LucidDreamGod

I attempted WILDing for about an hour or so, was really getting discouraged, I guessed that I was too hot, and one side of my nose was stuffy for no appearent reason. Also I think I may have extended my wbtb for a bit too long. I took some covers off and changed my anchor. I focused on my feet passivly this time, at one point I think I was focusing on my fan.

There were increasing feelings of losing myself, at one point I started hearing the voices of my neice and nephew playing outside my room. I was really upset that they might ruin this for me. But for probably the first time I've experienced this in years, I was floating above my bed, slowly rotating in circles, or at least had some sense of this happening. Eventually I accepted that it was time to leave my bed, at this point the kids were no longer making noise. I could feel strange pressure on different parts of my body though. I got up and it was much darker than usual. I took a look at my alarm clock, I couldn't really make out the numbers, but could tell there was something wrong. I looked at my feet and then my hands which I could barely make out in the dark. I ran into the kitchen, were I began to repeat to myself, this is a dream, all this is my dream. and suddenly a small light turned on. Everything became clearer as well, I think my brother was in the kitchen. I noticed the light was coming from the backroom, my dad was out there, it shocked me slightly when I noticed him standing there watching me. The dream started fading again, I couldn't manage to save it despite jumping up and down frantically.

I got up another time after the void took me. In my room again, this time I looked at the clock again, I saw a triangle and a 9, so I figured almost instantly that I was dreaming. This time it was still dark, but I saw that there was some light outside, and debated about going out there. But something else caught my eye, some chick was sitting at the computer chair in the living room. And I was going over to her, intent on lifting up her shirt, but the dream faded as I did this.

Well I'm back to the world of lucid dreaming, this marks my first journal entry in years. No remarkable experiences yet, just getting back into the groove of things.

I was in sp moments after falling asleep, it seemed like I was sitting up for a moment, and felt very heavy and sleepy, I slowly fell into the bed feeling this way. I couldn't manage to move automatically anymore. I managed to imagine rolling out of bed, and then I swung myself up, I was in the laundary room, where I had fallen asleep. I stepped into the kitchen, I think I thought of trying to shoot something out of my hand, or take off my clothes randomly, neither idea sounded too fun, thought about levitating something on the table, but as I tried, the dream faded.

I had another SP experience, I heard my brother come down stairs, thinking I was still awake, I was upset that he had happened to get up at this time, because he might ruin my sp. I heard my hungarian friend speak into my ear in hungarian, and heard some small clips of a radio dj, but couldn't make out what was said. I again got up, this time it was darker, and my brother was up. I walked up to my brother and told him I was lucid, he instantly got excited, acting like he was also lucid, I told him I was leaving to go outside and fly. He tried to hold me back, I escaped him and left the house. At this point I tried to really take in the dream scape so it wouldn't escape me this time. I remember there was a huge dirt path running up through the park, and I was following it, my dream seemed vivid at one point, and fading fast the next.

After this I spent some time in the void, where I began to imagine some scene of helping my mother cook dinner with a sauce pan, I wanted to see if I could make it into a dream, I managed to make it into something that might resemble a dream, but don't remember what happened next.