My Lucid Dreams

So I could remember 95% of my goals but I could accomplish none of them because I had the shittiest control ever...
I'm guessing the reason why I had such a little amount of control is that I was constantly worrying about waking up (I probably wasn't in REM anymore, it was incredibly unstable).

There are some positive points though: I was able to close my eyes and have some sexy time even though it was generally very unstable. I think I am getting better at stabilization, and I'm getting rid of popular beliefs like "if you close your eyes in a dream you wake up" (If you have read my LDs from a while back, you probably noticed that I "feared" lucid dreaming at night (ironic?))

Also I was feeling a lot like I was just discovering lucid dreaming, which really made me want to explore the dreamworld more - you know, see what I can learn about myself, try to dig deep into my subconscious... I also want to experiment with muscle memory a little more.

Lucidity: 9/10
Control: 3/10
Vivacity: 6/10

I'm lucid in my grandfather's bedroom. I checked reality plugging my nose. His map of the world is clipped on the wall at my right, just like in real life. I instantly feel the dream fading, so I hurry up and rub my hands together. I was expecting an instant boost in vivacity, but I have to spend a lot of time stabilizing in order to actually feel my whole body.
There's a brunette girl laying down on the couch.
... Alright, alright. I've had a lot of clean LDs, I can afford it.
I walk up to her, and ask innocently "You would give me a bj, right ?".
"What's that ?"
"Well it's... forget it, I'll talk you through it. Come here."
She gets up aaaand I'll skip the details
I had to rub my hands together the whole time

After some pretty awesome time, I walk out of the room and into the living room, still rubbing my hands. I think about my Dream Guide quest. I try to summon her (I think she's a her) but nothing happens.
I try again and get upset, until I realize that now might not be an appropriate time.
After all, I haven't been a very inspiring lucid dreamer earlier.

I notice that my family is gathered around the sofa, all watching TV. I remember another goal of mine: do a simple magic trick to a dream character. So, inspiring myself from a post that I read a few weeks ago, I take a crumbled sheet of paper and I close my hands around it. I visualize a dove emerging out of my hands.
I open my hands and... absolutely nothing happened.
Damn that shitty control.
I try again but still, nothing happens.
Ok, fine. But I'm not giving up.
I sit down on the floor and close my eyes, meditating. Then for a few seconds, I think "sage mode, sage mode..." for about 4 seconds. I stand up, and try the dove thingy again.
I fail.
... I guess this dream is simply bound to be control-less.
With that in mind I walk to a window, rubbing my hands, and jump out of it. I land on the grass, and I start walking down the street. I get to a road; it looks a lot like the one in my neighborhood, but larger.
I set out for a sex dream. I try to spawn a girl but nothing happens.
A car parks near me, and the girl comes out of it.
Oh, passive control, what would I do without you ?

*Skipping details *

When I'm done with my stuff, I walk to a bike which was abandoned there in the middle of the road.
I try to do telekinesis on it and to my surprise, I actually can get it to move a little before I wake up.

I start DEILDing but I renounce: I feel that the dream is going to be a pain in the ass to stabilize. Plus, I currently have a pretty bad recall; wouldn't want to loose my LD.