i recently figured out a way to wake up after about 6 hours of sleep despite my having to get up very early in the morning and my brother sleep in my room. so i figured i'd try and learn to WILD or at least make it to sleep paralysis. i have a problem though:

whenever i'm closing my eyes and start to repeat to myself phrases, and as i'm trying to concentrate on the blackness my eyelids kind of ease themselves open w/o me trying to. at first its very, very slight to the point were it looks like i'm starting to see flashes of colors, but as they keep opening i realized: "hey this is my room, my eyes are opening." so i open up all the way, blink a few times and try again.

again my eyes open. and again. and again. am i doing something wrong? am i trying too hard to concentrate on the blackness? my thoughts don't wander that much. i may get a random thought here and there but not anything extreme.