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2/25/12

DILD

Notes: I was napping and using some binaural beats. They were 15 min clips and after the first I came really close to SP. Right as it ended, my arms felt like they were floating up and I could start to see HI. There were some lines of text in my vision that were bending around. Soon I lost it and felt really awake. I tried it one more time and then just went to sleep. I had a small lucid and then a bunch of FAs. Eventually I became lucid again.

I am trying to make a dream scene appear after everything goes white. I decided to pretend it was a snow drift and suddenly I could move my dream body. I climbed up and there was a huge slide. I go down head first on the ice slide and lose the dream again.

Eventually I can get back into a dream from the FA. I start to see my surrounding so I decide to sit down and have a lucid pill. I dig through my pockets and don't feel any. I see a packet of my cold medicine on the counter. At first I didn't want to take that because I knew it was just some sleeping pill, and it wasn't what I needed. However, I couldn't find anything else so I take it anyway. I try to focus on my surroundings for a minute. I then stand up and walk down a hall. Eventually everything went black.

I can still feel my dream body so I try and make the darkness into a dream scene. I think that I am a ninja creeping the the dark. So I start "stealth walking" around and suddenly I can see again. I am in a hall facing the door to an elevator. It beeps as the elevator approaches. I am still in ninja mode so I try and climb up the wall and hide so I can jump the guy who comes out. There isn't much room but I hang on the wall by grabbing this tiny ledge with my finger tips. That seemed kind of lame for a ninja so I wondered if I could just rotate gravity. I look closely at my hands and stand up on the wall I am hanging from. Suddenly everything is sideways. I am walking around on the wall. The is really disorienting in a small hallway. Things start to get blurry so I sit down on the real floor and try and focus.

I take a real lucid pill this time. I reach in my pocket and can feel it right away. I break open the pink pill and dump the contents into my mouth. I sit and kind of meditate for a minute trying to stabilize the dream. Everything looks good so I get up and go outside. It is a beautiful red autumn day. I fly up hundreds of feet above the red trees and a quaint town on a hill. I can get good height flying but no horizontal momentum. Eventually I fall back down and try to find a jet pack. I wanted to use some DCs to help with passive control.

However, there were only dogs around me. A steady stream of huskies were walking past. I tell one to go fetch me a jet jack. It runs into a house and comes out with something else. I ask a different dog to do the same thing. This time I tried to visualize more. The dog didn't even come back though.

I give up on that and decide to try and find some girls. I walk into a house and remember the TOTM. I run around a corner and find this painting. It is about 4 ft by 6 ft. It depicts another beautiful red design. It was kind of an abstract scenery. In the bottom corner there is a menacing hooded face. I decide to go in the painting and thwart that asshole. I put my hand on the painting. It is like jell-o. I then slip my arm and eventually my body through.

I come into the gray walled room. It was tiny. I thought that was pretty anticlimactic. I look around and see elevator buttons on the walls. It is an elevator! Lets take it somewhere. The buttons are scattered randomly around the walls. I hit three that seem applicable and we start moving. We go down and the doors open to a floor of cubicles. People are all hard at work. I slip by undetected. I need to find the boss. I find another elevator on the other end of the floor. There is a secretary watching it. I have to wait for the elevator so I walk by the desk. The secretary is kind of hot so I grab her ass I also feel up another woman standing there. The elevator opens and there is a hot asian girl there.

Perfect! Now I can walk into the elevator and people will not question where I am going. They will just think I am a creep after that girl. I hit the top floor button and we go up. I joke with the asian girl that she is really hot.

The door opens and there is some empty hallway. I get out and walk around. (my recall is failing here but not much happened). I forget about the evil guy and remember that I have to bring something back from inside the painting. I dig through a closet and try to find something that would incriminate the company. I get a sheet of paper that looks like a concert poster. It has a few names on it. In big letters it says, "Sin City." I decide that is good enough, grabbed it, and turned around. There are 2 guys in suits playing catch with a ball. They told me they knew what I was doing and I wasn't going to succeed. I walk back to the elevator to retrace my steps. The door won't open. I look to the window and jump out. There is like a 50 floor fall to the ground. I get up and lose the dream soon after.

1/16/12

DILD

Notes: Nap...I felt very apathetic in this dream. I was not interacting with my environment much and I felt like I didn't have any objectives.

