Bubble

This dream makes more sense if you know that I had minor surgery done on Wednesday.

I dreamed I was back in the back room of my aunt's old house. It was a very old house and the room was more like an add-on than anything. The floor was basically toothpaste-colored linoleum, and it was set about 5 feet lower than the rest of the house.

Everything was very dark and very dimly lit.
Anyway, for whatever reason, there were urine samples set out. I don't know why.
Also, my stomach and torso were cramped up (they probably actually were and it made it into my dream) so I was trying to lie down on the cool linoleum to make them feel better.

Then for some reason, I realized I was dreaming. There was no clue or sign, I just suddenly thought, "I am dreaming" and realized it was true. Unfortunately, I was stuck in the dark.

I tried to punch through the void, but nothing happened. I tried to feel my way through it, and I felt the wall of a corner. At the time, I thought it was really the wall and I was feeling the waking world through my dream, but I now know that wasn't true. My bed isn't near a corner; I'd have fallen out of bed getting to one. This wasn't quite a false awakening, but it was sort of like a quasi false awakening.

I backed away, worried I had actually felt the wall of my bedroom through my dream. I made a hop and tried to fly, and I was hovering, but things were still dark. I tried to punch through the void, but it was like punching air.

I tried to imagine a temperate rainforest (a trail in my favorite park), and I imagined it as vividly as I could, but it did not appear in front of me. I got a glimpse of a tree, but it was all cartoony and not anything like the park trail.

I think part of what I need to overcome is understanding that as soon as I have visualized something, it is. I don't have to visualize it to try to make it "appear". As soon as I have visualize it, it exists. Period.

I know this is a hurdle I may have trouble overcoming for a while, and the Void continues to be an issue.

I woke up and my whole torso had cramped up. I was sleeping in a weird position because of it, so my shoulder also ached.