catzisconfus

13.07.2010

Trying to fly (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a completely white room. it was not so big, but there was enough space. I was there with a friend from real life. I wanted to fly, so I was jumping in the air, but it wasn't working. Then she wanted to help me. The only thing she had to do, was standing in front of me, with the back to me. Then I stretched my arms and started flappering with them. I went slowly in the air, but i had to flapper excessively. When I was about 2 meters high, I went up faster, and I could fly. I was flying around for a few seconds, making corners was still a little hard but it was good enough. I tried to enjoy the flying. I landed again. It was still the same small room, but it was just bigger the higher I went. Suddenly an other friend was there too. He wanted to try it too. He stood behind her, and instead of moving his arms to fly, he started touching her. This frustrated me and I unconsciously pushed him away with my mind. He went behind her again, and he started touching her again.

The touching of him mostly frustrated me, because he is really like this in real life, and he only annoys them with it, only when he is drunk, and she is a friend who already has a boyfriend so it was wrong.
This dream might have been a little lucid, because I tried to fly, and I maybe had a little control over what I did. Flying would be one of the first things I would try when I become lucid so I practiced in a normal dream

DC's: 2 friends

18.07.2010

Hiding from Nazi's (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was with my mother and a brother that I don't have IRL in my room, my brother was about 3 years old. The only objects in my room were my closets and my bed. the rest of the room looked ugly and grey. Then my mother said she heard something. She said it were nazi's that were looking for us. I didn't hear anything, so we were silent and then I heard them too, they were looking for us! I knew I didn't have to fear anything, because I'm an atheist, but if they ask, I will just say that I'm a christian. My mother and my brother were Jewish, so I was worried for them. I thought they were also going to rob us or look for stuff to prove that we were jewish, so I opened my most left closet and started looking for my money. They were all pieces of 2€. I heard the nazi's in the background and we were panicking. I put all the money in my pockets and went to my mother and brother. The nazi's were close to the door now, so they went to sit on their knees on my bed with their hands in the air. For some reason, I went to sit behind my bed, but that hurted on my knees so I also went on the bed. Then the nazi's came in my room. They took my brother and my mother downstairs. A little later they let my mother and my brother come back upstairs to me, while the nazi's were downstairs in our couches. I told my mother that I was afraid of what they were going to do to them. I gave her a hug. Then she told me they killed Molly, our cat. I became very angry. Then I worried about our other cat, I looked next to me and there she was. She looked handicapped. I wanted to find a knife or something sharp to kill the nazi's for what they have done to my cat. I couldn't find anything, the only knives were downstairs in the kitchen, past the nazi's.

The grey theme was there again, I also had this the same night, 2 dreams ago.
While my other cat was dead, I still am now happy that I saw my alive cat again, because IRL, she is the one who is dead. The reason she looked handicapped was probably because she has been through a lot (BUT SURVIVED!) and later when they ran over her with their fucking car, I saw her messed up, and I kind of had that image in my dream. One of the first things I want to do when I am lucid is see her.
What also is odd is that I see my mother a lot in my dreams, but not my father.

DC's: mother, both my cats

18.07.2010

Looking for a job (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was at a group of stores, they were next to each other, in a circle shaped building with the entrances on the outside. I was looking for a job, so i went into a restaurant and asked if I could work there. I could but I didn't really have interest so i went to a different store. while going to the next store I heard the people from the restaurant saying you could earn 14€ / hour there, so I became interested again. I was on my way back there, but instead of going in the restaurant I walked past it and went to the parking, which was all around the building. There I met some people and I walked away with them.

Please note this is a boring dream.

18.07.2010

Homeless (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was with my mother and my father in my town. The whole town looked destroyed and grey. There was nobody there but us. My parents looked younger than they normally do. They were sad because we were homeless. My mother said we had to leave our house because some company went bankrupt. She also said that a long time ago, this had happened again. Now we had no idea where to go.

DC's: mother, father

17.07.2010

A weird game and someone drowning me (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was with 5 to 10 people that I don't know in real life, somewhere close to a beach. I forgot what happened here but a while later, I was with them on a raft on the sea. Suddenly, one of them grabbed me and pulled me into the sea. we were sinking while she was still holding me tight. Before we fell into the water, I just exhaled, so I had few breath left. After a little while under water, I managed to get me free from her and swim up. When I was back on the raft, everyone was there, including the girl who pulled me into the water. Someone explained to me that it just was a game. They all just suddenly pulled someone into the water, and the purpose of the game was to stay alive. I said that I was angry because I could have been killed. I said that I exhaled right before entering the water. I said I was glad to be alive. The person I was talking to replied "yeah you did, but these 2 didn't" I looked at the people. I saw the 2 people standing there, they looked dead, but they were still "alive". One of them was the girl who pulled me into the water. Then I "recognized" her, I knew she was someone I know in real life, but she looked completely different. I kept looking at her, thinking she would change her appearance, but nothing happened. I thought it was probably because she was dead. I was still angry, so i grabbed her and started punching in her face. I quickly felt bad about it, because she is someone I know IRL. I stopped punching and looked at her. She looked like someone else, I was confused. I gave her a couple more punches and stopped.

I was drunk this night, and I am absolutely not an agressive person IRL.

16.07.2010

The Book (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a house that was not mine, but i concidered it mine. I was reading a japanese book. (I don't know japanese) I was sitting on a desk. I felt that the book I was reading, was important. Then my mother came and she said I had to do my homework. I left the book on the page and laid it on the side of the desk. I explained to my mother that the book I was reading, was some kind of studying too, so she shouldn't make me stop. she understood.