GetIt2Gether
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I feel like a crazy person.
More obsessed than the average,
I hate hearing your name.
I hate being reminded of what
I can't have !

Only time I'm at peace is when Im
Dreamin of havin you the
Way i wanna have you.

I love to do the things I can't do
Or say to you while I'm awake.

Like kiss ya lips, tell you how
Beautiful you are, or how much
Ya eyes sparkle & how I enjoy
Ya smile.

They should never sell you at risk
Of how addictin your aura would be.
You can make the devil change his ways,
One of a kind.

I'm almost fortunate not to have you,
I would hate to destroy you.
Everything I come in contact w/
Fleas from my arms at first chance.

I'll admire you but from a far.

I once read love isn't about posession,
If you love somethin let it bloom.

So bloom my queen !
Bloom ��������

I can't sleep.
One of those night's I guess,
Why can't my life be a romance story?

Why can't I end up w/ the one I adore so bad and why doesn't she notice me?

Why do she overlook the way I crave to have her both physically and mentally.

Why can't we piss each other off to the point of almost seperating then I win her over w/ a sweet apology that sweeps her off her feet?

Im in the wrong era looking for something that doesn't exist.

Movies aren't real I guess

that's what hurts.

Reality is what's real

& what's real is that life doesn't always work in your favor.

The harsh reality of life !

Ok, so its this girl who was attending the same school as me but recently withdrawn herself. I did like her she was unlike any other girl I went to school with but I wasnt all the way aware of how she felt about me. She knew I liked her b/c i told her. I even texted her often before she stopped attending school and we would have the deepest conversations about life, but she was guarded when it came to her feelings. She would hide her emotions to well. I'm a Scorpio she's a Pisces, both water signs so we connected above the normal. Some days she would be isolated from everybody and I can tell exactly what was bothering her just by her vibes or looking into her eyes (Im not a soft type dude btw) but her eyes would tell what she felt. When she stopped attending school we lost touch or she doesnt reply or reply hours later after i hit her up. I took it as she didn't like me all to well and stopped trying to contact her. I haven't been thinking about her until she been popping up in my dreams. It been the weirdest dreams:

1st Dream: It was me, her & a few other women all in the same room having sex but It's like my focus was only on her in my dream. She would get up in walk away I would try to stop her from leaving and would brush the other girls off of me.

2nd Dream: I was in a helicopter w/ another anonymous woman that I barely knew. We were getting ready for take off but the helicopter spiralled out of control and crashed. I wasn't sure if i was dead in my dream so I began walking around. I get to this town and I'm knocking on doors then she answered.

3rd dream: I was incarcerated then somehow was released from jail and ended up at someone wedding. The bride and I had hit it off and we began having sex. She was an older woman (35-40). Anyways, me and her had been having sex for the few days in my dream i was with her. Somehow the dream changed and I was on the bus w/ a few friends and they were laughing about me and the older woman having sex during her marriage weekend. Then i look up its her looking back at me.
Why does she keep popping up in my dreams? Could this mean she been thinking about me?