whiterain

Well its been a while folks, still really interested in all this but sometimes life gets in the way. Massively vivid dream last night, seemed to last a few hours and contained many recurring themes from past dreams. There is this girl I went to school with, she was always fairly quiet, but we got along well, and once we won a doubles tennis tournament when we were doing A-level PE. Despite never being close to her she seems to pop up in these dreams even more than ex's do which I find kind of odd. It is almost like I have grown feelings for her through these dreams when before them I did not really think I felt anything for her really. They are all just based around being with her at parties, trying to get closer to her etc, but even in these dreams i have barely got more than a quick kiss. Sometime during this one I remembered that she is now married with a kid, this should have ben enough to get me lucid but I didn't quite make the connection, although it did change the flow of the dream as we left the party. I headed to the beach and had some long weird dreams but the details are pretty hazy. Hopefully I'll be posting here more often now as the time and motivation are back and I know I will often be lucid if I just put in a little effort.

im with some folks on the street next to mine and they are trying to fix up their front garden so they can have people over for parties. we are just doing stuff like trying to lay all this crazy paving down. somehow i become lucid and just decide to instantly transform it into this amazing club style place. i stay lucid for a long time and just go around asking people questions about themselves and their views on where we are and what we are experiencing. its as if they are really there so i ask this guy his name and say if you are real we will meet online somehow one day

someone asks me for weed. havent smoked for a while but i decide to try to magic it out from my magic pocket. all i feel in there is some dust so i doubt my abilities. for some reason i decide that it will be easy if i just hand something to the guy and let him create it himself. i pass him some pocket fluff and as soon as he gets it it turns into a big bag of weed. i say to my brother how it somehow seems easier to create things for other people. random but enjoyable

i was skateboarding near my brothers new house. all good fun but was finding it impossible to even walk up hills. then we decided to go out for the night. the first place we went to didnt serve booze but it had good looking food and great looking juice things served in massive fish bowl type things. i ate a hot samosa and it was incredibly realistic. we decided to go to manchester for a drink and a party. when we got there we went to my mates (Fi) work who said we were really early for the party but it didnt matter.

yesterday remembered one where i was lying on my side in my front room, and i was just kind of propped up on my hip and floating round in circles. the kind of dream where it feels like it is practice for a wild. tried using this visualisation and its pretty good. just like trying to run through the air on your side.

did a long wbtb this morning then went back into a massive party dream based in my usual mix of holiday/town/bar etc locations. loads of old mates around. one girl (TR) says 'is it normal if i change clothes at work' then just strips off her top in front of us all. i am sitting down in this huge comfortable chair and suddenly her friend joins her in dancing around semi naked. someone wheels in this free standing double pole dancing set up for them. right in front of me i decide that it looks like some kind of weird sexy masonic ceremony with the two poles as the pillars. thats the last i remember for now

sweet series of lucids last night, but memory is getting hazy now. one bit i was talking to this woman and her girl about obe's astrals etc. when the woman said she didnt believe in obe's a had to ask her where she thought her body was now, or what body did she think she was using now. she still said she didnt believe so i just explained that she was basically saying she didnt believe in dreams and left it there. i spoke to her girl insted who seemed to agree that when she dreams she is away from her real body somehow, and i said that i guess when we are flying around in our dream body, that is essentailly what astral travel is.

had a couple more recurring bits. one was a party for me when i dont expect that many people to turn up, then eventually it gets quite full. one woman there was impressed with something i was doing and offered to give me a cheque for 100k to carry on my work. not sure if it was the garden work or just the dreaming stuff she was impressed by, but eventually the offer was withdrawn for some reason. this pissed me off but the party was still good.

it was in this block of flats and a group of tourists turned up. they were from jamaica and eventually turned into the west indies cricket team. by this stage i was flying around looking at things that i had previously planted around the town. there was this awesome 'guava' tree with massive purple fruit on it that was just so beautiful. shame it wouldnt grow here in reality..

the next bit was another recurring place, but i think it doesnt really have a deep meaning to it, just a place that has formed in my mind that i like and revisit. after the place had changed back to a place more resembling reality i asked a guy if he knew the place i was talking about. it was like a bar with a big blue menu screen behind the bar and the music playing was heartbeats by the knife. the bar was kind of part garden centre as well, and we were getting things for the garden and even large daisy like flowers seemed somehow miraculous to me however i still didnt really get lucid at this point as i was earlier. reminded me that i had one earlier in the week where jools holland was presenting a tv show in front of 12 foot daffodils