I dream started where I was laying on my stomach on the grass in ben's backyard. Kevin walked up and said, "It didn't ruin their lives...it just changed them." (he was referring to a TV show I had seen and talked to him about in an earlier dream. It wasn't a real show). I remember thinking that I should rewatch it to prove my point.

I somehow become lucid and stand up. I decide to walk inside the house and see if I can summon HM. I am visualizing her pretty well. However, about halfway there I get this thought that is like, "Ugh...I bet its going to be Robin again." I round a corner and instead of ben's living room, its my old one, and of course, Robin is sitting on the couch. I sit down next to her somewhat disappointed. I ask her why she is always here. She has some response that I can't remember. I put my arm around her and sit silently for a bit. I then grab one of her legs and put it over my lap. I am just sitting and thinking to myself. I do feel some connection between me and her. I eventually start trying to have sex with her. She is just going along and I stop myself, realizing I don't want to do this.

I get out and walk outside, half-expecting to see HM again. It is the front yard of my old house and she isn't there. I walk into the street. It is fairly dark. As I look up to fly, I see the trees have branches that extend way too far. They are touching each other so there are no good gaps to fly through. I find a small one and fly up. I just get to the branches and fall back down (I didn't hit the branches, I just got near them and lost all speed.) I decide to try and portal so I look across the street and start to draw a circle on a nearby house. Halfway through, some guy walks up and says something. I am mildly distracted but I look back and see the portal is finished. It is very large and has a red outer ring. I don't respond to the man and head for the portal.

I fly through it and suddenly I am gently flying over a large amphitheater. I am flying slowly, but I keep that speed. I think to myself, usually if I go too fast I lose speed and altitude. Maybe it will be easier if I just go slowly. It was. Eventually I have to start breast stroking, but I don't mind. I looked back down and everything was black. I tried to imagine seeing the seats of the amphitheater. Eventually a tan half-circle forms, and that slowly forms into the seats. Once I regain full vision, I look up and see that I am about 6 ft. below this platform. I just get enough height to land on top.

I stand up and turn around a corner. Some girl on the platform is yelling at a girl down below (but not as far down as the amphitheater). I decide to not get involved so I look to a nearby wall. It is really short, only like 2 ft. tall and made of wood. I try to make a portal in it. However, instead of the red ring, I just made a circular line in the wood. The girls look over at me and laugh. One says, "Look, he thinks he's magical or something!" I figure out a way to fix the portal. I use telekinesis and pull the circular chunk right out of the wall. It falls harmlessly to the ground. The girls are shocked. I walk over to the portal, but it is really small...only about 10 in. diameter. Before I figure out how to get through it, I lose the dream.

9/25/11

DILD

Recall: decent

Notes: This was a long dream, but my recall has slumped a bit recently.

It all started back in Oak Park. I was wandering around with two friends at nighttime, and we approached my middle school. There was a lot of action going on around; police were everywhere. We found out that people suspected a shooting was about to take place. We decided to go in and stop it. My two friends were wearing bullet-proof vests, but I didn't have one. They were some bounty hunter type people. People around think I am crazy for walking in there unarmed and unprotected.

So we split up and look for anything suspicious. I wander the halls for awhile, while occasionally peaking into classrooms and checking out students. After like 10 min of this, I end up on the 4th floor. There is a skinny white kid looking very sketchy; he even had a trench coat for Gods sake. He saw me and the other cops around and was still acting funny. I thought that he wasn't the shooter because he was being so blatantly obvious about hiding something.

My 2 friends show back up and want to head out. I say I'll leave too, but I just want to see how this kid turns out. I still didn't believe he had anything, but I would be a bad cop if I let this sketchy dude go unchecked. I look back and he is getting in someone's face and pulls out a silver gun. I do a double take and pounce into action. I grab his hand with the gun and point it in the air. I fire a few rounds into the ceiling trying to empty the clip. We continue wresting and the gun gets pointed at me. Luckily he wasn't able to pull the trigger before I fought it off. By the way, there is a crowd around us watching; none of those assholes tried to help. He falls on the ground and I am wrestling on top of him. I can get the gun pointed at the back of his head. I pause for a second to think if I should shoot. I don't have faith that I'll get a good chance to take the gun, plus he almost killed me earlier. So I pull the trigger--a spray of blood and its all over.

I stand up a hero. But it doesn't feel right. Instantly I know its a dream. I do the nose RC and I'm dreaming. DAMN IT. I was a hero, I saved the day, and it wasn't even real. (This is one of the few times that I was pissed to find out I was dreaming.)

