kindran

I drove to a gathering in the woods, there where many people, but we found a nice place to lay down our blankeds. we walked around and after some time, more and more people came, and as i walked back to our "camping site" is saw, that they sat down there sound system in our place, i had to finde our blankeds again, a guy helped my, to pull up some stuff from the audio system, so thet i could pull some t-shurts out. i made a joke, that i spare myself the ironing of the clothing by doing so.

I had a house and some people where there, we made a party and i sad, that we just use one part of the house (i think it was the garden) but the sturted to shift furniture inside the house around, and as i saw it, it made it clear that they could not party inhere, and i realised that it will be difficult to arrange the stuff in the way it was, because it was messy before... and there where a lot of antidepressents around.

I was waiting for something. Then i found myself in a staircase, there was a door, which i opend. Behind that dor a large apardment appeared, i found the father of a girl in the second floor, and i started to drink wiski with him. It was fun, and somehow, we decidet, that he should take his trousers off and play the piano, while doing that, he told me a story about a concert in which everyone just staared at his naked food, and he was iritatedby that, because he wanted that people hear the music he playd. However, i went on up and the stairs where really high to the third floor, and there, lived the girl (rut) i wantet to meet initially, she told me, that she may be pregnant, but she did not really know, she decided to let it go as it will happen. she also told me, that she did not feel to finde with her boyfriend.

There was a group of people, i had to observe. And i should kill someone of them, which i did. After a while, a friend of mine, should kill someone to, and i met him, bevor he drove there with the drum, to tell him, that he actually should not do it. i wontet do pay his ticket as well, and as i tried to find a one euro coin i found only a two euro coin, that worried me a bit.

Then i directly observed my enemies, watched them from a hill, and thought about what to do with them, i droped my cellphone down, so the head of them would pick it up, which he did, and then i thought i would blow him of with an explosive charge built into the phone, but instead i blow his car and on the phone came a message for him.

and then there was the scenery, in which i, and two friends, a girl and a boy, had to hid from them, but they came very close too us, and in that moment i understood, that you should breathe very slowly, when you hide.

I went into an store, with a girl, i think, we planed to sleep there, but some other people came, and they told us, we should go, it was not that clear... one of them liftet a paradox, which i, unfortunately forgot.

And in some scene, i stopt i round from a gunshot...

Im kind of flying up a tree, but it's hard to fly smooth, i'm worried that i might fall, because i do not have controll over my getting up, it requires strengh and concentration...

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I'm at a kind of a festival, where a film gets screend for the first time.. or so, and there is freud, i somehow come in contact with him and it turns out, that i shall hold a talk bevore the movie starts, but actually i dont want to... so i sit myself in the audience. after a while - the movie is playing - freud talks with me, he ask's me some personal questions, and i remember, that i do not feel comforable to discuss them with him right now. and i think to myself, that he is a real knows that question to ask... then he tells me, that i should not take jung as an example of an ideal... because he even could not really fuck.

Walkin with a friend (Stefan) in some kind of town around (akin to the inner city of zagreb), suddenly we see a dog walking the street, his tail looks like the tail of a collie, the torso like a dachshund and the head is a mixture german sheperd.... i love how he looks and i say to my friend, that i would like to take that dog, because he is not to big but and on the other side, he does not look too small...

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I'm driving in an tram with some other people, i do not know. I'm in a wheelchair, but actually i know that i dont need it, but somehow i find it comforting, that the people think i need it. Sometimes i get up, and do something, for example i hold the door of the tram open for someone i know, and at the same time i think about, why is it, that the do not seem do recognise that i'm actually dont need that wheelchair.
Than, at some point, we discuss, how they would help me pass through a window, with that chair and all that and i'm thinkin if it wouldn't be good to tell them, that i do not need that wheelchair....