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I think it may be important to know if you're about read the following description of my dream that I'm an adult woman and don't have any children. In my dream I knew a little girl (maybe 5 or 6) who could heal people with her energy. I was standing in what seemed like a courtyard outside of her school, waiting to pick her up, and I was thrilled that I would get to see her; my mother was there, sitting on a bench nearby, and I was telling her I was so excited for her to meet this little girl. Soon kids came spilling out of the doors, and finally she walked out behind the other kids, and I picked her up and was swinging her around in the air. I remember she was wearing a hoody that was almost obscuring her face. While I was swinging her, she seemed to shrink in size, until she was doll sized, and she looked sad. I sensed that she had tried to heal somebody and failed. I stopped and said, "What's the matter, honey? Why do you look so sad?" and she said, "I just can't do anything right anymore." With that, she was letting go of her own life energy, and she slumped in my hands, dead. I was so overcome with fear and despair I tried to cry for help with all of my might, but all that would come out was a wheezy gasp. I looked at my mother, and she was asleep. I kept trying to yell and finally I did - really - and woke myself up yelling (scared my poor dog half to death!) and with a crushing feeling of loss. I have my own ideas about the meaning, but would welcome some different ones for consideration.