I know exactly what you mean when you say you feel as though you're dreaming of having a lucid dream. I've experienced this quite a lot and too me it seems like it occurs when I have
a lack of motivation to record my dreams, resulting in poor dream recall. My dreams tend to be less vivid and my lucid dreams are the same. I've noticed that when I'm keeping a dream journal my chances of having a vivid and highly aware lucid dream increases massively. I think there are just levels of lucidity and what you're experiencing is the lower if not lowest level. Maybe try a WBTB and WILD that way you're entering the dream straight from waking consciousness instead of like DILD where you have already fallen unconscious and then
Become aware. This might help to keep your level of awareness up if you get me.