side notes

Hours of sleep: 9.5
Vividness: 3/5
Recall: 4/5

Numbers of dreams: Yet again, was a productive night. 6 dreams, each connected to another one

1. I don't see really clear, I see just the table where I am sitting to. It appears that I'm in a bar. In front of me sits Micheal and another friend, but I cannot remember who it was. We are planing a trip to Holland and we don't find a way to get a common decision. Another friend sits down and he says that he cannot participate to our journey. I leave this place after a few minutes or so, because I want to go home. Outsides it's dark already.

2. I'm driving with my car home. It's night. Next to me sits my brother. We are talking about some stuff. I don't realize that the traffic light went red and I drive through it. I'm angry and blame my brother for it, because of his talking I couldn't concentrate. In the back mirror I see, that there is a police car. I get even more angry. But it appears that he didn't saw it.

3. It's day and I'm near my home town somewhere on a field. There are a lot of people there. I think that I'm on a journey or something like that. I ride a bike and I'm heavily equipped with bags and such stuff. We want to go on the top of the hill. I ride my bike and I'm not really moving fast, I'm exhausted and I start feeling pain in my legs. But suddenly, we are at the top. There are a few mini-rails and we start plying with toytrains

I awake, do a reality-check. I'm really awake and look at my alarm clock; it's already 5 am. I am a bit angry that I couldn't recall much about the previous dreams. I tried to remember but I couldn't. I went a bit disappointed back to sleep.

4. It's really free in the morning, it's a bit chilly outsides. I stand on a long road, on one side there is a forest and on the other side, there are fields. At the left near the feels, there are a few cars parking. I'm looking for my car to leave, because something tells me, that I'm going home from some party. After a minute or so I find a car and open it with my key. I realize that it's a Mini Cooper and this isn't my car. I wonder why the doors opened with my key. I realize that this model doesn't even have a key-slot but it's opened via a remote. But I'm just thinking: hey it's an awesome car, why just use it?I get in, just to sit at the drivers seat. I don't want to drive it, but it starts driving slowly from itself. I push the break but it doesn't stop and drives into a nearby town. I finally manage to stop and I get out of my new car.
Suddenly Nathalie appears and ask me if everything is okay. I tell her, that I have problems with "my" car and I want to drive back. She offers her help, I get on the passenger seat and she takes the drivers seat and drives back. The way back seems to be more long. She starts talking about her life, how good everything went and such a stuff. I'm a bit confused. In addition it seems that Nathalie looks much more amazing than she already looks like, that confuses me even more. Every time she talks about a subject from her awesome life, the surroundings in the car are changing to take form of the current subject. For example as she speaks about her boyfriend, the car changes into a field with flowers and a man appears who gives her kisses.
I think that it's in my imagination, but I get scared a bit, so I simply go out of the car. It appears that the car is back at his place, but there are a lot of other cars there. I get into my real car and drive away. In the meantime I see two friends of mine riding on a bike. I realize that they are the owner of the car and that they are now driving home, cause they didn't have their car.

5. I'm at a place that looks similar. A few friends are there and we are relaxing in chairs. We also have a barbecue. On of the girls says that she has to leave and we should pay attention on her laptop, which lays on her seat.
After a few minutes or so, a few teenagers walk past. One of them takes the chair with the laptop and leaves the chair there. A friend reminds me of the laptop. I stand up and run towards him, he starts running too. I cross the street, get nearly hit by a car and finally match to capture him. I'm really angry:
- You little dick-sucking bastard! What do you have in your brain? Give me this laptop back.
- But I don't have it sir!

He drops it and it lands on the ground.
- Here you have mister!
Me: Pick it up you bastard!

As he leans to the ground, I give him a kick in his ass and he falls to the ground. I take the laptop with me and give it back to my friend, who was already waiting.

