non-lucid

i was texting casey talking about our all nighter and discussing random shit when i told him something about being able to come through aim at which point he attempted to crawl through our IM's and did so succesfully he came through and laid next to me on the floor [i think i was already kindof lying down somehow] it was crazy i looked into his eyes and i was so excited that he was there i couldnt believe my eyes...he was so handsome and right there and i just wanted to kiss him so bad and then i leaned over and started talking to him the next thing i know is the dream flashes over to a different time and we were again talking i think this time he came through aim already all dressed up [i believe i was having a party or something of the sort or somebody was anyway..] i saw him walking along buttoning up his shirt [white, collared] i think he ended up finding his way over to me and we chatted before the dream again switched over to a different time this time i remember talking to him on something smililar to aim [our IMs] and we were talking about how amazing it was when he had come over to lay down and while we were at the party and just in general and i think it went to the conversation of how cute we used to be back in the day at this point i think we had a video up and then i leaned up and i guess it was this weird app but i leaned toward his name on the im screen and kissed him...and then there came the fireworks in me belly and then i hahd to 'send' the kiss and then i could nt believe i had kissed him but i wanted to again sooo bad but he was all the way in jersey and i remember my friend being there and i looked up at here then suddenly i was outside standing on some mailbox type thing and these guys came up thinking that they were so fuckin cool and trying to do shit and i said somdthing to them but i dont really remember the rest because i woke up pretty soon after that. also i think there was another part in theere with that house but, he was only vaugly in it via my thoughts in the dream.

So, I'd like to point out that I had a particularly stressful night last night, and I think it played as a factor in me not remembering the details of my dreams last night.

I was at this fair type thing, except there was only this fat lady standing by a game an a ginormous box of unicorn cotton candy and some weird machine type thing. I remember people with luggage trying to get onto this lift/gondola/cabriolet type thing, and I remember it looking different throughout the dream. I tried to grab some cotton candy while on the lift thing once, and I remember people lining up for miles it seemed trying to get on this lift. I wish I remember more because it was quite the dream...

• Okay so I remember getting a job at this really sick looking salon, the people were really chill and everything. i was on my way to work for the first day, and found this jacket (exactly the one I used of max's when we were dating) and picked it up, noted to my friend that this was a small for some reason, and decided to keep the abandoned jacket and continued on my way to work. When I got there I sat for a long while and eventually decided to leave with some people cause they weren't having me do anything at all. A few days later i was going back to work but it was now this salon restaurant type thing and i don't know but i walked around the place and worked the day.

• I remember talking and hanging out with a couple of my friends, but I don't remember much else besides hanging around with them at a mall or something.

So I remember that I had a kid. A baby boy. My mom was pretty much taking care of it for me and I remember in my dream thinking many thoughts in my head about the kid and who it would think would be its mom and how it would grow up, and how I really didn't want a kid or for it to know that it was mine. I remember going on lifts (almost like ski lifts) going around an industrial area like a big mall or something, but im not completely sure. I remember suddenly opening my eyes when I awoke and calming myself, realizing that I did not in fact have a kid. I never wake up in such a manner..

I had a few vivid dreams last night but I don't completely remember them.

I remember being in a neighborhood/house and I kept seeing/making eye contact with Justen.

I remember being in a grocery store, picking up a bag of twinkies (yes, a bag..) and some spanish little girl kept asking me something and i couldn't understand what the fuck she was talking about so I walked away from her and found Greg and some other people and hugged everybody bu Greg, we just made eye contact.

I know I had a few others but I can't seem to recall them now...

- I remember being at the beach with Mary because I had just come down to Florida. We were sitting on a towel just hanging out and talking, when this woman and her kid (with this little-kid-drawn solid pink cloud for hair) walked toward us and started blabbering about something and then saying how they were going to leave and head home. This got Mary into the state of min that she was done with the beach for today; but I told her that I wasn't done with the beach yet, because I hadn't been there in forever and I would really like to stay. (for some reason the woman stayed too they walked off and sat down again before it got to this conversation lol) Then Mary began ranting on about how whenever she wants to stay longer at the beach I want to go home and whenever I want to stay longer she wants to go home.

