a symbol for my soul, and through trying to get better through the demon shit (hence the pictures of torture) was just completely fucking up my soul.