mrspacebootz

We've just returned from a funeral. My great grandma has just passed away no more than an hour prior. My family is suddenly all in one room and I'm in the hallway thinking of where to go and what to do. I hear noises--weird, indistinguishable voices coming from all angles. My head hurts. I close my eyes.
I look to my right and see my cousin following me. I don't question why, I simply allow it. I noticed I haven't viewed my appearance all day. It suddenly bothers me because I could look ridiculous and not even know it. I begin to look down, and instantly, I'm appalled. I'm wearing a light blue-jean dress that comes to my high upper thigh(I'm a guy). I can only picture how ridiculous I look to others. The breeze of the hotel brushes my ass cheeks. A foul vision appears in my head. I push it away.
My cousin is inviting me back to the room where the voices pierce like knives. I hold up one finger and look down. There's a pair a little black sweats just my size. I grab them and walk away.
I find myself searching for rooms to change in. I open one door with computers and cameras. I feel as if I'm being watched. I keep moving.
Suddenly I notice one room where no one is in. A man is vacuuming the hallway just a view feet ahead of me. His back is turned. I sneak into the room.
I rush to pull on the sweats before he comes in. Before I get one pants leg on he walks in. I freeze. A smile creeps on to my face. I say, nervously, "Sorry, I needed to find a room to change in... I'll leave once I get these on." He just stares at me. He's wearing only a t-shirt and underwear. I see the outline of his penis. I blink and look up.
"I'm not into that trucker shit anymore..."
I stare at him trying to register his words. I blink and reply, "Sorry, I'll just leave.." I walk out.
Then it hits me.
I walk back in, very seductively, and touch his shoulder then his arm.
"Hey. I won't tell if you don't."
His belly hangs over his pelvis and he has brown skin, the color of a shaved wood, and he has short black hair and a long beard.
"I told you, I'm not into it. I've grown."
Without a response, I walk away in discouragement.
The halls are dark and murky. I'm overwhelmed with imagination. Something comes over me.
I see a family of five sitting at a dinner table. They're dressed very elegantly as if they've just came from a wedding. I sit down. They don't acknowledge me. They just keep talking. I listen.
"I had 1 billion stashed for you, Charlie" one says. She has blonde hair that stops at her ears and curves into the start of her neck. Her skin shows sign of decay, I'd say she's around fifty.
I look down at what I'm wearing. Black sweats, pink socks, and yellow jelly sandals. Without a question I feel myself get up, and walk away.
I lead myself to the stairs and walk up, thoughtlessly.
I enter a room where everyone's door is open. They're sitting in the dark with a faint t.v screen illuminating the walls. I smell the scent of cigarette smoke. It stings my senses. I start to make my way back downstairs, when a voice stops me: "Hey. We go to Purdue University. What's your name?" I don't know them. One has red hair, the color of autumn leaves, and the other has brown hair. I think of dark chocolate.
"Dana. My name is Dana."
Before I can blink, the orange haired one grabs for my hat. He puts it on his friend's head and they begin to wrestle. Then, they descend into darkness.
I look ahead and see my friend Lex. Next to her is my other friend Jaina. I ignore Jaina and say hello to Lex. Jaina just stares at me. I think about our past and the mid-night walks and the hour long talks. She looks away.
I keep forward and see my friend Noah and someone I just recently met. I wish I knew his name, but I'm too afraid to ask.
Noah speaks of his weed and says it's more potent if it's dark(I don't think that to be true). I nod and smile. I look to my left and see the anonymous guy snorting lines of cocaine. My smile fades. I look away.
I see Jaina on the couch. She looks so sad and alone. I walk over there and she ignores me. I try to start conversation when some weird girl interrupts:
"Hey! Aren't you Dana? I used to see you at school. Do you remember me?"
I know her from somewhere. Her face seems familiar. Memories flash through my head of various of others that resemble her. Then it comes.
"Aren't you Jaina?"
I look above and Jaina(the first one)just sits there, idly. She doesn't seem to do anything but smile.
"Yesth" I notice this Jaina has a lisp. Why is there two? And why does this one remind me of the Jaina I used to know so well. The one I used to love with my aching heart. Dread floats its way into my thoughts. I start to feel empty.
The young Jaina grabs my hand and we sit on the couch. There's people piling in from left to right. Faces that I've seen before. Eyes that I missed. Voices that once made me cry.
Next to me is that boy from earlier. I hold my breath. I plunge.
"What's your name?"
He blinks. Then smiles.
"Jose."
Shortly after, he lies his head on my shoulder. I could cry tears of happiness. This all feels like a dream. That in any minute I could wake up and it will all fade away.
I close my eyes and wish for this moment to be eternity.
I hold my breath and count to five, and before I can reopen my eyes, everything turns black, and I'm propelled into reality.