LiamDreamer

I'm trying to keep my dream journal together but little time to do meditation and got other things on my mind. Nevertheless keeping the detail in when I can and ensuring my phone is available and charged for me to write stuff down.

Most interesting non-lucids were yesterday when I had a weird one where I am teaching kids in a strange building. At one point I remember weird things happening like spaghetti spontaneously moving from my plate to a plastic bag. I'm at the top of stairs running after a lady that helped me in teaching.
Next one I'm discussing the film Chinatown with a friend and we've missed an art house film showing - I could have spotted I was dreaming if I had noticed how difficult it was for me to recall details of the film, but it didn't.

Anyway - had lucid on Wed where I'm walking through my home town and I'm 16 again. I'm reenacting my teen years as I wanted to live them. I kept stability without trying but as fears my Mum would realise I was lucid dreaming kicked in I gradually lost stability.
Next lucid was today when I had a dream of snogging some girl, who then starts to choke me, next thing I'm snogging Nicholas Hoult after which I wake up. I am a little bi, so enjoyed that too.

Considering I have a heavy project I'm working on and not doing lucid practices all the time it's quite encouraging, hopefully I can get back to controlling dreams as I feel like what I'm doing is random stuff from a disoriented mind rather than like being in charge. Only thing lucid I'm doing is reality checks, where I try and think of doing a different one each time in the hope these checks become natural and more about thinking than automatic mindlessness. The crux is going to be getting back to full lucid practice without overdoing it - e.g. a girl in my meetup group once said that the worst thing she ever did was thinking too much about lucidity when joining the group, as it reduced her lucidity and she didn't become lucid until she relaxed again. Her lucidity is overall better since joining the meetup group, but initially there was a drop.

On Fri night I gobbled down a 37g box of lozenges with menthol in them (Cherry Tunes).

I had one vivid dream during the night - where I'm teaching and I was reading a question - instead of realising it was gibberish I thought it was in German.

Nevertheless after waking up and getting back into bed I had another dream. I can't remember how I became lucid, but I remember as the dream went a bit crazy I had decided it was a dream. I also took control and decided to change the dream completely - ended up in a hotel room about to have sex with a lady. I found it difficult to control - never got to the deed and kept changing from one woman to another as my concentration wasn't 100%. Thinking I was about to wake up I did stabilise it at times mentally. It would have been better if I had gotten tactile, but I was lucid for a good while. After not completing sex I tried the TV which just had static - I remember it having 50 channels, then saw a report of Sam Allardyce bitching about opposition soccer players having AIDS (the idea that he would speak like that is completely mad) as I was losing control and then woke.