from my latest DJ entry:

i couldn't tell if this was a dream or not. what i mean is that it was either a dream that i had a few nights back, or i was dreaming whilst awake and somehow this event was taking place while i was simultaneously laying awake in bed.

I was thinking if i found X in a dream - i would kiss her. as soon as i thought this i had a strange recollection that seemed faint yet REAL. at first it was blurry because i was awake and yet this other thing was happening. when i focused mainly on this other thing i experienced it more clearly. in this dream i was hugging a Metallic object. my lips were kissing it and i seemed to hold on to it tightly as if trying to merge with this object. i didn't see this color but i felt the color blue. the object, yet metallic, seemed soft to the touch. it was emmiting an electrical buzzing sound. I was also feeling like i was being electrocuted by the object. this wasn't a painfull thing but it was a rather pleasant sensation.

the whole dream i was just feeling it's energy and hearing it's sounds.


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just trying to understand this????