JeraldTa in Wonderland....

LUCID
NON-LUCID
NON-DREAM

Dream fragment #1:
Take a bath in the washroom . This was a digusting dream ... The bathtube was very dirty . I only knew when I let the water drain away ...... Sh*t kept showing ............ EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW


Dream Fragment #2:
Saw Long and Uyen .. I went with somebody couldn't remember to a park .... Was quite a beautiful park but it was cold ... We were sitting on chairs that could be pushed up and pushed down .... Long and Uyen sat behind me ... I played with my chair .... I saw a kid on a bike biked pass us .. Somebody told me it was my Dad's Friend's Kid named "Bi Em" ... I wondered if he was this big already (but really , he wasn't big in my dream , why the heck I said that?)

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Woke up in the morning (by myself) ... wanting to have a lucid so I just went ahead and lied down , waited for the sleep paralysis to happen ...

Closed my eyes but still could see the scene in my mind's eye ..... I could see my ceiling ..... Then I felt vibration all over my body ... And the scene in my mind started to change (the ceiling changed) ... I knew that I was about to projecting my mind to have a lucid dream .....

Ceiling changed from my normal ceiling to a ceiling with a fan .... I laughed myself thinking "what the heck is my subconscious trying to do here.." ..... Then the scene fainted .... I took my non-physical arms up and cleaned my non physical eyes ... Opened the eyes again , started to rise up ... and finally I saw the scene in front of me .... There was a clothes shelf (very old clothes shelf) with a mirror on it ... I saw myself in the mirror ... That was me a long time ago , when I was in grade 8 ... with long hair , wearing glasses , I was pretty slim (much slimmer than now....) , wearing that pink shirt and a short ..... I didn't take much thinking about that part ...... I wondered what would it be outside the windows ... I had a glance first and it looked much better than yesterday's scene ... But when I got closed to it .... Scene changed to a much more darker scene with more destructive features ..... I didn't mind exploring it although it looked sad and somewhat looked scary (although I didn't feel much fear) ... Decided to fly through the windows but this time I could not fly through the windows's net ... was because I was thinking in my head "maybe I could not fly through this?" - and I did not really fly through it .... I was sad .... and the sadness drew me back to the physical body ... no more lucid ....

Woke up for real for some quite time .... When I closed my eyes again , vibration started to bring up again .... But this time I didn't want to go out of body anymore because I was discouraged .. So I just lied there and read out loud the mantra "Om Mani Padme Hum" .... Scene in front of my eyes started to change .... I was physically covered with the blanket and now the blanket started to appear in front of the mind's eye ... It was all gray-scale at this time (I usually dreamed in colors not in black-gray-white..) There are some words on the blanket .. English words and then the explaination in Vietnamese was next to it ... I only remembered one word clearly , that was "Teetee" , I couldn't remember the explaination well but I knew the explaination for the word "Teetee" was somehow regarding a rat/a mouse .... There were some more words but I didn't remember them ... I was discouraged because I could not hear or talk or see or feel my Spirit Guides ... I asked them to show up but I didn't see anything yet ... Later on I heard a male's voice speaking in some language I couldn't understand ... My mind's playing trick with me again ?

Then I woke up for real ...