false awakening

I feel like a crazy person.
More obsessed than the average,
I hate hearing your name.
I hate being reminded of what
I can't have !

Only time I'm at peace is when Im
Dreamin of havin you the
Way i wanna have you.

I love to do the things I can't do
Or say to you while I'm awake.

Like kiss ya lips, tell you how
Beautiful you are, or how much
Ya eyes sparkle & how I enjoy
Ya smile.

They should never sell you at risk
Of how addictin your aura would be.
You can make the devil change his ways,
One of a kind.

I'm almost fortunate not to have you,
I would hate to destroy you.
Everything I come in contact w/
Fleas from my arms at first chance.

I'll admire you but from a far.

I once read love isn't about posession,
If you love somethin let it bloom.

So bloom my queen !
Bloom ��������

I can't sleep.
One of those night's I guess,
Why can't my life be a romance story?

Why can't I end up w/ the one I adore so bad and why doesn't she notice me?

Why do she overlook the way I crave to have her both physically and mentally.

Why can't we piss each other off to the point of almost seperating then I win her over w/ a sweet apology that sweeps her off her feet?

Im in the wrong era looking for something that doesn't exist.

Movies aren't real I guess

that's what hurts.

Reality is what's real

& what's real is that life doesn't always work in your favor.

The harsh reality of life !