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I had a dream about a girl. We went on a date back in middle school. It didn't last too long. I haven't really spoke to her since.
For the first time. I felt a real connection far deeper in which I've ever felt. It was as if we knew each other in another lifetime. It's really depressing to think how dull reality compares to our dreams. This connection... I doubt will ever exist throughout my life, that is depressing. Relationships don't last. What I'm looking for don't exist in this reality I suppose. In a movie. Yes, but not real life. I'm not that person, and society deemed me to not be that person. To be honest. I don't know what kind of person I am anymore. Let alone the fact that nobody cares.

Anyway, back to the dream. We were in a library. God, I hate school dreams. They never end. I hate school. They feel as if they will forever be a part of my life. Fuck that. Anyway, the librarian has a ring-tone which was a soundtrack from American McGee's Alice which I noted to her. She didn't really care. Woke up. The end.

Today, I didn't feel like doing anything. There's no one to talk to. Nothing to do. So, I slept the day in.

I hate being in school dreams which is why I will not write about today's dream rather just write this down instead.

Today, after a whole week have I been able to get lucid. Normally, my LD would consist of me being inside or around some quiet area, but today when I opened up that dream door. It was a whole city as bright as Manhattan, and Tokyo combined, right before my eyes! Amazing! But I did spend a decent amount of time before I "woke up". I thought I woke up, but I was still LDing, but then I woke up for reals. Fun fun fun.