For quite a while I have been practicing WILD with no avail. I have been doing what the forums suggested, but it hasn't worked for me. Then last night, without actually trying to WILD, I managed to finally reach SP consciously 
I was lying in bed (no this wasn't a wbtb) just letting my mind wander so I could sleep. After about 20 minutes (I checked the clock after this experience) I noticed something I don't usually notice. My mind was acting out a scenario. It felt like a dream state without images. It was like a strong memory I wasn't controlling. I don't know what made me notice this, but I didn't want to completely wake up, so I just noted that this was odd and let my mind continue. My mind kept rambling about something I have no more memory of and I was slightly wondering if this was a dream, then all of the sudden my body starts shaking and there is this loud noise in my ear! It fetl like I was taking off in a rocket ship. I wake up and there is this massive gorilla jumping on my bed!
Haha, joking about the last part. Anyway, so I realize that this is SP but I forgot what I was planning on dreaming about and I thought i was going to think of something scary and then i WAS thinking about something scary so I woke myself up. Also, My sheets were folded over to tight and i was getting pretty hot. I feel kinda stupid now, but I'm so psyched that I reached this point. All my previous attempts I've been counting, listening to breaths, chanting, but I never let my mind wander and head towards sleep. I just had to somehow realize my thoughts were dreamlike. I wonder if this has anything to do with how hot my room was? Anyway, I hoped this has helped someone in their pursuit. Don't get discouraged cause I thought it was impossible for me to get this far.
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