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Been sick still. Last night I could hardly sleep.
Fake Jesus
Can't remember the details too much. I was with Jesus and he was asking me to do this strange, abstract thing. It seemed unethical what he was asking. Next we were standing over Jamie 's bed and he said if I do those things (that I can't remember) she will be in my life soon. First off, I'm not going to do anything manipulative... Second in previous dreams it sounded like she wants to talk to me, but that I'm just to be very patient with her while she decides what she wants to say. In any case I'll hear her out.
Woke up and added prayers of banishing fake Jesus from my dreams.
Last night.
Wtf
I'm looking for Jamie at her house. She is nowhere to be found. I eventually come across a jail cell door with a small window and bars Jamie is on the other side. She reaches her hand out and I lightly grab it. I'm shocked and concerned. The dream starts fading to black and when it does she says, "You have to start looking at porn."
I admit I nearly choked on my coffee when I remembered that line. I'm sure in whatever strange dream she was having, in that context, what she said made sense to her. In any case, I've pretty much avoided that the past while.
Got a slight cold so my low recall got lower. Had a Jamie look alike scare at Walmart today. Came in with her man, but the girl was shorter and younger. When I saw Jamie at the store last summer, she looked older, and really hardened somehow.
Anyways. Sought Raven's help because I had a dream that demons were entering my mind. And also Jamie had a darkness in her
Healing
Seemed to have three versions of this dream... It played out 3 times just each time was slightly different.
Setting was by a building walking by a short walk with a garden on the other side. In one I'm walking on the wall and Jamie and Jesus walking on the stone path
One version I don't remember. Just that it happened.
3rd time me and Jamie are on the path now with Jesus. He plays a song for us. It's one I've heard on older rock/ pop radio. "Don't dream it's over." Forget who it's by, just has a really nice chorus. The music energy is a shade of blue. Me and Jamie seem soothed by it and we start holding hands as we walk and kind of lean on one another.
I really liked this dream.
Let's see if I remember all the dreams from the past 3 days.
Jamie 1
Just a flash of being in a store like Wal-Mart I walk up to a counter where Jamie is working. But she's freezing me out. If she comes to know me again in person, I hope she instructs me properly on how to deal with her when and if she still gets like that.
Jamie 2
Just her standing in the black space again. She is standing expectantly of me. But the dream fades fast.
Voice
pure audio HH dream where it almost sounds like Jamie speaking to me. But now it's gibberish and it's not her voice at all. I force myself to wake up.
car
Something about being in a car or van with my dog.
Jamie 3
Audio HH dream again. Jamie is speaking a love poem she seems to have written to me. I believe she sent me a poem back when I knew her. But I couldn't tell if it was written for me or the guy she was after at the time. So naturally I was standoffish about it, which resulted in a slight argument. This time however, I have learned my lesson. "Aw that's sweet! Is it about me? are you trying to tell me something?". Is that better? And no I don't remember what the words were. This happens to me when I hear music in HH as well. I know guitar, some piano, and a little violin. But, Adulting work life always takes over and makes me forget.
Infiltrated
I was in an abandoned house or something. I felt demons entering my mind. My dog was dragging me by the arm away from the place.
Jamie 4
Brief flash, she is in a dimly lit room with another man about to have sex with him. I.. really don't wish to dream about this. I know in previous dreams her tone seems to indicate she might reach out, (Or we encounter one another by happenstance,) for a very specific goal. I just hope she has her house in order when doing so. I feel I am expected to as well. It goes both ways.
Jamie 5
I am in a convenience store, and Jamie is there. She seems to have that darkness in her again. She's dressed strangely, almost like a hobo. She seems very seductive towards me. I'm just playing along. She peels a small smiley face sticker from a paper, kind of like the Wal-Mart ones that the door greeters use to have. She asks "Where should I put it?", "On your bum." I say. She reaches behind her as if doing so. I raise my hand in the the air and make a twirling motion and I say, "Now turn around." She turns around almost dancing and stick her butt out to my groin and starts grinding. I say, "What? your booty shrunk! I coulda swore it was bigger." "Shut up." She says and throws me on the ground and starts kissing me as she mounts me. We seem to be in a bedroom and on a bed now.
Instantly the dream transitions, and I instantly forget where I was previously. Me and my dog are in a dark parking lot trying to get a ride from some woman. But she says she's driving someone else and drives away to a stall a ways away. now I'm in a warehouse with my dog. People are working. I forget the rest.
I always notice latley that when Jamie is being strange in a dream I always dream about my dog. Like it's a warning. Can't argue with kisses and a booty grind tho.
Jamie seems to have vanished from my dreams lately.
dead?
Was in a parallel universe or something. In a bunch of futuristic looking buildings. I was exploring a set of rooms with some people. Some girl went into a dark room with a giant slab screen or something but never came out.
Wound up in some lobby where a bunch of the slab screens were. On the screen was a scrolling social media just like Tiktok or yt shorts. V. I kept scrolling through the feed for a while. Some girls in the video kept mentioning that a girl named "Jamie". After a few more videos of this I realized they were talking about my Jamie. I started feeling really sad, and then it was overwhelming. I put my face in my hands and started crying. The darkness of my hands made me wake up.
sweat
Had a FA and I was sick in bed. I was hot and sweating. I was not looking forward to being sick. Then I woke up for real and I was okay.
