Pixiedreamer

First off I would like to say wow I have been on here in a long time


It figures Sunday is my b day iin rl . I have this ex who pops in my dreams usually only when he is thinking of me sd

I was in my home town and my hubby and I had decided to get remarried . A random young girl decided to buy us wedding rings since our real ones are tattoos she drops us off at a caffe and she comes back with 2 white gold rings and says they are lesbian rings but since yall are so open minded I thought it was fitting ( what the is a lesbian ring ?) I become lucid at the moment I try to put on the ring and realize it is way too big but my hubbys fit his hand just fine they where pretty detailed rings I wish I could draw to draw them. I figure the rings must be the focus in this dream. ( note when I am lucid I still try to play observer in my dreams not disrupting the original flow) ok rings I think then my hunny bunny looks at the clock it is about 10 min. till our wedding so we light a cigg and get ready .This is when it happened I look over at the kitchen swingy doors and there was 2 hands at the windows almost like a horror movie creepy . But I knew what was really on the other side and said excuse me I will be right back to my friends and hubby.
I opened the door and there he was just asking why I would marry someone that was not him . His eyes had a deep sadness that filled my soul with pain . He was in tears and I hugged him He screamed out but I love you we are soulmates you know this . I smiled and took a step back ok fine I will take action I do not normally act upon my lucidity unless he is there so I did
I love you too and I acknowledge you as one of my soulmates you know that But what did you think I was gonna do live on the streets for 20 years just so you could play with my heart some more I deserved a life too you know it is not always about you . I found someone I can love who loves me back You had your chance . I was shocked by his dumbfounded quiet face he didnt say anything and then I walked away ..

I woke up laying on my back and even though I had fallen asleep less than 3 hours before I jolted out of bed I looked at the clock and went back to sleep where I have no clue what I dreamed about .. It always is this ex