I began having lucid dreams long before I knew of their existence. From something as simple as having blackness in front of me and being able to choose what feeling I wanted to experience, all the way to choosing what I wanted to interact with in a dream. The consistent problem is that when I could choose what to feel, my mind would flash memories and concepts that frightened me and I would try to wake up but was unable to move my body for quite some time (Though I could feel it). Tonight I had the only OBE of my life - I wish to never sleep again. I went to sleep on my sofa. I was then laying in darkness on the same sofa - felt the same, thinking about life, the light in adjacent rooms were on as I remember them. (I dont remember all the different things I thought about...) I suddently looked around the room and remembered I hated darkness. I recited...."Though I may walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil." (which is odd seeing as how im agnostic)and got this really eerie feeling...I got up to cut on the light and my vision was fumbled. It was essentially like taking the old film reels of movie frames and showing them somewhat slower to where the viewer is concious that individual frames exist. When I got to the light switch I was flipping it on and off...realizing the light wasnt coming on. I dont remember if a light outside of hte room was cutting off and on but..SOMETHING made me come to the realization that this was all in my mind...and the light was not coming on because my physical body was not flipping it. I immediatly felt my body and jumped up. Help - I DONT WANT ANYMORE LD OR OBEs. They are honestly hell. All people trying to experience lucid dreams and OBEs...BE WARNED YOUR MIND IS THE SOURCE OF ALL NIGHTMARES AND ALL EVIL.