Inside a Body of Glass

I'm on the inside looking at you,
You don't even believe what you see of me,
Only so you think I'm alive,
I've been in my mind,
I have nothing to hide....,
They say I'm cured from myself,
But I can't say I'm over it,
I can't feel alive if I'm dead inside,
To many scars to count,
I wanna sleep so long to forget this all,
I have dug my own grave and I'm waiting,
You see I can not be saved,
I hide in my own complexity,
I still haven't shedded this pain,
I'm just tolerating you more,
Manipualting my way out,
The only thing I was taught right,
Can you smell the anger in me?,
You think you know me?,
Explain my explainations,
I'm only here because you believe I am,
Do you believe that or only wish to?
Your life and reality....,
Is it only what you wish to believe?.
What can you beLIEve???
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I wrote this after I got home from the hospital. I was comitted for slicing my wrists. More like shredding, gashing and stabbing them. I don't remember it though...Long Story anyways. Just tell me what you think of it. I'll quit posting my poems if you like. just be honest. I have plenty more I can post. Just lemme know. thanks.