So I leave the building and get into the back of a car. Someone starts to drive me somewhere. I decide to try and shrink myself. I look at the seat of the car and suddenly it is a giant leather wall. I was about an inch tall. The car stops and the door opens. I go outside and it a long stretch of road in the middle of nowhere (still at night). I want to try and fly. I am so small that the wind should be able to take me. I feel a gust and suddenly I am off. I am flying super fast about a foot above the ground (but I am an inch tall so a foot isn't THAT close).

I land and return to full size. I want to fly again so I look to the starry sky. I try to take off, but nothing happens. I stare up for a few more seconds and look back down. I am hovering at like 3 ft. and then fall back down. I repeat this a few times, and then give up, frustrated.

The dream skips. It is daytime back in Oak Park. I find a car and start racing down the streets. After awhile of gunning it through downtown I get out and look for something else. I use telekinesis to throw the car straight into the air--it never comes back down. I do the same with a street sign.

I start looking for some girls. I find a hot one on the street and start going at it for a bit. Something happens and I have to stop early. Two guys come up and each want to be next. I scoff at them and walk away. Then across the street, in front of the Frank Lloyd Wright Temple is Heather! Finally! So I get up and start fooling around. She has huge boobs and I start (*eye muffs) titty...loving her. It works better than ever before because of their size. I switch positions and eventually I lose her somehow.

Well if I was able to inadvertently summon an old crush, then why not try another? I try to find Mallory. I end up going into a house and asking someone if they knew where her room was. They showed my a room with 4 beds. I dig through a bunch of dressers so I can try and find which bed is hers. Eventually I lose the dream before finding her.

9/9/11

MILD + FA

Recall: somewhat poor

Notes:

Advanced task (control 2/4 elements) complete; basic failed

I woke up in the middle of the night to get some water and I decided to do some mantras while I was going back to sleep. I have noticed it is much easier to focus on the mantras without distraction during WBTBs. Hopefully this is the end of the dry spell.

I don't remember what made me lucid, but I did the nose RC and I could breathe. I am in some building and I start rubbing my hands together. I look down and I see that there are at least two extra fingers jammed into the gaps between the others. So even though my fingers are spread, all the space is filled up by other fingers.

I walk down a white hallway that gently slopes downward. I remembered the tasks so I try to imagine a body of water ahead of me. As I look up, I see the edge of a pool. I round the corner and there is an indoor water park. There are fake trees everywhere and I smell chlorine. I stand next to the shallow end of this pool. I thought I would rather test this out in shallow water. I go to where it is around 1 ft. deep, and I imagine the sensation of stepping forward and feeling solid ground for the water. I step forward and sink. Although I am up to my calves in water, I don't feel wet. I try it again and still sink.

I decided to give the advanced task a try. It seemed easier anyway. I extend my hand and use telekinesis to raise up a string of water. I make it twirl and spin in the air for awhile. Then I wanted to try the fire part. I imagined heat building up in my hand and I trust it forward. I small flame appears but it dissipates quickly. Well that was anti-climactic.

I go for air next. I get in a fighting like stance and try to condense a ball of air. I shoot it forward at some guy and he gets blown back. He gets back up and starts coming toward me. He looks pretty pissed. Good time to try the earth part. But I look around and I'm still in an indoor water park; I can't see any real earth to use. He is getting close so I give it a shot anyway. I fling my hands at him and expect some large rocks to be launched toward him from behind me. No dice. He is within a few feet so I need to attack him the old fashioned way. I jump forward and land one punch to his face; he goes down. Just then, it starts raining large brown boulders. I rationalize that I must have pulled the boulders from far away so it took awhile for them to get there. After like 5 seconds of giant boulders crashing down, it ends. Somehow there is no debris anywhere.

I lose the dream and am in a bed. I try to DEILD, but I realize it is an FA. I get up and stabilize for a bit. I recall trying to fly somewhere, but thats all I can remember.

8/30/11

DEILD + False DEILD chain (~24)

estimated 8 DEILD and 16 false

Recall: your try remembering 24 fragments...