Couple other small dreams. In one some guy invited me over to his place to hang out. He wanted me to come to his bedroom, but he was on his bed and waiting for me naked... I wasn't having any of that so I ran out of the house. In another some redhead girl was trying to seduce me or something but I wasn't interested. In the last dream I was walking at night time somewhere. I'm not sure but Jamie might have been behind me. Or, I was just thinking about her .
I want my dream girlfriend back dammit.
Okay, another longish entry with very small dream fragments. (It's a thankless job.) Apperrently I can't save drafts anymore, it automatically just posts WTF DV!
Mcdonald's
A dream I got re hired at a mcdonald's I use to work at. Tina, the Operations manager gave me a return gift. I sat in a restaurant lobby that also had apartments inside? And leafed through the bag. An orange juice, some snacks and a flip phone... I was a bit perplexed at the flip phone. Honestly though, I would kill to to work at a mcdonald's job again. Both working and living with my dad and my brother is awful. The hours suck. My dad is a micromanaging, pedophelic, angry boomer, who doesn't know how to give instructions and expects me to just "Figure out the obvious.". And my brother who takes a 20 minute smoke break every 5 minutes, and always seems to be on the verge of a nervous breakdown... Oh well, I got an epic tax return and will be using it to gt my piano tuning business of the ground in not time.
All this morning.
Drive
Flash of Jamie driving me into the middle of the country, and we were passing a lot of pickup trucks. Plans were to park somewhere discrete and um... You know. She plan on just nabbing me someday and getting it over with?!?!?!?
Braids
Helping Jamie with braids again... okay is this a thing. If I get with Jamie, am I going to have to buy a hairstylist hair dummy or something?
Book
Flash of Jamie sitting in a chair with a giant book. Seems to be The Bible. She pauses and looks up at me and says, "Umm, I'm really having a hard time with this."
I wake up for a moment and a voice that sounds like Jesus goes into my head, "Give her something simple." Alright. Not Sure where Jamie is on her walk with this. I did have dreams years ago that she was talking to Jesus. I don't know if Jamie considers herself, "Saved," or not. So, I personally believe in "Saved by grace through faith alone." Doctrine. Main verse to back that up is ephesians 2:8-9, but there are also many others. I wonder if she knows what she is being saved from. Basically, all religions and spiritual practices address that everyone has a , "Sinful nature,". Ever got cut off in traffic and got mad? that's a sin. how about sex without marriage? also a sin. So, in Christianity God's standard for entrance into Heaven after death is Perfection. Everyone on earth falls below that standard even if we have sinned once, we are all destined do a death separated from God. God, however does not desire that anyone in his creation to perish this way. So He sent his Son: Jesus, who is also God in the flesh. Who lived the perfect lived the perfect life, was crucified and killed which was payment for our sin debt, Rose To life after 3 days, all according to the scriptures which came before. So, whoever repents (The greek word for 'repent' is metanoia, which is a word to "change your mind") and believe Jesus is real and did all of this for us, Gets his perfect sinless record, credited to our sin debt account. And since we get his record credited to our accounts, we don't spend death separated from God.
It was actually in 2011 I felt this "nudge" from god, after watching a video. I felt a presence, and I prayed fro the first time in years, "Are you real?" I watched a movie about Jesus, fell asleep and had this dream: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/man...f-jesus-19690/ . Now I ignored that dream, got addicted to psychic readings, Met Jamie, and the rest is history.
Simple task: Read ephesians 2:8-9. Start on the gospel of John and see if Jesus indeed preached "Saved by grace...". don't try to read the whole gospel if you don't want, just find some examples. Pray before hand, "Ask god if he is real or to reveal himself to you." But be sincere. if you don't like reading there is a Visual bible: the gospel of John, on youtube (I personally like the one with the actor who plays 'Desmond,' from LOST.") it's pretty much a word for word movie of the Book. Stay out of the "Hard to swallow pills" of the old testament for now. For that I recommend Chuck Missler on youtube, "Learn the bible in 24 hours", who also has some old testament bible studies. He's very sciency, Doesn't yell (I friggin hate preachers who yell or get overly emotional). He has a tendency to go off on tangents, but still really easy to listen to. Don't fall asleep to his speeches though unless you want to be ear blasted by annoying religious instrumental music at the beginning and end of each episode.
Jamie conversation
I'm in an addict with Jamie. She's wearing a very fancy, but old fashioned "wifey" dress that is white. She is asking me to go through boxes of her memories, so she can figure what to say to me in person. We have a small argument, but none of it is heated at all. it's something like. "You will hear from me Robert, But, you're going to have to be very patient with me." I say something like, "Ok I'll try. It has been how many years since you have even spoken to me? (Good portion of that is on me though, I always seem to forget that, especially when hangry and i think too much about it) After all this time it still really bothers me." To which she says, "It has been extremely hard for me as well, Robert."
Well damn. These are the words to speak to me. Okay, I guess I will somehow learn to be patient. On it!
Jamie flash.
Similar dream. only there is no conversation and Jamie's dress is black.
Black and white huh? I know what that represents.