Diesel

Dear Journal,
Ok, so after partyin till 5:30a.m.. I finally laid down to get some sleep. I laid down and tried the WILD technique. Back to bed, arms by my side. I thought, [COLOR="blue"]"Ok I can't fall asleep, no matter what[/COLOR]." So, I thought of the party I went to and doing it all over again. So, In my head: [COLOR="blue"]I took a shower and eveything, went to the party, talked to some girls, had a drink. SODA. Lol, and repeated the proccess. Girls, then soda. [/COLOR] Then I felt my mouth really dry. To force myself not to swallow. I thought of the soda. But that made me even more thirsty. So I swallowed. Once again I screwed up my WILD. I got pissed and was like forget this. Imma do this in my ACTUAL Sleep position. So, I turned over and said goodnite to myself and also saiid I can control my dreams. *Fragment* I do remember being in my dream and saying I can control my dreams and then as soon as I realized that I forgot what I had just said/thougt. I remember now because I'm awake. But in my dream, I remembered then totally forgot that: I can control my dreams. Its kinda weird. So once again no Recall and I had ADD in my dream. (Thats a joke, I just mean that I couldn't pay attention to the lucid.) So, today I will be: 1. Looking for Recall Advice(After Waking up). 2. Trying to find a way to pay attention to the Lucid when Im sleeping and not lose attention because of whatever reason.