I cleared my mind of thoughts and worries and was constantly self-aware of my breathing and my overall sense of me the person while I was in bed. The breathing was affirming that the breath was mine thereby affirming awareness of the self. I had fleeting daydreams about the self about how I looked...I mean connect with the self through thought imagery. Then I fell asleep and had a lucid dream where I was in my room and turned on the light but the light fail to light up it just flashed intermittently. The first thought was that it was a new lamp but I could not explain Y it had failed and I reached for my digital watch in the room as where I had put it in reality and found I was dreaming. I did not try it again because being depersonalized it takes quite an effort to be the self. So my theory about this is that by being aware of the self I had incubated a dream about the self that of course would include lucid dreaming since it is the dominant practice during the day and well....the desire to lucid dream. |
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