Notes:

First of all, I should explain what I consider to be a false DEILD. When DEILDing, the dream will fade away and I will slowly feel myself back in my bed. I just focus on either the last tactile sensation of the previous dream or a few vivid general tactile sensations to re enter the dream state. FAs are extremely common when DEILDing and then I feel my "bed," it is usually some dream bed. In retrospect, it is hard to determine which times I actually woke up. If I had to guess, I would say I probably had 16 false DEILDS and maybe around 8 real ones. They way I usually estimate it is by the time it takes for me to feel strange sensations. In false DEILDs, they are almost immediate. In real DEILDs, they take like 10 seconds at least to start. Either way, I lost a dream and re entered the scene a ridiculous number of times.

I never RC when attempting DEILD. If I actually wake up, it will ruin the attempt. If I am dreaming, it is so easy to false DEILD that I might as well do it.

This was a nap that totaled around 2 hours real time.


Each dream lasted between 1 and 5 minutes long.

The first 10 or so dreams were spent on a sexual mission to find a specific person. We were in this dorm looking area. There were 4 rooms on each floor and I thought I knew which order of the rooms she was in but not which floor. I tried to "know" as confidently as I could, so it would be more likely. I got side tracked a lot, often by other women as I got more discouraged finding my specific one. I probably fooled around with like 6 different DCs. The dreams had varying levels of vividness. Some I took more time to enjoy my surroundings and ground myself, some I was hell bent to find a woman.

The next 6 or so dreams were spent outside flying. At first I had trouble taking off by my normal method (look at a target and get pulled toward it), but I tried something new. I call it reverse falling. Normally, I keep my arms at my side after jumping up in a breast stroke form. This time, I put my arms and legs out to the side and I looked at the ground. Instantly, I was thrusted into the air, so fast that my stomach dropped out. I went really high in the air and just floated there for a bit. I could change my hand position and lean to steer somewhat, although it was still really difficult. I looked around at this beautiful green landscape. The problem with my old method of flying is that you cant look around and enjoy it too much (I fall once I look away from the target) so this was nice. I tried the same thing in the last few dreams of this section and it did not work as well. At least it was fun while it lasted.

I had an FA after this section where I was not immediately lucid. I remember I had to drive with a friend home after I thought I had been sleeping for awhile. Whatever lane I was in would change and get merged into all the time. I was worried I looked really drunk. I tried to do a nose RC, hoping this was still a dream. It failed. I still had this sneaking suspicion that I was driving so I tried to pull the car up into the air. I was able to go up like 10 ft. before falling back to the road.

Thanks God, I'm dreaming. I relaxed a bit and soon lost the dream. After I DEILDed again, I was on foot in the same area with the same guy. We were headed to this building to find something out. I did the reverse falling technique again up to the top of this building. I started to run along the roof. I looked ahead and could see our destination. It was a courthouse like half a block away. My friend asked me, "Where is your license?" I thought I would be funny and replied with, "ask any of the DCs, they'll know!"

I jumped from the rooftop to a tree and started running along the branches. (Kind of like free running but....tree running....MAN I'm funny) They ran parallel with where I was going. Eventually they started getting thinner and forming anastomoses. I had good balance and soon was at the courthouse. I sat down on a branch and grabbed a hold of it with one hand. I rolled back and fell into a backflip. Because I was holding the branch, it slowed my down enough so I landed softly on my feet from the 30 ft. fall.

The last 6 or so dreams were spent in the building this adventure started in. I found a computer and it had a history on it of some sites I visited during the first few dreams. (Of course they were porn sites.) Then I found some of the old DCs from the earlier dreams. I was like revisiting the first few dreams. There was some more fooling around and I woke up for good.

I woke up absolutely COVERED in those red lines from lying in my bed and not moving. Also I felt a little tried still. It was a long nap, but I felt mentally exhausted. After finishing this, I am still tired but it was an amazing experience.

8/28/11

DILD

Recall: poor

Notes: My flying was tolerable but still extremely strenuous. There has to be a better was to do this.

I was in some martial arts training class. It was a small room with some walls protruding into the area, separating the room into smaller areas. The place looked like an asian dojo. The teacher talked about using your environment also. He mentioned how some of the walls were getting in the way. I assumed he wanted us to cut them up with a sword. He said if you can focus hard enough, you can go right through them. I leaned against the wall and focused. After about 5 seconds I sank like 5 inches into the wall.

I became lucid and wanted to try it again. I said to myself, "I am dreaming," over and over again. When I leaned on the wall, I fell right through and landed on my side. I was happy with that task so I moved on. I went to fly and took off. I wanted to see if I can do the broom technique with no broom. I held my hands out and pantomimed a broom but it didn't help my control or speed. I was able to level out for a bit, but flying required too much focus on my destination for me to enjoy the experience or take in my surroundings.

