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this dream is from a loong time ago, i just remembered it.

i'm in a church van on my way to camp at GLBA. we're almost there but up ahead the road runs stright into a pond. to my left there are three or four cabins. i'm sitting next to this kid James from school and he shows me this poem in a book. the poem is about death and i don't remember exactly what it said but i think it was about the beauty in death. now i'm out of the van and James and i are sitting between two of the earlier cabins inside a pin where there is a goat. we go inside the cabin and it is broken and destroyed, everything burned except for this mirror. a full body mirror and in it i don't see myself, i see Satan. we decide to pour gasoline on everything especially the mirror and set the cabin on fire. we're sitting in the field with the goat watching everything burn. the mirror doesn't burn. we bury it to the best of our abilities and go once again to sit in the field. and at the exact moment that the goats lays it's head in my lap the mirror starts to rise out of the ground. i think the goat was telling me to accept my fate.

i'm grounded but everyone left and i'm at home alone. i leave and there is snow on the ground and i'm walking somewhere near Rotary Park with Jon (ex boyfriend) trying to be sociable, friendly. he keeps trying to hold my hand and tell me he loves me and i'm just like, "Jon, no."
he is really pissing me off.
then James (youth minister) pulls up in the church van with all the stupid kids from my church and is like "get in, Mallory" so whatever, i get in. i know he'll mention something to my mom about seeing me and i figure i'll be in less trouble if i'm with church people. so anyway, James is trying to get me to go with him and the kids on this trip that's going to take all day and i'm just like "no, i don't want to go" and he is stubborn and ignoring me. he keeps driving and everyone is pissing me off.

i don't remember how the dream ended but i'm really glad it did.

i'm standing in my laundry room with Dakotah and out of nowhere i say "i'm dreaming" so i do a reality check and i am dreaming. but i'm not asleep enough and i can't make anything happen.
i wake up soon thereafter.

i'm on my way to Cedar Falls a made up town and i was going there because of a book i had read. the book was actually The Catcher In The Rye but for some reason it was called Cedar Falls in the dream. i am almost there and it hasn't been a short trip, i've been driving for almost a week and sleeping in my car and i had been staying in one town just outside of Cedar Falls and i was eating in a diner and four other strangers were there but they were all on their way to Cedar Falls because that's a popular thing i guess. anyway then this person i know named Freddy came in to work and i was like, 'how are you working here, i just saw you before you left?' and he said, 'i'm just working here today.' then there was this house. i never had to get inside the house, but there were three times i had to get out of it. it was surrounded by water, like it was sitting in the middle of a pool and the front step was level with the water. the water never moved. there was algae everywhere and four awkwardly shaped floating ice chunks like in the antarctic and the only way to get out of the pool was to jump from chunk ti chunk. they were wobbly. so i was with these four people from the diner inside the house and they all want first and then i went, and this happened three times, and i went last and i always fell in. the water was warm. the people i was with acted like i should have been really upset for falling in the water but i really didn't mind. i did back flips and played around and i could breathe under water (which didn't strike me as odd) and when i got out i was dry (which again didn't strike me as odd) and then i woke up.