Thread: Doh!

Three attempts on a WILD. All of these happened on the same night, with no previous 4-6 hours sleep before it. I’m not sure if they were a WILD but let me tell you the ‘story’:-

Attempt 1:- I was lying in bed on my back and relaxed my eyes and began to concentrate on my breathing. I did 61 point relaxation and made it feel as if I was being pulled down every time I breathed out, more relaxation I guess. Eventually, I could feel my eyes twitching in my head, my heart was beating fast. I heard my mum come upstairs, she normally says 'Good-night' to us. So I heard her open my door. "Good-night" said my mum, I tensed up and opened my eyes! "Urr, Good-night" said I. Attempt 1 FAILED!

Attempt 2:- I was lying on my bed once again on my back; once again I relaxed my eyes, and concentrated on my breathing. This time I made it feel as if I was being pulled down, and concentrate on a part of the 61 point that I didn’t feel was relaxed enough, I always ended on the brain/head bit. I got into the stage I was before my eyes started twitching; along with it this time came vibrations. My heart beat fast, however I reassured myself that I wasn't going to die from trying a WILD attempt. Eventually my heart 'calmed' and I continued what i was doing. During continuation, I felt that I wasn’t being 'pulled down' anymore, so I said in my head "Go Eagle, Go Eagle!" (I have no reason why I said Eagle!) I started to feel really weird, like I was spinning; it was like someone put me on one of those theme park rides that flip you, the ones that basically make you sick! My eyes also with that my eyes darted all over the place and the second vibration came, all at the same time. I was starting to feel excited, sick and that something bad was going to happen. Eyes madly twitching, a fuzzy field around me, spinning like a maniac, heart beating like 10 times faster than it's meant to! I started to panic! I quickly opened my eyes. Attempt 2 FAILED!

Attempt 3:- Basically I was so tense in this one that I couldn't get as far! I shut my eyes, but this time I lied on my side. Did 61 point relaxation, and breathed as if I was being pulled down. I never got to the first vibration sadly. So I was lying there fora while thinking but still make it eel as if i was being pulled down as much as I could. Eventually, I thought "Doh!" and opened my eyes and decided to fall asleep ‘naturally.’ Attempt 3 FAILED!

I believe the reason why I failed Attempt 1 was because I lost concentration while my mum came into my room to say goodnight. I know the reason that Attempt 2 failed was because I got frightened and no-longer had will-power because of this. Attempt 3 was failed because I was already frightened that WILD might kill me or something! I found out just before I fell asleep ‘naturally,’ that the time was 1:30am after I’d finished. I started at midnight. So I think I had some will-power into wanting to actually do it! But every time chickened out in some form.

Also, is my avatar ok?

Thanks for reading my longest, most knowledgeable (maybe) post ever!

First of all, I think your avatar is awesome!

I'm not much of an expert on WILD myself -- only been able to make it work a couple of times, and those were pretty much by accident -- but it sounds like perhaps you were getting quite close on attempt #2. The vibrations you felt were a normal part of the process -- you just need to keep yourself from panicking next time. I think you just need to "let it happen", without getting excited or scared.

I hope that one of our resident WILD experts will reply here with some more concrete suggestions on how you can take your attempt to the next step. But I definitely think you're headed in the right direction, and I'm glad to see that your enthusiasm for LD is coming back!