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We're in this building of which none of us know. It's me and these two other guys. One being really big and black and the other being really short and yellow. I like the short, yellow one. At this point I'm trying to think of ways to capture his attention. I begin to drink some alcohol to ease up the tension moving around inside me and go in for the kill. As I'm trying to beguile this young lad he ignores me during my fits of flirtation. I feel utterly discouraged and sad at this point.
In disappointment I walk away, my head downcast and my feet barely moving I bump into the big black guy. He looks down heavily upon me and I shrink in size. He manuevers around me and goes toward the handsome lad. They begin to talk and I feel even more sad than I did before because what did I do so wrong for him not to talk to me but to him?

I was awakened by the saliva of a dog. And next to me was a man, a very beautiful man.
(It's sad because I don't remember his name or any explicit details of his face. But by my fragmented memory it tells me he was attractive.)
At the sight of each other we felt the need to kiss, so we did. Someone was screaming at us for kissing and he was trying to explain to them that we weren't, that in fact I was trying to wash his hair. He was holding a bottle of shampoo trying to convince them but, I don't think that they were convinced.
They left(well, he left). I am not too sure if it was a male or not, but by his anger I assume so.
I was on the ground with two adorable puppies.
He (the beautiful man) came down and lay next to us (me and the two puppies )and we started kissing again.

This dream tells me that I yearn for the affection of another man but society frowns upon gays so I'd rather stay out of reach because it's where I feel most comfortable.

But oddly I still feel a connection to that man in my dream. I woke up feeling nostalgic and sad. I guess part of the sadness I experienced had to do with my ex. The guy in my dream was older than me. Around his thirties or so, the same age that my ex is. But with this man it was something more powerful. I've never felt that much from a dream. It's weird. It was weird[...]