DJ Comments

Mabaroshi, thank you!!!! That is exactly the kind of alternative (i.e. non-going-to-Hell) viewpoint that I was looking for. I don't even believe in Hell or in a Satan as he is depicted in the Christian Bible.

The more I think about it, the more I think the nightmare had to do with the panic I felt last night after openly expressing anger toward my parents and siblings. It may be an abuse-survivor cliche, but it's true: I've always felt safest just accepting that any mistreatment I get is somehow my fault. That way, I can repent and try to mend my ways as best I can, and I have some illusion of control over it.

I especially thank you for having reminded me about the priority of Jesus over family. Thank you!! I'd forgotten that. And one can honour one's parents by being honest with oneself about them.

Oh, one more thing I recall about the dream: The lotto tickets included free samples of meat. I'm a vegan, and I'm at the stage in my conversion to veganism where I actually find meat repulsive. No offense meant to people who still eat meat - I know for some people it's even necessary - but the other day I saw a Tim Horton's hickory smoked ham breakfast sandwich commercial and nearly heaved my lunch. One part of it was cut off of a dead animal (ham), another was shot out of the hind end of another animal (egg), and another was squeezed out of yet a third living being (milk). Yuck!! I can now see the history behind the food as soon as I see the food. So with this way of thinking - let's call it "vegan vision" - I'm looking at these free samples of meat coming out of these lottery tickets, and thinking, I'm now cast away and condemned to eating garbage. Like God doesn't care.

God = my family??

Hi NBF. I probably can't interpret this dream, but I feel like you will be alright.

I do find it interesting that you have been worried about Hell, and that your dream puts you in a church with both Christians and Wiccans. Both sides are kind of not genuine, and they're afraid of you for being genuine. I think that may be your dream's way of saying not to worry too much about Hell, either from a Christian or Wiccan perpective.

The other interesting thing is the color progression, from purple to pink to green. This is a dream following bad Christmas events. But these three colors strike me as Easter colors. It may mean rebirth. I feel even more strongly about this, since you mention a last meal and fruit turning to dust. The fruit turning to dust reminds me of Christ cursing the tree. And the last meal would be the last supper. Again, those things point to Easter, which means rebirth, or a positive change in your life.

Also -- remember that Jesus said that one of the aspects of being a true follower is not putting your family above him. So taking a break from your family does not put you directly in Hell.