08/24/11

DILD + DEILD

Recall: decent

I was able to practice flying with a broomstick. I had good control and alright speed. I wish I could go a little faster and I still had trouble getting into space.

I started out as a cop driving around. There was someone else in the passenger seat. I come to a red light, but I don't want to stop. I realize I can just turn on the sirens and go through. While I am looking for the light switch, I blaze right through the intersection. Like 3 seconds later I find it. There are only 2 buttons on the center council and one is the lights.

As I flip the siren on, a guy ahead of me in the other lane stops so I can pass. This is a pretty good deal. Then another cop behind me sees my siren and turns his on too. I am worried that he will find out I have no real reason to be using the lights. Further down the road there is an entrance to a tunnel. It is blocked off by cops; there appears to have been an accident. I add my car to the road block and exit the car.

As I get out, I somehow become lucid. First step: find me some bitties. I am walking into the tunnel and there is an area next to the road where people are standing. The tunnel is shaped like (l-). The hyphen is an area with no road. So I go over and find a girl. I tell her that we should find someplace to go. I head back to my car because I think it will be more private. However, we get in, and there are people around. The back of the car has very large windows and people are just walking around outside it. I decide to take this moment to try using a lucid pill. I reach into my pocket and pull out a little capsule. I break it in half and eat the white, powdery contents.

We try a few more cars with no luck. There are people everywhere. Eventually we find a small yellow table on top of something. It is a child's toy table that is raised up on some platform. I decide to screw the privacy and go ahead right there. I am bigger than usual and once I am in, she giggles. Someone on DV said to focus on your breathing to help stay in the dream during sex. I take deep breaths and try to mimic my breathing while asleep (not sure why). I only get 2 thrusts in before the dream fades to black. I can still feel her back on my hands.

DEILD

I return to the tunnel and decide to leave. I remember that I wanted to try flying with a broomstick. At the entrance of the tunnel, resting against the wall, is a beat up looking broom. It has worn away red paint on the handle, and you can see the underlying white. I grab the broom and expect a force to thrust it forward. It does, and I'm off. I am not riding the broom, more having it pull me. I have my arms fully extended holding onto the broom, and my body is still stretched out. It was kind of like superman flying, but while holding a broom.

I have pretty good control. I can fly laterally without losing altitude as well as turn on command. My speed felt like 40 mph, not super speed but fast enough to go places. I try to go faster by imagining a stronger pull by the broom, no luck. I pull up and see how high I can go. I still stall out before reaching space. Eventually I turn and I am somehow over this vast ocean. I am flying low over the waves and they are HUGE. I want to try and fly through the waves so I do. I can feel them slow me down a bit, but I am still cruising through them. I never come out wet on the other side.

After a few waves I come upon some guys surfing. I wanted to try this out. I didn't have surfboard, but I had a broom. Good enough, right? A big swell hits and I try to stand on the broom. It takes me a second to balance myself, but I get it. The broom is backwards with the brushes pointing forwards. I surf for like 50 ft. until the wave dies. I get back down and wait for another. This one is even bigger. I get up again and ride it out. The other surfers can accelerate away from the wave somehow. I can't, the wave has to keep pushing me forward. We hit the shore, and I leave to do other things.

I somehow end up indoors and I want to try to fly to space. There is a little gap between the flights of stairs in this large, wooden staircase. I fly through the first few floors but then the gap is gone. I have go up flight by flight and eventually decide it isn't worth it.

I ditch the broom and somehow end up with a wand. I want to try some spells. I yelled the first spell that came to mind and pointed at the ceiling overhead. "PETRIFICUS TOTALIS." A large hole blasts open in the ceiling. I realize that the words I'm saying don't really matter. As long as I have the expectations and intent, it will do what I want. I remember stupify actually does that, though, so I give it a go. "STUPIFY." Another large blast blows away a section of the wall. I am pretty excited with these spells. I start walking away and I pass Jonah. I feel stupid yelling Harry Potter spells around him, so I keep quite. I don't think he heard me earlier. I keep walking and the dream fades.

I "wake up" in my bed and try to DEILD. I am worried that if I don't write down this dream, I may forget it. It was pretty cool. I am pretty sure I can still remember if I DEILD one more time, so I go for it. However, it is really an FA as I hear an old man's voice. He is telling me to write down my dreams and won't let me DEILD. RIght after he finishes his little speech, I really wake up.

