americapeterson

So, I joined this forum so I could get some feedback on a very unusual dream. I often dream lucidly and on some occasions (when I do dream lucidly) I begin to act out violent things I would never do. I try to force myself intimately on any woman I see. They do not try to fight me off or object in anyway, however their bodys become stiff and unresponsive and it becomes difficult. As I am trying to force myself on them I realize I have no penis so I cant really engage in forced intercourse. But in any case I usually continue even though I cannot manage to dream up a penis for myself. In these dreams I do want to act violently but I realize I am dreaming and not really hurting anyone.
In my waking life I am a very outgoing agreeable and often passive lesbian. I do not fight or maliciously try and hurt people and I have never sexually assaulted another living thing though I have been myself( before I'd ever had the dreams). My guilt has always kept me from making harmfull and careless disissions, and when I was young these dreams made me feel horrible. But I have come appreciate them and accept that I have them. I guess I would like to hear what others think of this since I will never tell my friends.