Okay. So I wear a digital watch. Every hour when it beeps, I check it, then I re-check it to see if the numbers are different or skewed. I look at my hands and ask. I pull my finger to see if it stretches, I hold my nose to see if I can still breathe. I look around reality to see if there's anything ridiculous about...all of these things seem futile

I perform various reality checks throughout the day....then at night, my dreams are INSANELY strange. One would think I' d atleast at some point do a reality check in my dream and then realize i'm dreaming, but that never happens.

what am i doing wrong? can a negative attitude attribute to my failures with Reality Testing? should I be more sincere with testing? should I include positive affirmations? what in the holy hell am i doing wrong?