Thread: I am afraid of the paranormal

I have a genuine interest in ghosts and the after life. I have a great love for people and an interest in their lives so the idea of being able to communicate with people who have passed on over the past thousands of years is exiting to me. But then I feel very afraid at the same time like- I shouldn't meddle. The mysterious draws me in the fear pushes me away - it's really irritating. I am afraid if I start to really study it then I will become affected perhaps, like get attacked or see something that disturbs me horribly. Seriously I want to be above that though and see ghosts in the light that they are simply people like me who no longer have their body but are somehow still living in another state of being. Also I fear the demonic side that is evil and wants to harm people. There are paranormal researchers who are so brave and it is scientific to them I want to be like that - but with a psychology edge- like a spirit councilor LOL. I don't know. I just fear it yet believe in it so strongly that I want to better understand it.