So today is my 6th day of even knowing of the idea of Lucid Dreaming. My 4th day recording dreams as well as researching, and my 2nd day developing my RC's. I laid down last night after reading up on several techniques (MILD, DILD, and WILD in particular). I figured I would try a MILD, and worse comes to worse it might turn into a DILD as a side-effect. Anyway back to the story, so I lay down at about 11:30 last night. I read up earlier that day that trying to LD right before you go to sleep the first time is almost worthless. So I set my alarm for 4am before going to bed, just barely loud enough to wake me up (WBTB). I downloaded the ultimate lucid induction mp3 off of a thread on this site also, and listened to that as I laid to sleep the first time. I did my best to deeply relax but did not reach the state of SP. The sounds offered from the track put a lot of colors and designs in my mind, but nothing that materialized completely. I could feel my eyes shooting up and down, almost siezuring, which I thought could have been the first REM cycle? I don't know. After listening to the 13min track once I took my headphones off and fell asleep.

My alarm woke me up at 4am like I planned, and I was happy to remember why I woke up in the first place. This leads me to question, If I can constantly think, practically obsess, about LD'ing right before I fall asleep and the moment after I wake up, where's my subconscious going in that inbetween period? Anyway, I pick up my comfortable headphones, put them in, and start the song on my iPod. This time the colors and designs are magnified, and I see light trying to come into my vision from the lower left and right corners. After a valliant effort they die out, and I see a forest from afar but not completely, it's like the black sheet was torn a little bit and I could see through it. The image was off center, a little bit to the right. After my vision went back to black and continued with the designs, all of a sudden an image kind of...half spirals into my view. It was a black sky with stars that were pretty visible. My best bet was that I was in space. I'm not sure if that was me drifting into a dream, or just an image my mind put up. I mean, the majority of the scene was black...so that's pretty close to just having my eyes shut anyway...I would feel different if it were a bright sunny day in the park. Right when that scene came up, I could feel or see, something, maybe my hand or foot, pressing down on a pedal. I was just as the pedal was all the way pushed down, and a huge feeling rushed all over me. I'm still trying to decide what it was. I think it was either a huge state of panic, or wild excitement...I'm not sure which. If it was panic then fear was right along side it, but if excitement, then it was an anxious side-kick. It was definately one of those pairs. Right after that feeling rushed over me I think that I woke up, long enough to feel my body in the bed. At that point I might have been in SP, but once I started thinking about it it wasn't too difficult to move. I certainly did feel a tingling feeling all over though, I'm positive about that. When I fell asleep that first time it was about 4:15am, when I woke up (at this point I can't remember completely) I think it was about 5-ish. At that point I became more alert, frusterated almost. I turned on my iPod again and tried a MILD. Something about mentally muttering to myself wouldn't let me fall asleep, or rather didn't mimic the effects that I felt earlier. I simply rolled on my side and waved the white flag, allowing myself to catch the last moments sleep before having to wake up for class.

Was it possible that I had my first, if extremely brief, lucid dream? I mean, when I was "in space" I didn't really have enough time to look around before snapping out of it, so I'm not sure if I had any control or consciousness of what was going on. It's not like it's a dream that I just remember extremely well, because it's the process of which led up to the space moment itself that I remember most. I don't recall seeing any dream signs (probably because I don't even have them fully developed, just some ideas), nor do I remember doing a reality check. I think my RC, if I did one, was just: "What the hell?!". What is your gut reaction to this? Did I LD, or did I just want to LD so bad that my mind is making a normal dream more significant than it's worth? Thanks so much to everyone who read this all, it was hard to put the feelings into words without writing a 100 page book!