Caretaker

Awake - Dream - Lucid

I remember being very tired throughout most of the day. I was trying my hardest to stay awake most of the night but finally clocked out around 10PM.

This dream was very random. It starts with me and a few friends (vague images of people I knew but couldn't make out). We were stranded when out Van ran out of gas and we had to stop at some little gas shop in the middle of no where. The whole time we were driving till then, there was a really bitchy lady next to us that wouldn't stop complaining. Anyways, once we were getting gas or whatever, I walked into a dark lobby after setting down my HDTV. Andrew was there with a key-chain flashlight and said, "look whose here". I turned to see the bitch that wouldn't shut up from before. Surprisingly, it was Cameron Diaz is a very sexy white tank-top. We didn't really talk to her. Instead, we went around to the corner of the building where a dim light hallway was at. It was the entrance to a Rodeo and Karaoke bar. At the entrance, there was a lady who looked nervous to go in. From what I know, she was a big time country singer that had something traumatic happen to her. This was the first time she was back in the bar to sing for people and everyone was cheering. I recall giving her some words of encouragement because I made a plan to help 7 people that night (like 7lbs w/ Will Smith).

The dream gets really, really foggy and jumps scenes from here. I just recall bits of it that we were on teams and on some type of death race. I was destroying people with a RPG when I got side-swiped from a car and knocked off a big bridge. I was hanging from a steel beam, waiting for my teammate below to help me. There were more detailed parts where the teams were conversing and I like a spectator to them talking but I don't remember the exact things they were doing.

Interpretations
No fucking idea. I think the teams part might be because of Borderlands and Cameron Diaz because of the movie Bad Teacher but that's the best I can think of.

I woke up abruptly at 2:30AM due to my sister talking loudly to my mom about needing a pillow. I was about to fall back asleep when I had t o pee. When I got done in the bathroom, my sister was back on the computer using Facebook at 3AM. The light from our PC shines on my face so when she finally got off, I was wide awake. I tried to convince myself that I wasn't and laid there for a good couple hours trying to WILD or fall back asleep before I finally got up at 5AM.

Awake - Dream - Lucid

Before I being, I must note that I haven't bothered to type these out online for quite awhile. 10 days at least, I think. It's because I don't like my keyboard at home and my Laptop is broken. I'm at a friend's house now and his PC blows but the keyboard is new. I thought I'd might as well enter all these in while I'm doing nothing.

Tried to stay up late to have a REM rebound. I only managed to keep awake till 2:20AM before giving up. There was nothing to keep me up because there's no games to play. I tried to WILD but knew, deep down, it would be pretty impossible without a WBTB first. Before I knew it, I was asleep.

I'm not going to detail too much about this dream. Mostly because I don't want to. I know I should recall all dreams but some dreams you just don't want to remember. Basically the dream was an extended, much scarier version of Source Code. I remember that Stevens was still alive but like in the movie, only the small part of his body was there. He was quarantined because of some kind of virus that he carried and only one nurse could be with him.

I woke up around 4AM, went to the bathroom, took a drink of Apple Juice, then went back to bed. I tried again to WILD, more confident that I'd be able to seeing as I'd just woken up after sleeping for awhile. I laid there for over an hour before giving up. I mostly gave up because after laying there for so long, I wasn't really feeling the physical connection to my body anymore. I knew I had to be getting somewhere then out of nowhere, my legs jerked. Threw me back into reality and disappointment. I passed back out and woke up at 11AM for good but don't recall any dreams.

Interruption
I watched Source Code earlier that night so I'm not surprised at this dream. I loved the movie till they showed Stevens' body... or what was left of it. I even knew that I'd have nightmares about that so of course I did.

Awake - Dream - Lucid

I remember waking up earlier because of the arguing going on in the morning. Something about school but it's not important. I woke up and immediately checked the E3 schedule for when Nintendo's press conference was going to start. I quickly realized I didn't have time to absorb any dreams I might have had and wanted to kick myself. It was way too early for me to be awake to do anything for the day so I tried to go back to sleep. The whole time I was constantly thinking to myself, "I will have a lucid dream, I will do a reality check, I will realize when I'm dreaming" as a mantra as directed in my guides. Actually since I discovered Lucid Dreaming, my thoughts are always on them and making sure to do all my "dream exercises" (aka Reality Checks, Mantras, being stress free, and awareness). I drifted off rather quickly in which I had this dream.

The dream starts around the middle of itself.

I'm doing some kind of internet news show with a very cute brunette, around chest height straight hair, who was wearing a plaid, button up shirt that was baby blue with white and blue jeans and was around 5'8". We both have microphones and are reporting on something that was too hazey for me to actually tell what it was. I have to stop because my pants kept falling down. So I go around a corner of a wall which was white painted brick and shaped like the corner of sqaure with a hallway cutout and part of the wall on the right side removed as an entrance.



I proceed by walking around the corner, desperately holding up my pants to no avail (NTS: I had a ripped pseudo belt that was made out of rubber with the word "MAD" on it). She follows me and asks about something for the show we were doing. I agreed to whatever it was then said,

"Now get out unless you want to see me naked" very jokingly.

She replied with a sexy "Ooo" and didn't leave.

Then I dropped my pants to show my boxers. She then pulled open her shirt open to the right, did a fake gasp, and said

"She went to nipple" (NTS: She didn't have any nipples).

She was about a 32 B cup. She closed her shirt then I ask, "Do you want to". She didn't say no so I lifted her shirt over her head (NTS: Now she actually has nipples) and drop my boxers then grab her waist and pull her close. She stops for a second and asks if we were going to "put this online". I reply with a very sarcastic,

"Oh yea of course. Here watch us have sex".

We kiss for a moment then the dream fades and I wake up.

When I woke up, it had felt like I had almost imagined dreaming it but there are certain things that I knew I would have filled in if that was true. The reason it felt like that is because of how short the time-span in which I was asleep felt. It seriously seemed like I was only out for 10 minutes or less. I think really, I was out for about an hour or less. I made sure to soak up everything I could remember to minor details before activating my brain to full awareness to type out the journal. I wanted to be able to remember as much as possible, down to every detail I could remember. I know this will help with dream recall later on. I typed it out then came back to it a few times early in the day to add some other things I remembered over time.

This is the first dream I've had since starting on my journey to Lucidity. I won't bother going over all the dreams I've had in the past because I want this journal to be full of all dreams I have after starting.

Interpretation
I think what this dream was about my recent thoughts on relationships due to breaking up with my girl. My subconscious must be longing for a deep emotional connection to someone, which is not what I had the in previous relationship. The other part I can decrypt is that the internet news part of the dream must be from my recent focus on streaming live shows of games my brother and I play. Over the past few days, my brother, his best friend (who came over for E3), and I were messing around on Chatroulette a lot. Maybe the combination of being on webcam with random strangers coupled with the fact that we had a few good conversations with some cute girls sprouted this dream.


Quick cliff-notes on my recurring dreams:

• Being at my old School, usually in a classroom, cafeteria, or knowing that I can leave whenever I want.
• Being with my first girlfriend or the girl I had a crush on in school.
• Playing matches of Halo or Call of Duty (I know, it's lame)