Grischkaja's world of dreams and mysteries

Vividness: 5/5
Recall: 3/5

I'm in a bar or something like that. There are a few friends and girl N. She has birthday that's why we celebrate it in this bar. I have the feeling that something isn't real, that something is wrong in here. I leave the table for a minute to go to the toilet. As I walk away, girl N. follows me. We stop a few meters in front of the toilet, but out of the sight of our friends. I still have an awkward feeling, she behaves really strange. She doesn't make any moves she use to make, no teasing , no jokes, nothing. I feel something special is going on. We start to kiss.I realize that this is a dream, because I know, she wouldn't never ever behave like this.
I calm myself and concentrate on the kiss. It feels really normal, like this is reality. I am very cautious because I know that I would loose the dream when I get too excited.
We stop the kiss and girl N. seems to be ashamed or something like that, just like she did something she will regret. I'm a bit confused cause I know that this reaction is caused by myself, well it's my dream. I know that what she feels is that what I would feel in real life. This emotion is really strong, it makes me sad. Girl N. starts to speak:

Girl N.: I don't know what is going on here. I feel so confused.
Me: I know what you are talking about. What does this mean.
Girl N.: maybe we should actually talk about what happened. But we can't do it now, the others will suspect something.

So one after the other we go back to the table
I loose lucidity and sit near her. I wait until we can leave the place, so that we could talk about it. But I don't really remember anymore what we should talk about. The kiss? The feelings? A possible relationship?

I don't know how the dream ended but I had a song stuck in my had when I got up. It was just a line:

I cant believe that you can't see
that you mean everything to me

Hello
Got 2 Lucids in a row I'm really amazed! My last lucid was in august, but I did it again! I wanted to thank Serenity for her Intro-class which made me progress over the last weeeks

1. I'm standing in a room. Girl N. was in front of me and started kissing me. (It's a recurring dream that I always have when I'm kind of confused through the day). I feel that her kisses are really odd, they didn't feel like real kisses. I remembered that she wouldn't kiss me so intensively in reality (kisses all over the face lol), that I hate her and I don't want any relationship with her. My thought was: "This is a dream! " I want to do something, but she doesn't stop kissing me. I than concentrate on the thought :"Just go and leave me!". Surprisingly, it works: she stops and goes a few steps away from me. That's the moment that I really realise that I'm dreaming. Everything around me looks much more vivid and bright. I get really excited

I wake up. I was like: " O No! damn it!". I did a RC in hope that it was a false awakening. But it was not. I relaxed a bit and fall asleep immediately.

2. I'm in a lake. In front of me is DC. He/she is swimming. I'm lying on a air mattress. The DC starts a conversation:
- Hello! I just wanted to say to you that it isn't safe to lay on such a mattress on a lake.... You might just fall off and drown....
Exactly in this moment, I fall off and disappear under the surface. My perspective change in third person and I see how the mattress finally flies away.
I'm suddenly at my university, someone is holding class. I just think: "That's odd.. how I did I get here?" I pinch my nose. I can still breath. OMG I'm dreaming . The surroundings get really blurry and I feel that the dreams fades away. I think " O NOoOoO". I remember to rub my hands to stabilize the dream, but it doesn't works and I awake

That's it! I hope that I soon will have another lucid!

Lucidity scale: 3/5