8/20/11

DILD + DEILD

Recall: somewhat poor

The first bit of the non-lucid that I remember was in a park. There was hanging handle you could slide on. I jump on and use it. A group on black kids were upset that I used their thing. One of them was a big kid. They are being pretty hostile towards me. Will is there and they somehow get distracted for a second. I use this opportunity for a surprise attack. I hit one away and start stomping on the fat kid. Will stops me and asks me what I'm doing. I said they were about to attack me so I struck first. They said they weren't going to do anything. I apologized for acting rash.

The dream skips to his big room. I am talking with some girl about dream sharing. We thought it is awesome that one dreamer can enter another's memories. We end up playing out a scenario where I am exploring a memory she had (still not lucid....). Eventually I get this big textbook that I was looking for and leave.

I somehow become lucid and realize I have to fly somewhere. I have this backpack with a heavy book in it. I am worried this will ruin my chances of flying, and of course it does.

I somehow end up this house with like 4 other people my age in the kitchen. They are all talking and I move over to the hottest girl and see if I can make a move. In response to my advances, she said, "let me see what you got and we'll see." We had to leave the room before she would try anything. I thought she might be into the kinky stuff so I just throw us onto the floor right outside the door. She is not impressed and leaves.

One of the other girls knew I had trouble flying and needed help. She was upset that I was just using this opportunity for sex. She didn't believe I really needed help; she thought it was all a ploy for sex. I then became sad that I let her down and I really needed help. To prove I can't fly I open a portal next to her because it is my only means of transportation. I divert my gaze and draw a circle on the wall. A very lop sided red shape appears. And it is like 5 ft. off the ground. I climb into it and imagine my house. I fall out the other side and land in my house.

I go out back to try flying again, no longer having the backpack. I failed again. My mom was behind me and told me to imagine how it would feel to be a fighter plane. I lose the dream

I am awake in my bed. I can vividly picture the centripetal force with every turn of flying a jet. I keep this sensation in my head and DEILD.

I am on my back porch again and excited to try to fly again using tactile imagination. I imagine the sensation again and try to fly. It worked for a bit, but it was not sustained. Eventually I lose the dream.

The DCs were very interactive and helpful during this dream.

8/17/11

DEILD chain (~5) + DEILD chain (2)

Recall: somewhat poor

Notes: This dream sucked

The dream started in a hotel room. I had been roomed up with some random girl. She is pretty tall with shoulder length wavy blonde hair. I say, "lets do something rash." I was talking about having sex with a completely random person right after we met. She agreed and we laid down on the bed to get started.

Once we started going at it I became semi-lucid. It turns out my mom was is the room so I asked her to leave. She obliged. We are still pretty covered up in sheets so I am hoping she didn't see me. A minute later I see that my brother is watching TV in the room too. There is some dirty stuff on the TV. I ask him to leave too, and he heads out the door. I didn't care that he was trying to watch porn, I just hope he didn't see me either. The TV is on throughout the rest of the dream, playing porn for part of it. We are doing cowgirl, but I keep having to shift positions a bit. After a few more minutes I lose the dream.

DEILD

I am back in the dream for like 2 minutes having sex before I lose it again.

In the next 3 or so DEILDs, I went back into the dream laying on the bed with the girl on the couch next to me. I tried to tell her to come over but it woke me up. If I moved towards her I would wake up. I was stuck laying there speechless. If I talked or moved I would just wake up.

Eventually I get past this and am able to have sex for a bit before I lose it again.

I give up, roll over, and have a non-lucid.

After that last dream, I am able to DEILD into another lucid and I am outside. The girl is with me. I try to make a move and I lose the dream.

DEILD

I am planning to make another move when a guy comes up. He is dressed like a British cop and says something like, "If you try that one more time I am going to pull you right out of this dream." I agree and walk on, trying to find something else to do. I end up wandering around back to her and he still sees me, so I move on.

I become fully lucid, finally realize I can do anything I want, and go to work on my flying. I look at the moon, and shoot up to the sky. I try to level out, but can't be completely level. I am slowly losing altitude and I cannot pull back up. I am flying over a bunch of red roofs, in what looks to be a small fishing village. After awhile I decide I should just fall to the ground. I pull up as hard as I can (without gaining much altitude), and I just stall out and complete my flip in freefall. I land, and decide to try and go to the moon. I try to fly to it, but as I get close, I realize it is behind 2 barriers. There are rectangular openings in large wooden blocks. Each opening is at a different angle. I try to climb through the first one, but I can't make it through.

