hi guys

well, still no lucid dream, but I think I'm discovering other things going on as a result of paying such attention to these things..... and I'm sure it's all connected!

ok, firstly, the other night I remembered a whole nights' dreaming (or so I think). The last part of the dream I was remarrying Matt (maybe cos he lost his wedding ring the other day and we are going to get a new one on the insurance, but he says it won't mean the same so I've been thinking of things I can do to try and recreate the meaning.....). But I was in this cheapy motel place and I had about fifteen minutes to get dressed, I hadn't planned any of it out. I looked in the wardrobe and found THREE dresses to choose from. So I tried two on, and the second one, although I was aware it was not my usual style, was the ONE. It just suited me so well. So here's the point - I was spending quite a lot of time in this dream looking in a mirror. In fact there were two mirrors - a full size one (I was looking at me in just a pair of tights at one point and it REALLY looked like me). But when I put on this Spanish style wedding dress, I all of a sudden had really dark hair and olive skin (wow - I wish!). My question is, WHY did I go through this dream which seemed to last for hours, and looking in a mirror which I thought was quite significant, and NOT get lucid? I would know, if I was lucid, wouldn't I? I would remember. But the detail I remember the dream in is so much clearer than normal..........

Second thing. I have begun to notice that on falling asleep I seem to be creating "scripts" to stories. It is like the verbal element comes first, before a dream. I seem to get this as I am on the verge of sleep - if something wakes me I can remember some of the bizarre things said. I THINK it's my own voice I hear. So in relaxation in my Yoga class today, she was asking us to visualise snow with clours reflected in them. She said "violet" but then I got lost and then became aware that I had also created (and TOTALLY visualised) pink, then a peachy colour with shimmery effect in it, and the voice was saying stuff - I remember it saying "that's not fair" in relation to the peachy shimmery colour (hmm, can't recall why at all).

The point is I was not asleep, and ok maybe I was on the verge, but it was very light sleep, and the book I have on LDing says that you have to move through various stages of sleep before you can dream. What is going on with these scripted stories then???

Sorry it's so long, but maybe if you guys can help me make sense of it I can make some progress!