6. all my closest friend are together and we go to an journey through a city. It's a strange mix of Luxembourg-city, Paris, and all other place I've bee. There are mountains, there are a lot of houses with narrow streets, there is a river, in the background there are a few mountains. We first get into a oat to drive to the city. The boat is really narrow. When we finally arrived, there were a few strange American tourist. They were speaking in English. They ask us if we visited a place called the academy, a lot where referring to a castle or something like that. We were a bit confused but we left them alone.
We are now in front of some city walls, there are a few towers. We are a bit lost, cause the place seems to be Luxembourg-city but the streets are different, there were houses which we could simply enter, everywhere were a lot of people.
In the meantime, it seems that someone is sitting on my shoulders. It's a girl on our age and it seems that she's drunk and isn't able to walk any more. We enter in a house or a hallway, I let her off and she walks towards a bathroom. There is a woman who says that she's drunk. I ask her which way we should take and she gives us some directions. The girl gets back and she seems to be fully conscious and not more drunk.
We take the way, walk through narrow streets. It gets dark, outsides are a lot of people partying outsides.

I awake.

Note: Work on awareness!!!!

It has been a while since I wrote something in my DJ.
Unfortunately, I didn't have the time to post something and in addition, I had not enough sleep during the last month.

But this is changing again. Next week, the courses are free thank God (or better: thank the government). So I will have enough sleep to practice again the whole lucid thing.

Well last night:

I was really exhausted because I studied all the evening long until 11p.m. I went to bed and I want to relax a bit. I instantly felt how heavy my body was. It remembered me instantly of the very beginning of sleep paralyses.
Exactly in this moment, I hear strange noises witch remind me of the sound of a fridge. It came to me in waves. I relaxed even more and I had the feeling that I was floating in the air, raising and sinking through my room. It felt very cool and didn't scared me at all, because I knew it was only in my head.
After 5 minutes or so, I tried to move in thoughts my body. I managed to move my fingers and my hands a bit. I wondered if I was already in some dream or if the sleep paralyses had already gone away.
I want to open my eyes, but I realize that my eyes are already open. It's bright in my room, but I see things blurry. My vision clears up and I realize that I'm lying in my bed. I know that I'm dreaming. I want to get up to leave my bed and to explore my dreamworld. But for some reason, I wasn't able to move. I thought:
- Damn! I feel that my real bod. I have to try moving a bit and not to think about my real body.
I slowly moved my fingers but suddenly, out of no-where ......

..... A DC appears in front of me! He's sitting on my chest! That's why I'm not able to move!

I shouted:
- Go out!
HIs answer:
- No, your chest is comfortable!

I awake. I'm pissed turn to the left side of my bed and fall back to sleep again.

Today I was so tired that I started to Rem with opened eyes while sitting in course. OMG, my eyes just kept closing all the time. I was never so exhausted

Something weird happened tonight.
It's 11:00 pm and I go to sleep. I lay at my back, my hands on my stomach and I look at the ceiling. I get sleepy and close my eyes. After 5 minutes or so, I start feeling dizzy. I get a buzzing sensation. I realize that this might be sleep paralysis. I try move my hands. I can feel that I'm able to lift my hands. I stretch my arms out. I still have this buzzing sensation. I think about it and than I realize that it is impossible to stretch my arms out, because the bedsheets were lying on me! I open my eyes. I feel that my arms are still lying on my stomach. The buzzing sensation goes away.
I think about it a few moments, I'm confused. I turn to one bedside. And again after a few moments I get this buzzing sensation. It drifts away and comes back. It repeats itself a few times. I try to take advantage of this and imagine that I was moving my dream body.
My eyes are closed, everything is dark I start to see a dimmed light. I see that I'm in a cinema. There are a lot of people. A DC suddenly vomits on his neighbour. I feel very dizzy and the dream fades away.
I do a RC and I realize that I'm awake. I turn to the other side and sleep this time without any buzzing or so, but also with no dreams

Experienced SP, mixed together with some hallucinations
I awoke in the middle of the night. I had first the feeling that I weighted 3000 pounds, my heart beat slowly, but irregular. I heard my own voice saying (or maybe it were just my thoughts???): "This is how it feels like when there is too much gravity..."
Instantly, I had the feeling that I was flipped up side down, that I was flying. My heart beat very quickly and irregular. I got extremely scared. I heard at the same time: "and that's the feeling you get when there's no gravity at all!"

I don't remember what happened afterwards.
That's one of the most terrifying experiences I've ever made while sleeping