Man of Shred
Jesus of DV

No Jamie dreams this week. Even though i usually have one dream of her once a week for like almost over 2 years now??? It's not unusual for a week or two to go by where she's not present. I must say I've never had a more consistent character in my dreams. Are these dreams my own obsession? Her's? or something else trying to convince me of a delusion?

Dream 1

I was moving or something. My dad came to pick me up and we started driving to my new place. at some point the car was going up a steep hill in Olds, it stopped and I started freaking out. The dream sped up and we stopped at a Tim Horton's. I had no debit or cash but I had silver coins. I was trying to pay for coffee with silver coins. There was a table with other silver coins. the till guy was an older guy and he saw me put the coins on a stack on the table. I realized that wasn't the way to pay so I tried getting my coins back.

Dream 2

Something about living somewhere with lots of extra rooms, Some were hidden.

Too short

Not sure how or when, or what happened previously. I found myself walking on a street similar to 13th st n in lethbridge. I saw some small critters like squirrels walking towards me. I ignored that and immediately thought of jamie. I wanted to find her but forgot how. I focus on her feeling and across the street was a woman with dark hair sort of like hers but the image wasn't clear and she was passing a church. Already had the watery feeling like the dream was going to end. I knelt down instead and beckoned the squirrel before me. It was limping and the left leg of it was flattened like it was run over. But it was crawling toward me. A deer across the street charged at me as if to protect the squirrel, but the deer stopped a few feet away and shrunk into the form of a dog. It also waddled toward me when I woke up...

Jamie

Just another audio only dream. Jamie was telling me, "... I meant to tell you several times but didn't..." Tell me what? will I ever know?

Strange


I was walking outside some apartment buildings. (while writing this dream i have feelings of other dreams that i can't recall.) I was between two apartment buildings looking for L from work. I got a noti on my phone that A girl L from chilliwack, was trying to contact me on facebook. We had a short conversation that didn't make much sense at all. She sent me a youtube link or something. I opened it and on the video was Frank Muller narrating a dark Tower book. As it turns out I actually fell a sleep To an audiobook The Drawing Of The Three by Stephen King, narrated by the late Frank Muller. and It somehow incorporated itself into my dream. I listen to all the Dark Tower books every few years.

Not much from this week. a short dream about hating work again. honestly i wish my deams had more variety.

I had a bunch of short Jamie dreams most in HH. first was I was visiting voyager and the holographic doctor was telling me there is nothing he can do for Jamie's BPD. Great. second is just being in a car with jamie and I was surprised she was there. Third she is leaving a room with my co worker Victoria. They were both laughing about something. Talking about me maybe? And no not the victoria from last week where i had a dream she was my girlfriend. Jamie went after the wrong victoria haha.

Well, some very exciting dreams. I fell asleep for an hour an a half on saturday night and had an unexpected long lucid.

Dream 1

I had a dream that victoria from work became my girlfriend. We went on a road trip to b.c. or something, and she kept demanding that I buy her pop constantly. After a few I began to refuse and told her she had plenty of money of her own to buy things with. She got really mean and bitchy after that.

Dream 2

A dream about jamie. She was hanging out with me for a while and then went away. I checked my phone a lot because we were talking on my phone earlier in the dream. All message history was erased. I looked everywhere for her in the dream but couldn't find her.

Dream 3

I was in a room sleeping with 2 girls in their early 20's. Very good dream But I won't go into the details.

dream 4

work related dream about a manager complaining about my work when it was really busy. I told him if he didn't stop and actually help I was just going to leave the shift, quit, and never come back. I actually feel like that during every shift. Once my savings reaches a new goal ina few months I will quit and/or move. Can't wait.

Dream 5

This entire dream seemed to be lucid. I remember someone driving in a busy city like red deer or calgary. I was dropped off at a mall late at night. I wandered the mall for sometime when I became lucid. I wanted to leave the mall. Every time i headed for the exit I wound up in a basement or something that was under construction. I asked one of the construction workers how to leave the mall. He walked with me for a bit and i went in the direction he suggested and just came to a dead end.

I turned back and tried a different way but ran into the construction part a again. I asked the same guy again and told him to take me out to the parking lot.
This time he turned deeper into the construction part. There were stair wells with no stairs and just random construction scaffolds and other equipment. We did dream like parkour down that area. He eventually led me to a dark area.

I felt like I was going to lose the dream because everything was black. I held onto walls and door handles in the dream to ground my sense in the dream as I walked. eventually I was what appeared to be outside because there was houses around. The dream kept blacking out and I kept stabilizing it. After several tries i wandered into a strange room with some children in it. There was a children's song playing and they were playing a game on the ground, which was black glossy and constantly moving. It was like a treadmill and the walls were of the same making. I felt out of place an wanted to leave. I found a slide area that seemed to be the exit. I followed a bunch of kids down the slide and wound up outside.

I was outside in a residential area. The dream was blacking out again and I held onto the ground to keep within the dream. I shouted Jamie's full name aloud so see if I could find her. As if on cue A house with a porch rendered in front of me. There was a woman standing on the porch with a bright lamp on her. She didn't look like Jamie and I was unsure if it was her. She greeted me like Jamie would and her voice was familiar.

The dream transitioned to inside. If we went through a door and into her basement I was not aware of the passage. There was a sensation of physical contact like a hug with her this entire sequence. It felt good and loving. She kept saying she wants to contact me but she still has a personality disorder. but the way she worded it sounded like she actually had a split personality. I said, "I know sometimes you're like dealing with two people, one that adores me and one that couldn't care if I existed or not. BPD can be like that but to me you're still a complete person" in other words. I don't care what her problems are, I just want to hear from her and know that she's okay, or even if she's not okay i want to know that too. for a few seconds she morphed into a small dog and I was scratching her belly. She went back to human and said, "And then a few weeks ago i was doing drugs." To that I said, "Well I know you expect me to not put myself at risk with certain things. And I've been getting better." to that she said nothing. there's still the sensation I am holding her and she is holding me.

She grabs a handheld game device and says something about my brother lending her a game. (wether she actually talks to my brother or not, neither she nor my brother has mentioned it.) It's like a PSP or something. I lean on her a bit while she plays. the dream gets a watery sensation like it's going to end. I tell her, "I want you to put the game away I want to keep talking to you before the dream ends." She says nothing and continues her game. the dream ends.






Dream 5

A dream my brother moved into place with cheap rent. It was an interesting place with 2 rooms and a bunch of hidden rooms in the basement. When I asked what my portion of the rent would be he said,"$1400." uh... Hell no I don't live in Vancouver,

Dream 6


something about Jesus but I forget.

Note: at least two other people in DV had dreams about being in a basement under construction this weekend.

Only Jamie Dream I had was she was at a table with a ridiculous amount of lines of coke... Really hope she is not doing harmful drugs anymore... And i really miss the dreams where we would hang out lots.

Work Related?

I was lost in some abandoned city. I tried callinga guy from work for a ride home. He answered but acted like he couldn't hear me. I kept saying ,"hello, hello,"

disturbing

Very disturbing dream where i was a woman in this dream and I was raped in a dark room.... I won't go into the details.

Family

A family related dream. I was in a town somewhere with my dad. something about music..