I believe I have been experiencing precognitive dreaming for a number of years now. If I have a dream that seems to be precognitive, for all intents and purposes, it behaves just as random as any other dream seems to be. Maybe I am running from a monster, or in an old house from my childhood. Whatever, the point is it seems random and dream like.

Except, it usually effects me on an emotional level, I am feeling something in the dream that is somehow more intense than a normal dream would be. Maybe it is fear or anxiety, or just an intense good feeling. Sometimes there is an extreme sense of 'hear and now', like, WOW, I exist. If that makes any sense. I typically tend to notice if a dream was 'different' when I wake up but I quickly forget them like any other dream and move on with my day to day life.

Then, weeks or usually months later I am doing something - anything really... and it's like, everything kind of moves into frame like it was planned and I find that I am in that moment, a moment in my dream and I remember having the dream (that moment in the dream, not the whole dream mind you) and this feeling comes over me everytime this happens like, "oh, here we go again"

The thing is, these moments are usually never very important. They are just random life but always, always always associated with an aesthetic quality, like... a brick wall with a mailbox in front of it and a purple poster for a garage sale. I stumble upon this image in real life that I (seem) and instantly remember having had a dream that appears to be what I am seeing in front of me.

Of course I have dejavu, but this feeling is completely different. I know when I am experiencing dejavu and I know when I am experiencing this feeling as if I am seeing a dream image. They feel completely different.

I know that the human mind is very good at fooling itself, and I am probably just seeing and feeling things I want to see. At the same time, I feel like there is something to this.

Anyway, I just had a strong one today from a dream that felt like months ago. It wasn't anything important of course. I believe my mindset has a lot to do with my attitudes about precognition. I honestly do not know if a human being is capable of seeing the "future", but I don't believe the future actually exists.

From a young age I had this idea planted in my head that, the universe was created in some cataclysmic way and the energy that went into creating existence is simply action and reaction. What I mean is, I believe time is an illusion and the only thing that exists is an ever constant 'present'. The universe is singular organism that appears to be comprised of independent parts but has a direct relationship in how we perceive the space and dimensions of three dimentional objects. Oh, that sounds crazy... I know

To put it on a small scale imagine your parents, their parents, or your ancestor from 10,000 years ago. They made what appeared to be choices but in reality were physiological reactions from the brain to external stimuli around them. Their brains a product of evolution and ultimately, the creation of the cosmos that set everything in motion. Your entire existence is entirely a product of how you were raised (which in turn conditioned your brain) by the apparent choices of your parents who were conditioned by life to raise you a certain way. If that makes any sense! So, no free will and the universe is completely set in stone down to the smallest details.

Okay... I don't know what else to say, just kind of had this bottled up for awhile now. Of course I don't talk with anyone about it let alone anyone who would agree with/believe me