non-lucid

night of March 03 2011

First dream

In this dream, I was supposedly a fantastic singer and I was doing covers of two songs. I believe Fever was one of them...weird. Anyway, this camera crew came over to film me, because I was supposed to do a music video for them. I had to lipsync so they'd put my track over it, but I was a little embarrassed, worried I was doing it way wrong. I had to dance and lipsync, but in the end, I think I did a good job.

Second dream

I was in Chicago because my papa or someone was working after the SK show. I was along to help him. The job was to like clean up afterward. The whole time I was thinking dammit, I wish the SKs were here, but the show's over. And my papa said, "of course they'll be here. if they weren't, there wouldn't be a show to clean up after!" oh duh. Alyssa was also along. We saw and talked to J, and joked around because he gave me a hug and Alyssa was like, "I see how it is," so he gave her a hug, and I was like, "oh yeah?" and so I kissed J.

I don't know what happened, J led me outside and we pretty much made out. I was so ecstatic (even though for some reason he wasn't the greatest kisser, but maybe that's just me) and then he told me he'd pick me up and go to dinner the next day, but we spent the rest of the night together, just kissing and holding hands and it was fucking awesome.

Third Dream

HAUNTED NANA's HOUSE wanted to leave but couldnt.

Night of Feb 29

I was in a school play, and I was really really happy about it. For those who don't know, I used to want to be an actress, but that ship has sailed. I just recall being so ecstatic about getting to act again. I believe some Starkid was there, but I'm not sure. Nigel Barker came in the make-up room when I was trying to demonstate my make-up skills and I was way too nervous to do my best.

Later I was walking down the hallway of my school and something happened with Billy, like he hugged me or I don't know. I just remember him being somewhat infatuated with me, but it was kind of whatever. I had forgotten to get a ride home, so I called my brother and he was able to pick me up.

Oddly enough, it was my eighteenth birthday and I had completely forgotten. This made me extremely sad because I didn't have anything planned and i wanted a huge blowout party, because you only turn 18 once. Alyssa, Izzy, and I were going to go out to eat or something, but then that didn't happen because Izzy ditched us.

I was heartbroken. She was supposed to be my best friend. Then her brother called ME out on being mean to HER. Wtf? No. I think I explained my situation and I might have cried, but I remember he, like, held me or laughed and tried to comfort me. Weird.