task of the year

Yearly Goals

8-4-11


Due to recent dream events I have to scrap all the goals for this year, save finding out more about the short haired girl.

My dreams have lead me to the conclusion that I am intentionally editing my dream experiences and memories. By being woken up by others, I have caught myself telling myself to forget a part of some dreams while starting a new parts. I kind of suspected this and was keeping a more lucid eye out for this and found a couple of clear instances of this happening.

There also seem to be kinds of "secret side doors" of sorts where I seem have put memories or ides, in the form of dreams, for safe keeping. To get into these places I have to spot or feel them (which means being lucid enough to look) and be able to enter with the appropriate frame of mind. Sometimes rarely I find myself in these secret places but there is a pressure, a mind-frame, an expectation to have a certain frame of mind. Usually I am shocked to find these places and do not get into the mindset quick enough and the dream seems to literally push me out of it. I have an innate attraction to these places. I think these places are highly effective communication tools but what they would say or do, or why I would hide them from myself, I don't know. The few I have stumbled across, and still remember, seem to be unpopulated by DC's and the places have a very strong feeling to them. I usually am very lucid as well yet do not feel like myself in these places which is different than all other lucids.



Find Info on Short Haired Girl
This is stated in my previous task posts but she is a reoccurring DC that doesn't act like any other DC. I have found no info on her at all since posting this goal a few months ago, she can be elusive.


Find the Secret to the Secret Dreams
This may take longer than a year or maybe I'll be surprised and have it solved before the month is over. Still I have to find out what is behind my own "wizard of Oz curtain" and why I have it there.

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Well glad to see I blasted through the goals of the year fairly fast except for one, finding more out about the short haired girl. I haven't seen her lately but I am still going to find out more.


Goal #1
Info on Short Haired Girl
(refer back to last Task of The Year)


Ok so now new goals.
My subconscious has risen to the cause giving me a purpose and a new goal, facing fears. The first fear I was presented with a few days ago was certainly an old one from way back in my childhood just when I was beginning to notice my dreams. Even today with all my powers I was pushed to my maximum by it. This is a good thing and I came through the experience with flying colors. Now I must delve deeper into portions of my subconscious and face everything that is holding me back in life or face things that can improve me and my life.


Goal #2
Explore Subconscious
Yes this sounds dangerous but I honestly think I am up to it.
If the mind is anything like this I have a lot to explore and work on. I'm sure danger and adventure awaits around every corner, sounds great to me!


Goal #3
Continue to work on my Powers and Abilities
Yes I use them a lot in dreams but I would like to use them all the time and not forget about them during some dreams. I believe that it is these very abilities that will lead me to wherever I was destined to go. I have been given great tools and I should use them to better myself and/or others. I feel like I am on a quest, like I have to do something but I am not sure what that is. I'll find out from Goal #2 and use #3 to get there with the help of #4.


Goal #4
Get Dream Guide/Mentor
I have never seen a dream guide and I am not sure how much I need one but I do need someone to help me on my quest, someone who knows a lot. The usual clueless DC's are now just so much noise, I need someone who can talk techniques with me in the dream. I thought of creating one of my own then thought of creating a whole team of helpers but I want to see what my subconscious has before I make my own.

6-25-2011

I've accomplished the Void goal (took about 3 months) and have that to look into some more, that should be very promising. I just produce a wormhole and go in and look over the info in my dreams, actually I'm not sure of what all is in there but it seems hugely expansive, lots to explore!

I still have the short haired girl to find something/anything out on. Since posting about her I have had her appear off and on but no Q&A or anything that could give me some info about her so I will keep this goal.

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I also intend to find out more about the short haired girl. She doesn't seem like a dream guide (DG) and may even be a possible me. Once I asked to see myself in the mirror and expected to see myself but when I looked I saw her! She put on a big grin and smiled and waved at me and said "Hi, its me!" in a super happy and excited way. Everything she says surprises me and usually cuts off my train of thought. She is the only one doing this, and is reoccurring as well, so I have to find out more.

Super Hero

My new goal for this year is to become more like a super hero in my dreams saving people. I partly want this so that there will be more of a reason to my dreams. Mostly I want this because the few dreams I have had like this have been amazing. I have had some experience saving paoiple in real life as well and this type of dream supports that aspect of myself. Also having a goal that is allusive lets me use my powers, just like heroes have to be up against something in a movie (it wouldn't be much fun to see Spiderman watch TV for 2 hours). I have been working on this goal for a few weeks now with a little success, perhaps posting it here will tell my subconscious that I am serious about it. All of us super heroes start off a little pathetic right? I guess I just need to keep up at it and find my path.

I am starting this journal because my dreaming has become stagnant and this journal should help change and clarify things. I have other book dream journals a piled foot high and have done it all. It has all improved my life greatly...but. My dreaming now consists of me wondering around, if I'm lucky maybe I'll dream I lost my car. I am not afraid of anything and have no burning desires, basically I am a god in my dreams able to do anything at any time. Is this what it is like to be a god, have no fears but no burning desires either? Whats the next level? I feel stuck wondering the dream worlds like a ghost. Basically I have run out of challenges, I have either done it or if unpleasant can, with little more than a thought, do away with it. So I am going to use this dream journal to explore this position I find myself in, as well as myself, in order to bring about some type of satisfactory change to this boring self-made paradise. I kind of feel like Q in Star Trek and how he was trying to transform his paradise. I too am Q in that I am the world, the inhabitants, and the rebel. The natives are restless, let the revolution begin.