geekgirl101

Past few nights have been uneventful. Some nights I've tried to lucid dream and some nights I got fed up trying. My dreams have been very uninteresting and uneventful. The only one I can recall was the one I had last night. I was trying to get disability aid for my condition and I had a solicitor at my house, only it wasn't my house. I knew that if I was to pass the test to prove that I was unfit for work I would have to do more than just talk about my condition, so I offered to make a cup of tea. I went into the kitchen and did my usual of lifting the kettle with 2 hands and wincing as the weight of the water hurt my wrist and fingers like it does. I was also wincing opening the door as it appeared it had gone into my arms in the dream, and as I went to sign a piece of document I was unable to grip the pen to write it, almost like I was the other day when I was signing a registered delivery. I told them I had fibromyalgia in my hands and it was difficult to write. The dream ended with me unable to recall anything else being said.

I knew this was reflecting how I felt about Atos forcing people into work and when I checked if I was eligible for DLA or something similar they only offered aid to people who were incapable of taking care of themselves or unable to walk. I'm not that bad but I got fears one day I'll try to leave the bed and I'll be in agony all over and not able to move a muscle.