memorable

The dreams I had last night were very deep, as well as extremely vivid. I needed an escape tonight from my reality tonight, and I got it. I had enough of feeling trapped, and caged, I needed to go somewhere where I am not bounded by society's standards. Where I'm not afraid to act on the behalf of emotion and passion rather than a passive introvert.

Let's start off with my first dream which was completely lucid, yet, I did not do any reality checks and confirmed that it was reality when in fact I was fooled into think that. I woke up on the couch, It was late, living room was a cool blue off the TV, and walked off thinking if this was a dream, and confirmed that it wasn't, but I was still in control and lucid. I stared at the TV which was still turned on, It was some old late night family sitcom from the 70's probably, my sister was preparing something special all night, I wondered into the kitchen to find elegant dining set, and candlelight, and china sets, you name it. My mind told me that this was natural, so I went along with it, and after that I woke up to find my self in bed. It is 12:00AM, was my 8 hour long dream really less than a few mere minutes?

Okay, my second dream being in the library. This gorgeous blond woman waved over me from across the library, where I pointed at myself asking me? Yes, you she asked seductively. She gave me a deep philosophical conversation about love, life, and knowledge. In which I can't recall most of the conversation. she was about to lift her skirt to make an example, but she told me that love can come later. Knowledge must be a priority above all else. Then she told me about her passion, and picked off two books off the rack, and told me have I read these before? One of the books started with a N, it was thick red/black book . Second had the name grace in it. She smiled and then suggested that I read those. Then I walked away, and my sister who saw me talking to her told me that she is famous author of those two books, and they were her all time favorite. Actually I was in a middle of a author event where I noticed groups of people around me with the same interest of the book. I wondered off. Two girls were very interested in me, and flirted with me. After that the dream ended.

Third dream, I was with my relative walking across the city, we cut some sort of queue and into the auditorium, I find some of my friends from elementary school. All grown up. and my two teachers from current. I was wearing a Venom (heavy metal band) shirt which is something I don't own in reality, but I had it on anyway. A old woman to my side, and she had looked at my drawings I had sent in, she told me that I plagiarized, and that I admitted, and I gave her this idea for a drawing I was about to make. Something so surreal and amazing, I could see the look on her face, she was extremely interested in this drawing I was proposing. In conclusion I woke up. Pounding headache..

A couple more dreams after that. Long but short lived..

I was in a funk this whole week. I was wallowing deeply. My cold also contributed to this. I felt like hell was crashing upon me. There's a feeling in my stomach that told me that there were two options to all this. There is no one to talk to. I like being alone, and I tell myself this consistently, it's only realization or criticism that drives me deeper into that, and I refuse to waste my energy engaging myself in a conversation with others who don't share the passion I do. Who rather talk about something superficial. Having no care about the arts. There was chaos in my mind. Regrets, realization of who I really am in reality, and far below my expectations. How my goals are not within reach because I was ignorant and stubborn. How shut out I am.

Yet tonight, I finally got this sense of tranquility. My mind wondered, and connected. The worst bit is still here I feel. Happiness will come soon.
I just have to wait for the storm to end. Indulge myself in knowledge, and look at the stars tonight.

Well, this one didn't really make sense. It was a very long dream, because daytime shifted to nighttime along with a large amount of me walking about, It felt like a day, and I recall every moment of it in complete clarity. I just wish I was lucid. I'm still in school apparently. Summer school, and I was going to my classes and then lunch, which had one of those water ice things to eat. Trying to find my next class with I couldn't. I didn't have my roster. I kept looking and looking, but it is nowhere to be found. Ran into some electronic store in the school, saw a bunch of familiar faces. Outside, someone threw a pack of cards into my back bag trying to not let the other guy know. I gave it back. Some Asian kid spoke to me who I apparently knew in the dream, but I don't. Still trying to find that class, and it became nighttime. I somehow figured that it was another address or another building. Ran into some art school along the way, but that is not what I was looking for. I ran into some interesting people along the way before I woke up.