8/13/11

DEILD

Recall: good

The dream started in a car, as I was traveling with Sam. We were going from town to town looking for something. We find out that there is a brothel nearby and we decide to check it out. Before we went inside, we had to sit and wait outside in the dark. There were a ton of other guys stretched over a half block just killing time before they can go in. I sit down in a white plastic chair next to some people I don't know. Some dude goes up to me and points at the chair I'm sitting in saying, "is that seat taken?" A little confused, I said, "The one I am sitting in? Yeah. Its taken." Another DC laughed at the stupid question. I decided to move away from these guys so I pick up my chair and move around them. I see that the guys around me are sitting in a pink, inflatable couch.

The dream skipped and we are inside. The whole group of guys are still waiting in this room. The room had a bunch of red velvet it was all pretty fancy looking. Finally, someone walks into the room who works there and calls everyone's attention. He throws out these slips of paper. I look around and see that a few landed by me. I grab one and look at it. It had some weird markings and appears to have been torn out of some other magazine or newspaper. There is a 4 digit number written on there that I cannot make out. I am pissed because apparently we are randomly assigned girls instead of choosing....always a dangerous game.

The head guy comes over to me and sees the pile of 3 other numbers by my feet. He jokes that I'm hogging all of the numbers. I grab him some numbers and he hands them out so everyone has one. I start walking with him downstairs, still a little confused about this whole process. He asks me if sometimes my words aren't observable as quickly as my thoughts are. I get the gist of what he is saying but I say, "what?" anyway. He says another convoluted statement, but I know he is asking about my stutter. I am just at a brothel, I don't want to talk about this, so I tell him that. He is a host, and I am a guest, so he politely drops the subject.

We enter a room with a bunch of couches all lined up. I sit down and there is another random dude. Three girls show up. The most attractive one goes to the other guy (figures...). There is a decent looking brunette and a blonde who was a little thick. She had a really round face. Apparently she was new and needed training so I got a 2 for 1 deal. She starts giving me the low down after seeing how nervous I was. This was the part where you just got to know your hooker (on a side note: get to know a hooker is a good idea for a TV show). She said that light arm touches and linking arms are ok. She also mentions something about kissing, and then she dives right in. We made out for half a minute or so. It was nice at first, but then my tongue kept hitting teeth and hard palate. We start talking for a bit. The girls kind of switch off talking to me. I notice they laugh a lot at my terrible jokes, but I guess hookering has to involve some acting.

The guys are asked to leave and talk with the main host again. I go over and sit next to Sam. The host hands us some cards and starts to talk turkey. He is talking about how much it will cost and other rules as I look at what he gave us. It was some sort of bill. The first thing was a 4 drink maximum. Some drinks were written below it, and they matched the drinks I "remember" having. I didn't drink anything but I thought I had. The total was $45. I didn't think that was so bad. Apparently we still had another "date" part of the encounter coming up, and I was pissed that I used up my drinks. I had no idea that going to a brothel had so much emphasis on the date/talking part. Sam raises his hand to ask something of the host. I look up, and he asks if this date part is required. It is, and Sam doesn't look happy with that answer.

I lose the dream, and am laying in my bed. I'm pissed that the dream ended before anything good happened. I spent so much time at that damn brothel. Then I feel stupid that I missed a bunch of dream signs.

Before I know it, I'm back in the dream and outside the brothel. I immediately start running and looking for something to do. I decide to stop, stabilize, and calm myself for a bit. I plop down onto the ground. The ground is some white, powdery stone; it looks like I'm in a quarry. I look up into the daylight, but don't see a sun. I decide to take a lucid pill to increase the dream length while I'm here. I reach into my pocket and grab a good sized pill. I try to take it, but I can't swallow it without water. So I just break it in half and eat the powder.

I wanted to try to crash the sun into the earth, but there was no sun. I go for the next best thing and stretch my hand to the horizon. I focus hard and slowly raise my hand above a mountain in the distance. Nothing happens, so I look to the side while still pulling. Then, the ground shakes. I look back and this tidal wave of lava is now launching into the air over the mountain. I pull it towards me, and this big, red behemoth is approaching rapidly. It formed a long river of magma as it flew across the sky. As it began to arch down, it looked like a blood-red rainbow; it was beautiful. The river of lava crashes like 30 ft. from me and flows along the ground. The DCs around me were terrified. The river is expanding and flooding up to where I am. I jump back, just as it almost devours my foot. I scramble away, and look back. It appears to be receding now. Within a few seconds, there are only small pools of magma scattered around the quarry.

