Caretaker

Awake - Dream - Lucid

I remember waking up earlier because of the arguing going on in the morning. Something about school but it's not important. I woke up and immediately checked the E3 schedule for when Nintendo's press conference was going to start. I quickly realized I didn't have time to absorb any dreams I might have had and wanted to kick myself. It was way too early for me to be awake to do anything for the day so I tried to go back to sleep. The whole time I was constantly thinking to myself, "I will have a lucid dream, I will do a reality check, I will realize when I'm dreaming" as a mantra as directed in my guides. Actually since I discovered Lucid Dreaming, my thoughts are always on them and making sure to do all my "dream exercises" (aka Reality Checks, Mantras, being stress free, and awareness). I drifted off rather quickly in which I had this dream.

The dream starts around the middle of itself.

I'm doing some kind of internet news show with a very cute brunette, around chest height straight hair, who was wearing a plaid, button up shirt that was baby blue with white and blue jeans and was around 5'8". We both have microphones and are reporting on something that was too hazey for me to actually tell what it was. I have to stop because my pants kept falling down. So I go around a corner of a wall which was white painted brick and shaped like the corner of sqaure with a hallway cutout and part of the wall on the right side removed as an entrance.



I proceed by walking around the corner, desperately holding up my pants to no avail (NTS: I had a ripped pseudo belt that was made out of rubber with the word "MAD" on it). She follows me and asks about something for the show we were doing. I agreed to whatever it was then said,

"Now get out unless you want to see me naked" very jokingly.

She replied with a sexy "Ooo" and didn't leave.

Then I dropped my pants to show my boxers. She then pulled open her shirt open to the right, did a fake gasp, and said

"She went to nipple" (NTS: She didn't have any nipples).

She was about a 32 B cup. She closed her shirt then I ask, "Do you want to". She didn't say no so I lifted her shirt over her head (NTS: Now she actually has nipples) and drop my boxers then grab her waist and pull her close. She stops for a second and asks if we were going to "put this online". I reply with a very sarcastic,

"Oh yea of course. Here watch us have sex".

We kiss for a moment then the dream fades and I wake up.

When I woke up, it had felt like I had almost imagined dreaming it but there are certain things that I knew I would have filled in if that was true. The reason it felt like that is because of how short the time-span in which I was asleep felt. It seriously seemed like I was only out for 10 minutes or less. I think really, I was out for about an hour or less. I made sure to soak up everything I could remember to minor details before activating my brain to full awareness to type out the journal. I wanted to be able to remember as much as possible, down to every detail I could remember. I know this will help with dream recall later on. I typed it out then came back to it a few times early in the day to add some other things I remembered over time.

This is the first dream I've had since starting on my journey to Lucidity. I won't bother going over all the dreams I've had in the past because I want this journal to be full of all dreams I have after starting.

Interpretation
I think what this dream was about my recent thoughts on relationships due to breaking up with my girl. My subconscious must be longing for a deep emotional connection to someone, which is not what I had the in previous relationship. The other part I can decrypt is that the internet news part of the dream must be from my recent focus on streaming live shows of games my brother and I play. Over the past few days, my brother, his best friend (who came over for E3), and I were messing around on Chatroulette a lot. Maybe the combination of being on webcam with random strangers coupled with the fact that we had a few good conversations with some cute girls sprouted this dream.


Quick cliff-notes on my recurring dreams:

• Being at my old School, usually in a classroom, cafeteria, or knowing that I can leave whenever I want.
• Being with my first girlfriend or the girl I had a crush on in school.
• Playing matches of Halo or Call of Duty (I know, it's lame)