- I was talking to these two kids for the first time ( I had just met them.) but somehow this was the second time meeting them for the first time (except they seemed different then from the first time meeting them) I had memory of meeting one of their moms and coming to their house to have dinner, but I know at the same time this was the first time ever meeting these two. I even remember the taste of the doughy lasagna his mother had made for dinner the first time I was over. I was talking to them (meeting them), ten I remember them getting in their truck and the one who was driving made a comment about how he would so fuck his truck, to which I replied "Maybe if it was a 350, yeah", and then started getting inside the truck. While I was just about sitting on his lap, I looked at him and made a comment about how I could actually fuck it though, and when he asked how so, I kissed his cheek while sliding over the front seat (the only way you could get into the back seat) letting my body roll over his and replied "Its called a stick shift". Then we were at his house at an oval white table that seemed to be big and small at the same time. There was this guy sitting at the table with really long, shiny, curly, black hair. I never saw his face but he made me remember and thing "Where's Greg? He was here last time.." and I remember the 'previous' 'first time' I had been there Greg was supposedly always over their house. Then I remember their mother starting to serve some more doughy food, and then the dream started to fade away, and I can remember nothing more.

I can't remember much, except i remember i at least had three different dreams last night. The only thing i can seem to remember is that i wanted to help this society/nation thing survive. I gave the citizens free choice of a lot of carts, which held different types of clothing on them. I remember there were some clothes left behind from the ravenous stampede. I grabbed a luxurious black cloak and began to walk with the gorgeous woman who was wearing a light lavender purple of almost the same type of material/cut as the one i had now put around my shoulders, and we talked about the peoples greed and how they are far from being saved as their king had left them in a horrible condition, and would really have not much to do with them (i think she was their 'queen' or 'princess' of some sort...) and this is all i can remember from the entire night...

• I remember it was me and another girl that was at least a couple years younger than myself, we were going through this really old building almost like a green house but extremely overgrown, and dark. I can't remember everything in this building but you could tell that various experiments have been tried here. we walked into a room were there were these rows of frozen blocks with snakes in them in this table-like freezer well we heard a noise somewhere in the building and freaked, so I grabbed one of the frozen snake blocks and shoved it in my pants (for protection if I need it I thought) and we escaped through this semi-gaping whole in the corner big enough o fit us through--then after that the next thing I can remember is myself and this girl sitting on my bedroom floor and watching television (spongebob if I can remember correctly...) my mom came to say something to us and that's when the snake thawed and slithered out of my shorts and went after my mother trying to kill her so I got up and stomped on its tail end and it turned around and bit me in the thigh; when I wake up i remember what the bite marks had looked like and felt the urge to check my leg--upon doing so I found the same bite marks still on my leg.

• When I was really young, I would have this reoccurring dream; but only when I slept in the room we stayed in while living with my grandparents; I will tell it exactly as I examined/thought of/about it as I did when I was this age. This is the only true reoccurring dream I have ever had. I would either see this through a third person perspective, or the woman's. It would be outside of Publix, or Albertsons in the dark, with only the store's emergency lights lighting the parking lot. The women would be always be wearing a very sexy, flattering, red dress. She was exceptionally gorgeous, and more than likely in her early twenties. She would be walking into the parking lot coming from the direction of the store, and walking up to her would be this grotesque alien. He had a dark cloak usually of reds, and purples. His face was a sight of horror; dark, somewhat slimy, rough, and you could see his brownish-pink brain protruding from his skull. His eyes would be set on the women, intent on rape. I could feel his thoughts...I could feel his emotions and urges toward this women; and I hated it, but I wanted it...I knew..I felt what he did. But, I could also feel the woman's fear as this alien approached her; she too knew what he wanted and she was helpless and vulnerable, she could do nothing if he really acted upon his urges, she couldn't fight this being. I would never actually see it or have it happen to me (depending on the perspective i watched it from), I would always wake up right as he was about to strike...

• I remember this dream vaguely. I was on a beach and I'm not sure exactly what happened but I dived into the ocean to save something or someone, and I became a mermaid. There were many obstacles that made up this ocean space, and as I swam around I had to face many of them to attempt to free the person from a trap somebody had placed them in which I believe consisted of many ropes, and I believe there was a large clam involved, though I regret to say I can not describe/remember this dream as I once could have.

I will add on to this post, as I need to go, but I have a couple more past dreams I would like here.

We were in a dark warehouse type space, except it was ground level and it seemed to be outside. It was night-time and he [Justen Strang] was kneeling down speaking to me. I don't remember the conversation until I began pointing out and asking why he had started just flirting with so many other girls besides me, and why he was being such a dick. At the time he began laugh hysterically, almost cynically; then looked at me and said "because you wouldn't suck my dick you stupid whore" and continued with the laughter. After this i don't remember much until i was driving around in a car with family and we were suppose to be meeting up with him and straighten stuff out i suppose, except nobody was mad. After driving around for some time, and waiting at different places for some time, we were stopped at a building but i can't quite remember what it was, and he found us. Though i don't remember much after him explaining he was trying to find us the whole night and he was sorry it became such a mix up with everybody driving around, i guess the dream faded out and then later on i awoke.