I turn around and there is a camera flash. There is only one guy standing right be behind me. He looks at me and says, "I know you're dreaming." I didn't like how he snuck a picture of me and knows this fact. He doesn't seem like a DG and seemed confrontational. I make my move; jumping at him, I am able to wrestle him to the ground. I stand up and suddenly there is a black SUV with like 5 more of these guys in suits. I look up and try to fly, at first I fall back down. On the second attempt, I take to the sky.

I can feel propulsion coming from my legs as I am heading for the stars. I level out and fly over grassy terrain. There were beautiful rolling hills. My legs start to bend in a sitting position and suddenly I'm flying in a plastic chair. In this position, I lost all of my thrust. Eventually I start losing altitude and land outside this building.

It is a construction site, and I start up the scaffolding. Jonah is there, and he is hiding from these people. There are a bunch of men in suits. We duck out of view, and I have an idea. I look to the horizon again and raise my hand. A towering pillar of water crests the mountain and guides toward us. Seconds later, impact. The whole building is rocked as I cling onto the nearest object. I stand up and there are massive holes in the walls. No sign of the enemies.

I get sucked out of the dream so quickly I couldn't prepare for another DEILD.

8/6/11

DILD into DEILD chain (~3)

Recall: somewhat poor

This was my first time using a new flying technique and it worked pretty well. I used the magnet technique by focusing on a destination to take off, but after I was in the air, I switched to my own propulsion. I could feel myself being propelled from my thighs.

The dream started with me walking up a snowy hill in the forest. The snow was like a foot deep so the trek was difficult. After reaching the top, I somehow became lucid.

I wanted to work on my dream snowboarding. (many previous efforts have led to difficulty). I look around and find a snowboard bag. I unzip it and remove the board. I somehow attach the board to my feet relatively easy; I don't remember how exactly I strapped in. (Previous dreams have had strange contraptions to try and strap into.) It is a very shallow slope with a few rails. I decide me make a go for it and I line up my run. I board slide onto the first rail and then switch to a backside board slide. As the first rail is ending, I 360 onto the next one and then ride out the backside board slide cleanly. I was super pumped that I pulled off a sweet trick. I decide to try and do a back flip. There is no real lip to jump off of, and the slope doesn't allow for a lot of speed. Nonetheless, I went for it and hucked off a small roller...no dice. I guess it wasn't feasible enough for me to even imagine a flip. After 2 attempts I lose the dream.

DEILD

This dream is all sexual. I think I am at some house party, and I find a babe named Lindsey; she is a brunette with a nice body. We fool around for awhile, and I lose the dream.

DEILD (from here on, I am not sure when I restart dreams with DEILD or when they just change scenes)

I think this one starts with Lindsey also. We fool around for a bit and then head outside. There is a car that I want parked out front. Some dude is sitting in there and I ask for it. He is resisting so I decide to try and convince him. I reach into my pocked and feel around for a the cool, metal butt of a gun. My pocked is surprisingly shallow and I can't find one. I can feel my hand be kind of wrapped in something. I pull that out, expecting a gun, and point it in his face. It is just my hand in a weird distorted position. I just pull him out of the car and get in with Lindsey. I get a little road head.

DEILD (probably)

I am still outside of that house. I decide to work on my flying. I look up to the stars and pull myself toward them. On my way up, I remembered the platform technique where you imagine an invisible platform pushing you. I try that and can feel me being propelled from my feet. That soon moved up to my thighs and stayed there. I had good power and control through turns. I try to go to space, but it turns out the starts were just details on some roof. It felt kind of soft like felt. I turn back down and there is more trouble ahead...

Out of nowhere appears a HUGE robot. It looks kind of like a robotic version of of a person. It is very blocky and square, kind of like the old school optimus prime. Instead of a metallic face, it was just a giant blocky human face. I start flying laterally past him and looking for a way to take him out. I go for a kameyameyah, but it doesnt work. Out of ideas, I shoot myself towards his face and land a forceful punch right to his dome. He recoils from the hit. While he is in defensive mode, I pile it on. Another couple of hits and he cowers to the ground, incapacitated.

I most likely DEILD and have another sexual dream with my Lindsey.