Shit, Sobs & Sighs From Numbers Repeated

[Jeff777]

Sobs From Heaven Tears can't accurately express the way that I feel Too tired to cry, too surreal to believe that moment was real Thoughts play back and pervade my mind Like a record player on repeat, frozen in time This can't be real, it all happened so sudden What we were building, demolished into nothing The thoughts, the memories, our times I'm retracing My heart is crying and my mind is racing I look around and see no options to fall on Save to be that friend, that one you can call on So that's what I'll be, whether it's wrong or it's right I'll be in your corner, shaking you to NOT give up the fight My strength you'll make your own, God I pray that you do You DON'T have to do it alone, though you may think you have to Here I stand, as I am, are, will be and always have been Standing beside you, seeing you through 'till the end - Numbers Repeated

[Jeff777]

A breeze flows through the night air I lace up my shoes and pretend not to care My iPod blasts as I walk out the door The goal is to keep running until my legs are sore The wind passes through my hair as sweat pours down my face Everything in that moment, is non-existent...erased Can't stop, can't drop...and can't look back now Things happen for a reason, it's pointless to ask "why" or "how" Tocs become tics and tics become tocs My body is wracked with fatigue, but still I can't stop Endorphins release as I continue to move on Won't stop to catch my breath, though my exercise is done Past the finish line I fly chanting "And so I run..." Like a gun my blood, sweat and tears fire into each step As memories drown in heavy breaths, until there's nothing left I leave problems of the world behind as I dash like the flash And burn feelings behind me, each step striking a new match Flames are rising high now, but am I that thoughtless? The world is burning behind me, a purification process As I lap it once more, I see ash blanketing the earth Out the corner of my eye, in a tree a phoenix doth perch Is it a sign of things to come? Surely it means something I can't stop to think though, I HAVE to keep running The phoenix lifts me up to show me a brilliance in the sky So much different from the ash below, I can't help but ask why He responds It's duality, something we cannot escape There's good and there's evil, It's a law no-one can break There's joy and despair, happiness and misery Look for the greater purpose and past the tears you see There's a reason for a season and they're meant to make us strong It's our decisions that determine whether they be short or long Keep running young one, but from a problem? Not to escape it Run because you're sick and tired of being complacent Run because you want freedom, run because of your desires Run because you're tired of being held down in the fires Run because eventually you have to take your life back Run away from those who keep you in need and keep you in lack Run and keep running, hold courage against your fears Pain will surely come, and so will many tears Things always become darkest right before the dawn That dawn is waiting for you, but only if you run... On my path he turned me around, so I ran...harder than before Sifting through all my problems, not afraid anymore Though my issues in life are far from few It's through you that I've learned I can begin life anew...and so I run. - Numbers Repeated

[Jeff777]

To be human is to hurt, to be human is to cry To be human is to know and at the same time ask why To be human is different, odd and still the same To be human is to be strung up in god's marionette game To be human is to love, regret, fuck and lie To be human is to wrinkle, grow old and eventually die To be human is to experience weddings and funerals too To be human is to do what you've grown accustomed to do To be human is to watch your mother and father die To be human is to instinctually blame god for reasons why To be human is incomprehensible, and yet simple as well To be human is to experience on earth, all levels of hell To be human is to fall in love, and sleep in your lovers arms To be human is to feel obligated to keep them from harm To be human is short, a great opportunity or a divine joke To be human is to let life pass as you keep clicking the remote To be human is worth it, and yet too much to bear To be human is to feel emotionally drained, but at the same time still care To be human is to read to your children and tuck them in at night To be human is to summon the love to punish them, when they knowingly do what's not right. To be human is to run from problems and make excuses for where you are To be human is to fearfully buy your 17 year old their first car To be human is to have goals and get them completed To be human is to throw in the towel and announce yourself defeated To be human it to stay up for hours, talking on the phone To be human is to run far off, only to make your way back home To be human is to smell, taste, touch, hear and see To be human is to connect to souls, me be strong for you and you be strong for me Hold fast to my words, and know them within your heart to be true To me, being human means loving myself, but even more-so loving you. - Numbers Repeated

[Jeff777]

A shimmer of hope, distorted in the fragmented shards of time A second chance to do it over, feelings expressed in a petty rhyme It's fun and games until things crash down all around We greeted with smiles but I unwittingly forced you to frown My carelessness, thoughtlessness...I should have known better I shouldn't have said those words last night that made you feel bitter I'm clever on most days but last night my words caused you harm Seeing you upset, I wanted to just hold you in my arms I can't though, I just won't allow myself to do it You say it's okay, but your words...I can see right through it Perhaps it's in my head, but I know the things I said Were inexcusable last night, I just want to crawl into bed "Please don't leave Jeff" are words I hear you say A whisper of regret as your voice now trails away I'll make it up to you somehow, I'll make it right someday But I can't stay with you now, I can't allow myself to do so Your heart is gold and I pierced it with a venomous arrow I love you and you know that, you've been there for me all along You've held me in your arms, when things with her went horribly wrong I think the world of you and I mean what I say from now until the end I love you Patricia, my dear friend, I promise never to hurt you again. - Numbers Repeated